hot and cold

that is what my face feels like hot then cold..... could it be a fever or possibly just side effects of "TYLENOL SINUS NON DROWSY" medicine. When me and Julie were cleaning today I kept sniffling and finally she said DO U WANT A KLEENEX? (not being rude) and I was like oh ya I forget that blowing the snot out lasts a little longer than snorting it up. EEEEEEEEEEEW is that gross or what. I am a sexy sexy snothead!!!!! hahaha

Well tomorrow is New years woweeewow. I have another house to clean by myself this time. I hope I feel better tomorrow, if not well I guess I will have to drink Rum and Diet Coke for NY Eve celebration.

ADIOS FOR NOW!

I am losing you here

Okay, why is it that I feel like I have plenty of time to answer all emails in a prompt manner but I can't make myself blog? I keep thinking of interesting things to write about and then I get to this lil blogger page and .............. aduh........aduh........... aduh............. Okay well I am SICK now, it sucks. Julie and I are cleaning that house in Oak Lawn today. The very dirty messy woman who likes to treat us like maids as in hang up my clothes etc etc. That is okay with me, but things are different when you have someone else with you. She does not like that. It is understandable tho cuz it is a long drive out there and we don't make that much $ off it and therefor don't want to have to stay any longer than absolutely necessary. B/c there is a long drive home, too. I mean 30 min to clean a house. BUT I am not complaining b/c before this chick called I literally had NO money and NO jobs scheduled for another week. I am just sick, so I am negative. (I am not always like this am I?) NE WAYS I am feeling very stuffed up in my head. Kind of out of it, but I am AFRAID of dayquil. It makes me feel even more out of it. But at least my nose wouldn't run....... Hmmm Decisions decisions. WEll I just want to say I love you Loyal Readers and I hope you have a grand and glorious day. Any plans for NY EVE? I think Jarrod and I will be here if anyone who lives close wants to come over!!!!!!!

ugh

UGH!!!!! I have been eating too many cookies!!!!!!!!!!!! I feel so horrible! Cookies are E V I L! They make me eat them all! (see how retarted they make me!)

Today I have the joyous and wonderous task of cleaning houses. WOO HOO, I did one already and now I am off to have lunch at Taco Cabana w/ Jarrod and then another casa to clean. Oh happy day.

To all you crazy day after Chrismtas shoppers..... don't get run over by a shopping cart.
ADIOS and GOODNIGHT

Merry Christmas

OOOOOOOPs I just realized my AOL has been on ALL DAY!!!!!!! Oh my gosh what a retard, I walked off and left it. Oh well. Anyway if anyone tried to call today, sorry about that. We went to Jarrods parents most of the day and had a good time w/ them. Last night we went to his grandparents for the traditional christmas eve large family once a year gathering. It was cool. I enjoy it more every year. Then we went over to our friends house til like 4 am, which was pretty fun. We got to see our goddaughter who is a lil cutey pie, being very hyper at 2 am cuz of medicine for pneumonia. I haven't got ahold of my parents today, but I guess they are with my grandparents. My grampa tom has been in the hospital lately, b/c of cancer....... :( sadness.... ANywaysssssssss merry chrismtas and much love, Caroline

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that reminds me of bah bah blacksheep have u any wool.........

anyway i spent most of last night wrapping christmas prezzies. Mostly for Jarrods family.... Yup they were all for them. I made cute little tags to go on them too. :) And yesterday I actually accomplished mailing Gold's present to him. I got him these cute goggles that have a shark fin on top so when he plays in the pool or tub he can pretend to be a shark. :)
My grandpa Tom went in the hospital yesterday. He has some kind of growth that can possibly cause a stroke.....sounds scary. I am worried about him and my gma. My mom is taking care of my gma and driving her all over the place so that is good. He is in the hospital all the way in Garland. YUKKY long drive. Anyway keep him in your thoughts and prayers. More later.

MAY I JUST SAY!

that Christmas shopping is insanity. It is for a good reason, ya know, you want to get people something to represent how much they mean to you, but you go through the store, bumping into people, trying to keep your manners and not get irritated, everything is on a time schedule, nothing is the perfect gift.... time slips away... OH jeez how did I get into this mess? haha. Well the reason I am Christmas shopping at all iz cuz my parents mini church raised some money to buy prezzies for my nieces, so that is what I was shopping for. Too much fun man. Oh my gosh. How is it possible to shop til you feel like you are about to mentally "DROP"? Crazyness! Hope all of you have similar experiences to share???

Lost but not forgotten

Yea, I am not quite the queen of blog that some people are, but I guess I have been neglecting my computer lately. I have been answering emails a lot more, so maybe that is why I have had nothing to say on my blog. If you write me, I will write you! :) XOXO

So, Friday, Johnnie died. She is gone now. She is in heaven now. It is so sad for Betty. Having her mommy there for so many years of her life (Johnnie was 90) and then she is gone forever. I feel really bad for her, and I want to be there for her, but I do not know what to say or what to do or how to act. She has tons of family around her right now and I don't want to be in the way. Plus I only knew her like 2 weeks. Anyways, I am glad for Johnnie b/c she was miserable. She was in pain. But I will miss talking to her. She was so silly. And my grandma loved her so much, I know she is sad. I think once you get to a certain age and ppl start dying, though, it is not as sad as it is when you are young and death seems so far away.

Anyways today is christmas celebration at my parents house. I am excited. I hope my parents are okay. My brother got in trouble last night adn they seemed bummed out and not in the spirit of the holiday. I don't know what to tell them, I don't know what to tell him. It is confusing. BUTTTTTTTTTT Happy Holidaze ya'll!!!! LOVE YA MUCH! Caroline

i sorry

I am sorry, I just have been having wierd days. U know how the holidaze are... I don't mean to slack on my blog. Sometimes I skip it b/c I am afraid to say too much, to actually use it as a journal. I do not want my depressing thoughts to bring anyone else down or to be turned into gossip.

Last night I had a crazy dream that there was a bunch of people at some gymnasium type place and there were these creature sort of things that trapped us all in there and we all had to keep walking around and talking and stuff like that for like hours and days and I don't know how long but whoever fell asleep would be killed. It was so scary. It sounds corny, I realize. We were all trying so hard to keep eachother awake and it seemed like no one would ever lose, which was good, but then this little blonde chick just went and laid down.... It was wierd.

Tuesday and Weds. I spent at Betty's house watching Johnnie. Tuesday was great. Johnnie was so awake and seemed so close to normal all day. We had a great time. I didn't get to see Betty much but when I did it was cool. She is the neatest and Sweetest person I swear. It would be so hard to have your mom in your house, dying, slowly... I don't know if I could stand it. Anyways then Tues night was bad for Johnnie, she was in a lot of pain and was incoherent. So Betty was up all night w/ her. I brought pictures over and the movie Finding Nemo on Weds unaware that Johnnie would not even know who I was again.
So it was sad...... It is sad to see her sick and hurting so much. I tell you one thing, if you want to forget your problems, go spend some time w/ someone who really has them. NE WAY, today hopefully I am going to work on a Christmas present for someone. I may go work for Betty again though, who knows.

My brother is going to go to Northlake college w/ me next semester. That is a trip. I am 7 yrs older than him!

I also got a phone call from my long lost friend Sherry last night. I had not talked to her for 1 1/2 years. It was so great to talk to her. She is a good person, who is on a good path for herself and keeping a positive attitude despite the harshness of life. Good good times.

on a side note:
If you see someone drowning, do you keep praying or jump in to save them even though you can't swim?

MOBY SONG

I think I have mentioned Moby before. I am a little tiny bit in love with the CD "PLAY" even though I do not own it. I listen to it on Weds. when I clean a certain special house. :) wink wink. Anyway....... since last night I have had these lyrics running through my head: "Ain't nobody know my troubles but God...." Yup. That is it. I am not explaining anything else.

slackin on the blogger

Whoops, I have missed a couple days. Hum de dum.

Well I was thinking of something this morning while I was bleaching my bathroom sink. You see I went to a Christmas party last night where a few people knew my ex...Jeremy. And they still talk to him, etc. And some of me and Jarrod's other friends that we do not talk to anymore. Well they were talking about what so and so is doing etc. And I realized that life can be boiled down to making choices and sticking to them. For instance you can't decide to get married, then be unfaithful. Being unfaithful is running from the "hard stuff" for a moment of fun. That results in worse consequences. Sticking to it may not always be the most enjoyable and fun thing to do, but it has better end results. I dunno..... I have realized in the last year or so that being married and staying married is something that I really want. And knowing what I want, well that is a miracle in itself. So I am determined to give some things up if I have to, to keep what I have, because it is what I want. I don't know if I am making sense here or getting my point across. I am just thankful for what I have and that I didn't get what I could have.

Ok, today is comment if u never comment day. I have heard there is someone out there who reads this but does not comment to me! So come on..... be brave, you don't even have to put your real name down, just make up one that I will know who u are but no one else will! I LOVE YOU ALL XOXO

eh

today i am skipping my daily chores, i did not really sleep last night so it is going to be a long day

i have to go do laundry at my mom's house, take my 3 quizzes and one test for economics, go to betty's for four hrs and then go to jarrods grandparents for dinner and a movie.....

happy day to u all, sorry this is boring..... read yesterdays..... :)

blaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhg

HEE HEE
That is what I feel like this morning. I had a couple draaaaaaaaaanks last night, and this morning, although I am up and dressed and doing daily chores by 7 a.m., I feel not quite all the way HERE.

Brent, I think Shelby would make an AWESOME garage band rocker!!!!!! And Anna is learning guitar........ :)

Clint, they played mostly Christmas music at the symphony. "Its the most wonderful time of the year", " An evening in december", "March of the toys", "Deck the halls", "Do you hear what I hear"...... The three songs they played that were not Christmas were "Trepak" and "waltz of the flowers" from the nutcracker and "Farandole" from the L'Arlesienne Suite No. 2..... I think they could have played ANYTHING and I would have been amazed. I do not ever listen to instrumental or classical music. My favorite song was definately "waltz of the flowers", though.

Kendra... Sorry that I have not been blogging. It is funny how time can go by. Is it really Wednesday already??? Well Monday I did not end up going to school because Betty called me to come work for her. I was supposed to sit w/ Jonnie and clean out her bathroom, etc. I ended up hanging all of Betty's outdoor Christmas decorations and helping her clean her guest house, and helping her construction guy clean the room he had just cut a door hole for. Hanging the Christmas decorations had to be the best part. It was a beautiful day on Monday! She has a neat deck out back that has a little bridge going over to her guest house and then a deck along her guest house. It was fun to be creative and get paid for it! :) As Cassie would say WOO HOO!

I can't remember what I did Monday night.......OH YA!!!!!!! Jarrod and I went over to his momma's house cuz it was her 51st bday. We ordered pizza, well actually his dad ordered us pizza and even got me hot wings, which was super sweet of him, and we played Rummikub. It was cool to hang out with his parents. It has been MONTHS since we hung out with them. And they live 10 minutes away... ANYWAY it was also cool to see our adorable nieces, too.

I was telling them how I have been having wierd thoughts popping into my head lately about BABIES. Kendra, you know this because I started randomly mentioning it in November when you were here... I do not WANT to think about babies, but they keep sneaking in my mind. So Jarrods mom told me she thinks anyone who has been married a couple years starts thinking about kiddos. And jarrods dad said no, the women start thinking about them and the men just start worrying about it happening. His dad is pretty fuh knee sumtimes. :) Anyway this is probably the longest blog EVER! BUT the rest of my story is that yesterday I went to breakfast at IHOP w/ the biblestudywomen and then went to school for hours...... finished my humanities class WOO HOO! And came home and had a fun and silly night w/ Jarrod. Today I am going to Evelyn's then to school to finish Economics THANK THE LORD! and I will be done w/ skewl for the semester! Too bad I did not register at UNT in time to go there next semester..... GRRRRRRRR... well I will worry about that later. Happy WEDS ya'll!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

a day comparable to a burfday

yes, yesterday was most definately a wonderous day that could be compared to a birthday. I got to attend the Dallas Symphony with my sis in law Tivany. That was such amazing music. We had, truly, the best seats in the house, and it was just an all around great experience that everyone should try. I can not wait to go back. I can not believe I liked the symphony... It was fun to hang out w/ Tivany, too, since I don't see her that much.

Then when i got home George and Cassie were here and I went to see Freaky Friday at the dollar movie with Cassie. THAT was a good movie! :) Every mother/daughter should go see that together. haha. In one part of the movie they take the daughter's door off the hinge in her bedroom as a punishment. THAT would definately be a horrible punishment.

Well today I am off to school, once I do my morning rituals...
More later.
CAROLINE

good ol friday night

last night was a good night. i went to the lost and found concert w/ my parents and siblings and grandparents. it was a groovacious show as always. My grandma even started liking it at the end..... Then I went to my parents and hung out and laughed w/ them and franky and dani his friend, and her mom. It was funness. Then I came home and watched Pirates of the Carribean with Jarrod, George and Cassie. That was a purdy good movie. I liked Johnny Depps character except there were a few parts where he seemed like the same character he played in fear and loathing. NE WAYS. Today I am making my niece Christina, who turns five today, a sticker book. Her party is at 1:00 at mcdonalds. WOO HOO. I had a mcdonalds party once when i was a kid and I accidently burnt myself w/ the coffee and got it all over my dress that my mom or someone made me. It was a cute dress and I was really upset.

A thought stolen from "TUESDAYS W/MORRIE":

many of us read PEOPLE magazine, tabloids, watch EXTRA, etc etc etc..... We get completely consumed in other people's drama. Why is this? Why, would we waste precious hours of our life being concerned w/ people we don't know, who don't know us or anyone close to us? HMMMMMMMMMMMM

YOU ALLLLLLLLLLLL ROCK!

thanks so much for all the comments! U people are so awesome. Thanks thanks thanks. I needed to feel the love!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today I was at skewl almost allllllll day, but one of my assignments i had to do was watch THE RED VIOLIN which is an older movie well a few yrs ago anyway but man that is soooooooo good! everyone should see it! It was so amazing and interesting and suspenseful, i didn't even mind sitting there w/ headphones on in a slightly uncomfy chair for 2 hours and 15 minutes.

Cassie is over again tonight w/ her dad george. She is playing pac man right now (we have the big arcade game if anyone likes that kind of stuff) and we were playing monopoly earlier. She whooped up on my bad..... must be that youth thing. She is 13.

Tomorrow is going to be so exciting! I got a new job. Well I will be cleaning this lady's house who is friends w/ my grandma. Her mom is really really sick and they have people come take care of her like elder care stuff like I did w/ Evelyn, but it is through agencies so the agency gets paid by medicaid and they pay the employees like $7.50 an hour. I don't think I can do that little of an amt of money, but I will figure that out as it comes. For now I am just going to get to clean her house every week or two or three weeks. I am looking so forward to it. Oh ya and another reason I probably won't sign up w/ the agency is that I do not want to get assigned to an older man. I am not good at communicating w/ most men. And I am sort of afraid of them. Plus a lot of old farts are DIRRRRRRRRRTy. haha

well Love ya'll happy day and night XOXO caroline thanks again for commenting!!!!!!!!

hum de dum

Kendra, are you the only person who reads my blog? Or is there some anonymous readers out there?

Yesterday I went to work w/ Jarrod, which was fun. We were in the car for 13 hours. YIKES! He said we could have driven almost to Las Vegas in that time...haha. That is his job though, sucky as it is. Maybe someday I will graduate college and be a phat paycheck accountant so he can do something more enjoyable....hmmmm...anyone have their doubts?

Today I cleaned Evelyn's house and now I am at skewl, trying to catch up since the semester is almost over. Fun stuff man.

Love ya'll
Caroline

mental block

I dunno why but I have not felt like I had anything very interesting to say lately. I have felt kind of on pause for a few days, well maybe even a week now....... My brutha is home now which makes me happy but still worried. I have had a hap hap happy weekend w/ my huzband and enjoy Kendra being here, I wish she could be here ALL the time though. I think I will start praying she decides to go to the skewl in Austin... I spent most of today being frustrated w/ my internet economics class. But Jarrod went over to my parents w/ me tonight (to try to get their computer to work for my class, to no prevail) and I love it when he goes over there w/ me. My thought for today: I can feel happy and content w/ my life and myself, yet I bet a lot of people look at me or my life and think there are so many things I should fix. If so, feel free to leave an annonymous comment about something that bugs you about me. I know that sounds wacky, but how am I supposed to know what I do that hinders others if no one tells me? :) Love u all.......CAROLINEY

yea

Thanksgiving is good. I enjoyed seeing so much of my family today. It sucks that franky is not home, though, but we all had fun together and I got to talk to him on the phone a while tonight. He is pretty honest w/ me I think, which is cool. i really struggle with giving good advice and saying the right things. Sometimes I think "having been there" is not always the greatest thing. I think of how I felt then and I think there is nothing anyone could say to me. That gives me writers block and speaking block. It makes me internalize madness and feel quite helpless and yet responsible. Wierd... It was cool to spend the day w/ my husband and my family today. My two favorite things in the world. I feel like no one really gets to see how wonderful he is in my eyes. But then again, I am partial, so ya know... Well happy turkey day to all, and I hope u all had good holidays full of yummy foods and fulfilling conversations.

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I did not apply at UNT.
I did clean a house for almost six hours.
My brother is in a psychiatric hospital.
I am confused and tired of thinking.

Caroline

Friday.........

Yea, it is friday. Today I have a house to clean, and if all goes well, I am going to apply at UNT. YIKES!!!!!!!!! I am so nervous. ISn't that retarted?

Tonight we are leaving for VERNON, TX w/ George and Cassie. Ugh..... I am not looking forward to it. It is cowdunk town which sounds superbly boring. I guess I will take a book. I am reading "Tuesdays w/ Morrie" and "Atkins Vita nutrient solution" and "the fitness instinct". I think I will take Morrie.

Hum de dum, well last night we went to din din w/ anna, mom and frank at Chili's. Who ever put a chili's over by my parents house in FM were supa smart cuz that place was packed and u know they are rakin in the dough. It was fun to go to dinner, then we rushed home to watch Friends and went to bed kinda early. exciting eh?

My cardio class yesterday morning was HELLISH. I can't believe I even made it through it. I think it was pure anger and pride that made me last an entire hour in that thing. URGH.

Well I am off to clean a house today... Yippeee! Money!!!!!!!!!! I just figured out my bills and I don't think I can afford any Christmas presents this year. Especially if I have to scrape up money to fix what my "Friend" ripped off. That is depressing. I love love love giving Christmas presents. Luckily for Kendra she is the only one whose presents I already have....... Speaking of presents. If anyone has a friend or family member who lives around here that they want to give a gift certificate for a clean house to, let me know! As a woman, I can say that would be a KILLER gift to get!

LOVE You all..........xoxo

nuthin like sleepin in!

I slept in til almost 8 am today! That is nice after usually getting up at 6:30.

I went to a kickboxing class last night to get out some anger I have at one of my friends right now. That is part of why I woke up yesterday with thoughts about trusting God.... I just can't believe a long time friend might screw me out of $240 when she knows I have NO money and when I do have money it is hard earned.... So I am just hoping this is all a big misunderstanding. But if not, I do trust that everything will work out. I might be minus a friend, but it wouldn't be the first time. I know things will work out, I just need to focus on what God has planned for me instead of my evil thoughts.

As for Eminem, well I still have it in my head today, so maybe I should just listen to it and get it out of my system!

Anyway that kickboxing class was awesome! It was an hour and I wanted to keep going for another hour.. So today I am going to some other class that is hopefully similar.

So I guess that is it....... Today I was going to apply at UNT but I think I will wait til tomorrow...
love, Mrs. Procrastination

early thoughts

I woke up with Eminem lyrics running through my head...... and it has probably been weeks since I listened to Eminem. I woke up with thoughts of trusting God completely. That is my challenge...

howdy

Yesterday was cool........ we went to Jarrod's grandparents house for dinner and a movie. It was a yummy homecooked meal, which Jarrod fiends for haha. It was a groovacious night, we had lots of continuous and lively conversation. His grandparents are really loving people and really IN LOVE, which is cute. We watched Whale Rider which was slow at first but turned out to be a really good movie...... There was a guy in the movie who reminded me of my friend Richard who died a couple years ago. The movie made me sad in a way watching this guy who looked just like my friend. But my friend died when he was like 21 by overdosing on pills and alcohol. He was a really fun and lovable person. It makes me sad.......

Sunday Stuff

Howdy ! it is EARLY monday, what could be more sleepy than that??? Yesterday I had fun shopping w/ Franky, Anna and Mamacita. We went to grapevine mills and I finally got this pink fuzzy hat I have been wanting forever. Oh ya Sat. night I went to see Jeepers Creepers 2 (which was actually scary) at the Dollar movie w/ Cassie. Cassie is Jarrods friends daughter who comes over here all the time. She is 13. We always get bored of just sitting here playing on the computer while Jarrod and her dad play video games or what ever. So we went to that movie sat. night and sunday night we went to see The Boss' Daughter, which was funny! It got really crappy ratings, but it was funny. Ashton kutcher can play a good dingy guy. NE Way so I was happy yesterday cuz I got up early and went to 9 am church (ok, i was ten minutes late) and got to see my grandma and Tom, and Tom is doing pretty good at least he seemed like it and said he was. He is going through Chemo but hasn't lost his hair yet. He is my perfect picture of "grandpa" even tho he is my step grampa. So today I am going to work out then do lots of homework. Sometime this week I have to I MEAN HAVE TO apply at UNT, I have been putting it off so long, I hope I can still get in and get classes.......I have to finish college. I just wish I would have done it by the time I was 22 or something so I could pursue my 24 yr old interests NOW. oh well, no regrets. Happy Monday everybody
XXO CT

sat.

last night i stayed up til 4 am watching movies. i watched "SPUN" and "UNFAITHFUL" which were both good movies. They are about bad things, but are attention grabbing movies that keep u interested til the end.

not awake yet

its like 6:45 and I am not quite awoken. I have found that I wake up faster by emailing people first thing in the morning than when I was trying to make breakfast or just sit on the couch and wait for wakey wakey to "happen". The housecleaning w/ Julie went great. We realized that we charged the chick too little $, but we worked our hardest, anyway, and it paid off cuz she wants us to come back every two weeks!!!! WOO HOO! It is a beautiful place she lives in. The houses are HUGE and all unique looking. She has a town house which doesn't look huge until you go in (and clean it haha). So, four days after Julie and I talked about joining up on the housecleaning thang, we have one steady job already! The other ones I was already doing, I am going to keep doing by myself. At least for now. NE way that is about all that is crappinin. Jarrod and I watched a trippy movie last night called AFFLICTION. Eery alchoholic/violent dad movie. Oh ya, the other night we watched "Ghost Ship" and if you haven't seen that one, it is SO SCARY!!!!!!!!!! Well I am off to exercise, and clean two houses....... woo hoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! its FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!

XOXO CAROLINE

push button publishing

Those of you who I do not email pictures to, does anyone want some PICTURES??????? I am having fun w/ my digital camera! :) Well last night was groovacious. Jarrod took me to Red Lobster for dinner. We were driving around the mall and he was like where do u want to go and I said Red Lobster, and there we were!!!!!!!! So we split the steak/lobster meal and he barely ate so i chowed down on some super yummmmmmmmy food for the second time yesterday! :) Then we went to look at the mall for him some new pants. He hates to shop, I guess most men do. It is amusing how the salesmen in a mens store are so much different than in a womens store. They understand that most guys don't want "help" finding the size etc. so they sorda just let u know they are there to help then they back off. NE WAY then we went and watched "RADIO" in the mall movie theater, which was a very good movie. It is a tear jerker in a few places just to warn you, but I was scared to death that the mentally challenged character (Cuba GOoding JR) was going to die, but he doesn't. So that is all I will tell u about the movie. Have a great day...... I got a new cleaning job, but it is probably just a one time thing, in Oak Lawn. Julie is going w/ me today for the first time. I hope I didn't bid the job too low, and I hope that Julie and I work good together......... I HOPE I HOPE

hip hip hooray!

I am happppppppy. (yes, I might have that rollercoaster emotional disorder)

Today I cleaned for Evelyn and I was just bummin cuz she was gone at an appointment and I just keep getting so tired lately and it is annoying and I don't know why I am so tired! I sleep plenty! So anyway then she came back and took me to Macaroni Grill for lunch YUMMMMM ( I had chicken marsala w/ no pasta) and we just had the BEST time. She is so awesome to be around. I just feel like smiling ear to ear when I am around her. I can't put a pinpoint on what it is, but I just like her darnet. So that was really cool... Now I am at the school getting some videos for my humanities telecourse. I am almost done w/ it! Hooray! And now I have to go up to Vertis (my old workplace) and return this lady's key whose house I used to clean before her kid got braces and she couldn't pay me anymore. I am nervous about seeing my old work peeps, I always feel kind of wierd around them, but I guess I will go anyway and just deal w/ what ever I feel and think and try to be realistic about what they are REALLY thinking or whatever. Ugh... anyway!!! I had a lot of fun hanging at my parents yesterday. And Anna took ME out for Starbucks! Is that lucky or WHAT. :) Have a great night everybody XOXO

whatever

i am feeling pulled between two parts of my life right now. trying to figure out difference between right and wrong and loyalty. ugh..... sucky sucky i am trying to have hope, actually i do have hope, i am just pulled, like i said between honesty and loyalty, oh wait i worded it different this time. ugh..... anyway.

Hope everyone is oky doky... More people need blogs!!!! If I do not read and write to your blog, please send me a link!

I miss my extended family. I have not talked to Lynne forever. I hope they are all doing okay, maybe I will call them tonight... Jarrod is off work today and was supposed to go to Shreveport w/ his dadeo but that didn't work out so they are out running around. I have been at my mom's all day, we were supposed to scrapbook but it hasn't worked out so far...

Today I am wearing a black shirt w/ blue glitter letters that say NEW YORK. It is a very cute shirt but the glitter is ALL OVER ME!!!!!!! YIKES! ATTAK OF DA GLITTAH!!!!!!!!

Oh my gosh it is TUESDAY i just realized i skipped a day of blogging. HOW COULD I!!!!

honestly speaking...

I worry about a couple ppl i know who are self destructive. I know worry is a waste of time, but I can not help but be sad for them. I just wish I could fix it all for them. I do not know what the right thing is for them, what can make them happier, or find what they need in life... sigh... I am sure I am making no sense here.

Anyway! we had fun visiting KC in jail. It wasn't such a bad drive, and we always laugh the whole two hours we are in the visiting section w/ him. So that is all cool. My brother stayed the night at my house last night......That was supa fun and cool to have him around. Today I helped him do his chores and gave him a ride to Denton. I hung out at my parents house pretty much all day today, which was cool. That is all that is going on... More tomorrow. Love Caroline

supporting Planned Parenthood

I know this can be a controversial subject, so why not blog it! I am a supporter of the Planned Parenthood. I have gone to a few different doctors in my day, but never have I found one (which is actually a midwife nurse or something) that is so concerned with my wellbeing and health and education as the one I have been going to at Planned Parenthood in lewisville. I am superbly impressed by their persistance in asking tons of questions about everything, and sitting down when you are in the room with them. They have all the time in the world for you, as no other doctor I have ever been to has! Ok that is all I have to say about that.

So happy Friday everybody! Thank you to the loyal readers of my blog. i appreciate GREATLY your interest in my writing and my life. It makes me feel loved~!

Last night we went to our God daughter's 2nd bday party. It was fun. We watched Finding Nemo, which is a super cute movie if you haven't seen it. Her parents are splitting up, which makes me kind of sad in some ways, but I also understand it. i just think divorce is sad, period.

Jarrod and I have had a great week~! Tonight he fixed my computer! I am so happy!!!!! I was using this tiny laptop which had a full hardrive and couldn't have any new stuff installed on it cuz it was made for windows 98. So I am happy to use this regular one. I mean, really happy!!!!! Now I can download my pictures off my digital camera and hopefully get a printer eventually. I have two broken printers....... Does anyone know about printers????? :)

Well have a great night, and great weekend....... I think we are going to visit Casey in jail tomorrow, which is a 2 1/2 hour drive so that will probably be our entire Saturday. Woo hoo.

LOVE YA!!!!

Still lovin it

Yes, I still love my life. Isn't that wacked! Last night Jarrod and I went to Chili's for dinner and that was very coolio. I had boneless buffalo wings (which there are more waiting at home fore me, mmm) and he had fajita nachos, his favorite!!! We went to the dollar movie after that, and OH JOY, it is only 50 cents on Tuesdays! So we saw S.W.A.T. which was a good movie. It has cutey pie Collin Farrell and that mean hispanic chick off of Blue Crush, does anyone know her NAME??? It was a good movie, for a BOY FLICK! We had a great night, we came home and watched more of Elton John singing. Today I cleaned for Evelyn and then she took me to lunch at Joe's Crab Shack. It was a yummy lunch. It was cool to hang out w/ her and talk to her again, too, it feels like forever. So she told me she wants me to come once a week for four hrs to clean, and that she will pass my name around for some more bizness. Hopefully this weekend I will have some time to put out flyers, too. If only more people knew how AWESOME I can clean a house!!!! haha. But its true! Anyway so I am at the school now, I just got done watching two videos for my Humanities Telecourse. The videos were made in 1976, yet they STILL consider them educational! Crazy, but whatever! I took a 30 minute nap in my car before coming inside the school. I don't know why I am so tired all the time! I just always get like TOTALLY spaced out sleepy in the afternoons. I try to eat pretty healthy, I guess I could do better. I have been getting enough sleep, well 7 hours anyway. I exercise at least 3 X a week for over an hour... What is the problem here??? So when i woke up from my car-seat nap, it was pouring rain outside. Thank heavens that Jarrod's gma gave me an umbrella a while back and it was still in my trunk. Of course I caught a glimpse of myself in the window of the school and I looked pretty gooberish with my light pink sweatshirt on and a pink/yellow/green striped umbrella that said Oscar De La Renta. Oh well, who cares what I look like anyway right! Well, I am headed home now. Have a good night everybody and thanks for reading!!! LOVE CAROLINE

Elton John

Does everyone know just how amazing Elton John's musical ability is? MY GOSH! Jarrod and I watched this concert of him in madison square garden (on DVD) last night, doing all his greatest hits, and it was just amazing music. I was mesmorized song after song at his beautiful voice and piano playing. MMMM Good stuff!!!!!!! Jarrod and I had a great night last night, we had dinner at Jason's deli and went and looked around 1/2 price books for a while. That is where we got the Elton John DVD for $7.00!!! Those who are around us know this is not our usual weekday night, and it was so cool... Today is bible study, homework homework homework and test taking. Yippee! Have a great day everybody!

"rubbin it in"

Kendra, don't worry, when you come visit I will make sure dad e o makes you steak at least twice, and maybe we can go have a beer with Brent! :) hee hee

Well today is my catch up with school day. I hate these days...... but I feel much better once I am caught up in school. Taking telecourses is a beautiful thing if you are severely self disciplined. (ie: not me)

So I am off to exercise, get cat litter at wally world and mail things at the post office, then I will do my homework. You see my priorities here!

Update: I never did go get a pedicure the other day, and we didn't go to the hockey game last night.

Love ya! Caroline

sunday sunday sunday

Howdy loyal readers!!!!!!!! Thanks to all who read and comment and to those who read...... :) love ya'll!

Today was a good day, I went to church and it was a very good "sermon", made me think a lot, a nice lady sat next to me which made it not feel like I was at church alone. It was good. Then Jarrod and I went to my parents house for lunch which was yummy as always. STEAK! Then my grandma came over which was cool and her, my mom and I and Anna moved anna's old bed into the guest room and gave the old twin bed to Jarrod's parents for his neice who is about to turn 5. And we got the futon out of my guest room and moved it over to my parents house, so now I can have a big desk in this room and hopefully hook up my GOOD computer! YEA! Then Jarrod and I had Arby's for dinner and my uncle Spencer called tonight and it was SOOO awesome to talk to him, it just totally gave me hope again. I have had really wierd mood swings all day today cuz I think not smoking more than a couple drags a day is making me super moody, plus some medicine stuff, but anyway. It was soo good to hear that my uncle is doing good and that he and his wife are growing and all that awesome stuff, I am just so glad they are happy. My uncle used to live here in TX and would hang out w/ me and Jarrod a lot. So that is it for today, tonight the Sopranos comes on, my favorite show! I talked to Evelyn tonight and she only wants me to work ONE 1/2 day this week, so I gotta get some flyers made up and start putting them out again and get some bizness comin in. Well hope to hear from u soon!!!!!

day after halloweenie

Oh happy day! I got to talk to Kendra for like an hour today and then I got a long letter from my brother in law, Casey who is in jail. And it is not even 3 pm yet, there are still possibly good things to happen!

Last night was ok, not too shabby, nuttin much to brag about. The best part was meeting Cindy and Tom at BJ's for happy hour. :) They have a beer called HEFF which is good with lemons in it, and it also tatses better after you drink a couple. :) hee hee

Today I think I might go blow $20 and get my toenails done all purdy. Or I could try myself...... hmmm... I dunno. Jarrod is still sleepin but I have a feeling he might want to get up soon so the day is not completely gone. I got up at 12:30 and I am still in my robe. I need to clean my house up a lil from our guests last night and take a shower... like before it gets dark outside haha.

Well don't know what the rest of the day will bring, but hopefully tomorrow morning i can go to church and work out and then we are going to the Stars hockey game at 6 pm. We might even ride a train to get there! That would be COOL!

Love ya, Happy Saturday!!!!!!! CAROLINE

There's no crying in baseball

Ok, I am done whining and sweating now. I feel much mo' bettah! Halleluia! Be gone sickness! And don't come back for a long long time!

Ok, I did not smoke a cigarrette all day yesterday. Can I do it another day? I believe I can. I believe it must get easier not to smoke each day that I don't smoke, right? Let's see if I give in or not.

Today, I am back to work! Two houses to clean, hooray! I am so glad that I am better now and so glad that Evelyn didn't seriously need me this week. One thing I hated about working at Vertis was the guilt trips I would get for calling in sick. I would make myself work even when I was feeling the worst, to avoid these guilt trips. I hope I do not have to have another job like that ever again.

The hardest thing about going back to work today is going to be telling my body I can't take a nap at 3 pm! haha. I did clean part of my own house yesterday. That made my husband very suprised and happy, since I had pretty much set up "sick camp" in our living room, and he was starting to get nervous about having to do his own laundry. :)

Have a great day, and Happy Halloweeeeeeeeeeen!
Love Caroline

Being sick is SIcK

I am sweating to death! EEEEEEEW its so gross! I guess all the sickness is sweating out of me, no matter how high I put the air conditioner on. Being sick is the pits. I am tired of sitting around doing nothing! I have literally watched TV and ate only Ice Cream for two days straight, and today would be my third. This sucks! I must be better by tomorrow so I can clean a house or two. Sorry to be so whiney, but being sick is all that is on my brain. Jarrod has been taking really good care of me. He got me some egg drop soup and has been very sweet about all my whineyness and coughing. He is always the bomb when it comes to me getting sick. I hope I do the same for him, I can't remember the last time he was sick. I guess that is all that is going on..... Tomorrow is halloween, and I probably won't do anything to call home about. But I love to hear about everyone else's exciting lives, so email me, since I guess my comments aren't working today or something...... BLNDNT@aol.com (LOVE YA)

blaaaaaaaaaaaaah

I feel BLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAh. I am sick. Sore throat, coughy coughy coughy and stuffy head and nose. Will someone please come take care of me???

I had a fun trip to Kansas City. I always feel like I am visiting "home" when I go there, although, I only lived there four years.

So I had to cancel my bible study today, and my work day at Evelyn's. So there is money and spirituality down the tubes. So much for vitamins keeping me from ever ever ever getting sick!!!!!!!

I am online TRYING to order a movie off pay per view and of course the website won't work, so I already missed 10 minutes of the movie (I was going to get the HOURS by the way) so SCREW IT. I am taking nyquil and going to sleep!

I have been up since 2:45 this morning. I am not a happy person. It feels like my head is going to explode when I cough. My husband is at work til 6 tonight and my mommy is out of town!!!!!!!!! How could they leave me alone like this? :) hee hee

Well, love ya'll. And you might think it is amuzing to know i went to walmart at 6:45 this morning for carb free ice cream and cough syrup. I did not comb my hair, either, which is a large permed black fro. Ghetto superstar, that is what I are.

LOVE YA!
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oky doky

Okay, well I didn't really clean my house, but I cleaned out my car. It was pretty nas-T. Why does no one else ever clean out my car? I don't understand why months go by w/out me cleaning it and no one else felt the urge to do it for me. Must be cuz I don't live at home anymore. Dad-e-o used to clean it once in a while, or at least inspire me to do so.

Well time to take a shower (its only 4:30 pm) and get all cute for the Six Flags trip tonight. After we get back from that around 10:30 Jarrod is going to get a tutorial on Blackjack from his dad. They both love to gamble, so maybe it will be a memorable bonding experience.

By the way, did I mention we are probably not going to go to haunted houses in Kansas City? Neither Jarrod or I really care that much and its $20 a person and its in ghettoville K.C. so we will probly go to a groovacious dinner at a japanese steakhouse and have some drinks at a smooth dive. Well Love ya'll ! Happy FRIDAYYYYY

short like you

This morning i wrote a LONG blog and got bumped offline by a phone call or sumthin so it deleted the whole thing. Oh well, I was just rambling in it anyway.

Yesterday was my last day w/ Evelyn. Today one of my housecleaning jobs got postponed. I am okay though. I know everything will be okay.

Tomorrow we are leaving for Kansas City YEEEEEA! Tonight we are going to six flags fright fest.

I used my gift certificate at CD warehouse and got Christina Aquilera and Tori AMos (Scarlet Walk). ANd I got another $3 cd but I can't remember the name right now.

Well gotta clean my own house now and do a lil laundry for the trip!

Take care everybody! Write me! Love ya!

"I'm feeling much better now" (Sixth Sense vomitting dead girl)

Well yesterday I could not blog because although I had a wonderful day with Evelyn and Bryn (shopping and eating lunch at Blue Goose Fish Co.) I found myself getting utterly depressed on my drive home. I suppose it was my monthly dose of PMS. Jarrod finds it amusing now, but used to think it was so insane. I am so happy 99% of the time now, and suddenly one day I will go lay down in bed at 6 pm and cry about anything that crosses my mind. Last night I cried about my grampa Tom who has prostate cancer. It does not seem fair to me that he is going to die. But I know that asking God WHY will just make me crazy. Anyway, I was sad all night last night, so I just went with the feeling and laid in bed and did a little laundry and Jarrod had a friend over to play video games, but came in the room here and there to giggle at me or give me a hug. He really is the most adorable guy ever.

My friend, Natalie, is starting a new bizness, since she, too, is no longer employed by "VERTIS". She is going to help small businesses with their marketing, networking, etc. I am really excited for her about this change. I think she has some awesome ideas and is going to go far. She is also goign to help me w/ my biz, so that is an added bonus!

Today I do not have to rush so much. I am sipping some coffee and answering emails. I used to think it was a sign of addiction when I immediately got online in the morning, but I think it actually helps me from going back to sleep after Jarrod leaves at 6:30, cuz when I do that I feel like crappy dappy doo the rest of the day. Today I am going to go work out for hopefully 1 1/2 hours, then go have a long lunch w/ my huzband and then go to school and get caught up! I will probably be there from 3-8:15, but that is ok. I will sleep so much better tonight if I know I have accomplished something. I am not working at Evelyn's today. She is starting to not need me much. I am goign back again tomorrow, and possibly Friday, but I doubt it. We shall see. She did say she wants me to keep cleaning her house once a week, so that is great news!

people I miss talking to: Tiffany H!! and Jackie G
people I miss seeing every day: Autumn, Bryn, Patsy
my lifetime friend: Nikki
people I can never say I love you enuf to: KELLY LYN AND GOLD
person I am proud of: Neighbor Cory (who never reads this) and Jana
impressive people w/ inspirations: Kendra, Natalie
Young person who has MAAAASSSIVE potential to do anything and everything: Anna (www.cbcnannerhead.blogspot.com)
Dream of the day: To have a bisness that employs caring people to take care of the lonely elderly folks out there
Wish of the day: That I might go to nursing school if we move to Galveston and that I might actually become a nurse someday.
Prayer of the day: Jarrod to be happy, and also to find a job he enjoys.

LOVE YOU ALLLLLLL Thanks for reading!

qwikky

Ok i have to blog fast cuz every time i have written a long blog in the last two days i get knocked off line and it gets deleted! so here is the low down. jarrod and i are talking a lot about moving to galveston when KC gets out of jail. I am going to work at Evelyn's today, and hope and pray to keep working there for a while longer. I did not exercise today, i am lazy. I can't wait to go to Kansas City this weekend, for haunted housing and casinos! Well actually that is why jarrod is excited, i am just anxious to see my friends! Love ya'll thanks for commenting!

thoughts on moving

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acceptance of loserdom

No, my computer does not crash when I am making blog entries, but yes, it does crash when I am taking a midterm for my economics class.

I have sent and email to my teacher begging him to reset the test, but he has a strict policy of not resetting tests, so I may be retaking a class. A horrid horrid class at that. (reminds me of biology in utah...)

Yesterday Jarrod met me and Evelyn for lunch and ate at La Madeleine. MMMMM Best tomato basil soup ever! Jarrod did NOT want to eat there, but he ended up liking it. We even had a $4.00 cup of strawberries for dessert. Jarrod and I agreed that the little french bakery would be a lot cooler if when you walked outside you were actually in France and not Irving, Texas. Haha. It was a good day.

But last night SUCKED> I left Evelyn's at 4:30 to go take my test at the school, where the computers don't crash. Well the school closes at 5 pm on Friday. I got there at 5:04. So I went to the Irving library, which also closes at 5:00. SOOOOO I drove in the hellacious traffic to Lewisville.....got there at 6:02... guess what time the Lewisville library closes 6 pm. My test was due by 11 pm, so I just brought my happy hiney home and prayed for the best. I guess I should be thankful that I had only answered 5 questions before I got knocked off line.

Well today is lazy Saturday. Jarrod and I have been in bed til now (2pm). I got up at 10:30 and made us breakfast in bed, then we both crashed again. I may go to a movie w/ Tivany this afternoon, or I may go buy some new pots for plants with money I should be saving for car insurance. decisions decisions. Oh ya I should probably go to the laundromat, too. Ugh... Laundromat on Saturday sounds horrific.

Love ya'll!
Thanks for commenting!

two in one day

Wow, I don't have anything to say, but I am blogging! Tonight I attempted to study for my enormous midterm in economics I have to take tomorrow, but I got distracted making a list of gifts to get everyone for christmas. IS that sad or what? I can not concentrate! Well I guess I can concentrate, just not on Economics. Then I decided to take a shower, which I never do at night. ANd I have got online to check my email fifty times even though no one ever emails me at night... Well the rib dinner tonight was yummy. Jarrods parents were there w/ us. I get so mad at them and I don't know why really. I guess I am just like that b/c I want them to be just like my parents. But I really DON'T want that either. For some reason I just let his dad rub me the wrong way when he really is a good person. What is my problem? Does anyone even know what I am talking about???? I want to hear about ya'lls lives like I blab about mine all the time. START A BLOG! If I can do it you can do it! LOVE CAROLINE

all is not lost

Okay, I guess yesterday I was jumping the gun. I get so over emotional or whatever sometimes. Anyway, today Evelyn was on her walker all day. I am not HAPPY about that, but I don't think the job is ending quite yet. I lowered my "rate" today and told her that I really enjoyed coming to her house. So I think everything is all good. We went to IHOP for breakfast and I do NOOOOOOTTTTTTT reccommend the stuffed crepes. YUK. But it was fun anyway then we went looking for a stand for her TV. It was a good day, lots of smiles and conversations. I worked early today so now I need to be STUDYING, but no I am online. Jarrod and I are going to dinner at Spring Creek BBQ tonight. MMMMMMMM love them ribs. I gotta quit eating like a pig! I haven't been working out but maybe twice a week lately. That is not good. My dryer is not working right lately either. I sort of think it is the electrical work in this house, b/c it works when I just use it, but if i do a load of wash at the same time it will work but then right afterwards won't work. It is annoying, but this happens a lot, little things go wrong to make me appreciate what I have. I had to go to the ghetto laundromat for about a month in the summer and it made me thankful that I own a washer/ dryer b/c all those people that were there time after time sure didn't seem annoyed about the laundromat. It was actually neato to see so many hispanic women having fun together and well all of them just seem so darn happy! Ya know, I am all over the place with this blog today, but i got a gift cert for CD warehouse for my bday and I still haven't used it. ANyone have any suggestions of good CD's?

I knew it was coming...

I knew it was coming, but it does not make me any less sad. My job with Evelyn is coming to a close. It is not official yet, but she is much more healthy now. She can walk without her walker and do pretty much everything for herself now. She is so happy! I am so happy for her, too. She has constantly been talking about "when she gets better" but I always thought, 'how could an 81 yr old woman get better'? She seemed so sick for SO long. I mean, for WEEKS before I started staying with her. But I sorda knew in the back of my head she would heal. She seems so young in spirit. So I am glad. Honestly and truly. And if only I didn't HAVE to make money, I could spend all my time with her for free. Jarrod said I got too attached to her instead of thinking of it as a job. He wasn't dissin on me, I mean he is right. But how can you not? If I didn't then I would think there was something wrong with me. I am just sad. Just sad for now, it will pass. But I am sad because I will miss her. I will miss the security of it, too. And I completely trust God to help me with my future endeavors, and I know all things are laid out for a purpose, but I still feel a tinge of nervousness. And regret.... for spending so much of the money as if this job would go on forever. But life is short and so am I.

nuttin honey

Not a lot goin on! Jarrod and I had a good day to ourselves yesterday. He did not have to work and I only went to Evelyn's for 1 1/2 hours. Today I was there for SIX. It was fine. I cleaned and we talked. Tonight I am supposed to go to a "Partylite" party, but I just feel like stayin here... I am such a booty. Jarrod and I watched Lion King last night and Italian Job. Anyone who hasn't seen Italian Job, its worth $4 to rent!!!!!!! Good movie! I have a big ol' test to study for again. I have been neglecting my workouts and my school lately. I guess that is better than neglecting PEOPLE, though. Evelyn skipped out on her physical therapy today. She had a tummy ache. I believe she really did, but I think most of it was nerves because she HATES going to physical therapy. And you know, I guess I can't blame her cuz I have called her therapist repeatedly and that woman will NOT call me back! It is so annoying and unprofessional. I don't know why people in the medical field act like that sometimes. Anyway, I had breakfast w/ the bible study peeps this morning at IHOP which I have been majorly craving and it was pretty good. I had a garden omelette. MMMM. But my gurl Nikki is the best omelette maker ever, maybe I can get her to make me one when I go to Kansas City. :) Love ya'll!

Sunday, sunday...

Hope every BODY is having a hap hap happy weekend! Mine has been oh so lovely so far. Yesterday I finally accomplished my homework, with the help of Jarrod and Anna.........Thank you both!! I think it turned into a pretty cool project and I am relieved to be DONE w/ it! I ran a bunch of errands yesterday while Jarrod watched the TX vs. Oklahoma football game. I got a new SIM card for my cell phone. So I will have an "emergency only" cell phone shortly. Does that sound dangerous or WHAT! I got a new vacuum from Bed bath and Beyond called the Shark! I am so excited, I have wanted it forever. The house we live in currently has all hardwood floors and w/ two cats its hell to keep up w/ the sweeping! So I am happy about that. In fact I was up testing it out last night at about 2 am. I am retarted. Jarrod and I were both wound up and couldn't sleep. I also got to see my cuzin Adam and his wifey Kelly and his step daughter Emily who is 11 and oh so fun to hang out w/ and their new baby Blake! Oh my gosh he is SO cute! Such a little sweetie. My grandma babysat him last night so we could all go to Grapevine Mills mall for a while. We stopped in the chocolate store and Ma bought me a lil sack of white choc. chips......mmmmmmmm!!!! They were supa good. (Yes they were sugar free for anyone who is paying that much attention) It was fun shopping! I tried on some pants at Old Navy and I am a smaller size than I was before. That makes me happy. I got a really cute $10 purse from there, too. They have some cute Halloween shirts for $5 and $9 if anyone cares! :) So I feel like a shnikey cuz I ditched Jarrod yet again last night. He didn't want to come w/ me over there to my parents house and I just ended up going to dinner w/ them and the mall and pretty soon I had been gone four hours. I just don't like doing that but I did have a good time, and its not like Jarrod got mad at me or anything. But I still feel kinda guilty...

Happy Sunday!!!!!!!!!!
Love Caroline

Today is the day!

Oh yes, today is the day, the deadline for my homework assignment. It is 10 am and I am BLOGGGGGGGGGGGGING! What is wrong w/ me? Do I just like living on the edge of danger? Why do I torture myself this way? I had intentions to get it done earlier this week, but I ignored myself and waiting til the last minute, like I always do!

Oh well, forget all that, I will do it sometime today. My couzin Adam is here today, too, I think at my grandparents house w/ his wifey and new baby. I can't wait to see them so I really do need to get done w/ this assignment.

Last night was a fun and interesting night. Bryn was at her grandma's house (evelyn) when I got there at 3:30, so I got to see my long lost friend that I mentioned in yesterday's blog. We talked for a couple hours then all 3 of us went to dinner at Don Pablo's which was a funny experience, but I don't want this to be a super long blog... Well then Bryn and I decided we would stop by our friend Nica's house. Nica is the one whose husband died two weeks ago. Well it took us a little bit to find her house and then we got there and the house was completely empty and had new carpet and new paint.... It was a weird experience. ANyway, we decided to go to a going away party for a photographer we used to work with. So we were over there for probably 3 hours. It was fun. I had a really good time seeing a couple people I used to work with, and actually getting to know them better. One person recommended I see a Bette Davis movie. Has anyone seen one? I think I am gonna check out amazon.com.

So then I came home and hung out w/ Jarrod and we had some laughs and watched some TV, classic TV like Cosby and Three's Company. Good night, it was, as Yoda might say.

Happy Saturday!!!!!!!!!!!!

Pooper Scooper!!!!!!!!!!!!

Happy Friday every body!!!!!!!!!!!!! It is the beginning of the day for me, so I am not too excited yet. I have two big ol' houses to clean today, then 3 hrs at Evelyn's this afternoon. I love all of it, don't get me wrong, I just want to go get back in bed and do more sleepy sleepy right now. I wish I had more low carb candy bars so I could eat about 4 more for breakfast today...NOT. I think I will go drink a pot of coffee instead, even though coffee makes me sick, I can't quite give it up yet. And I need to quit smoking, but that is a whole nother story........ So is anyone interested in going to a candle party w/ me next tuesday night? PLEASE! It could be a glorious bonding experience! :) hee hee

Good Pity Party Songs: Song 4 and 9 on "Fallen" (Evanessence)

Places I want to go soon: Colorado and Atlanta
Places I am going soon: Haunted housing w/ Nik in Kansas City! WOO HOO
MIssing friend....where are you: Bryn!
Person I would like to get in contact w/: Sabrina
Person I am SUPER proud of: Cory
Happy Birthday TO: Jenne, Brady, Papa, John and Kelly!

Today's Goal: Spend no money....bills are due tomorrow!

gotta be a down day

Yea, there has to be down days... I guess they can't all be happy happy. Plus I was probably making some of you sick by writing all the happy clappy crappy. :) Today I just didn't get anything done before I went to Evelyn's. I have a homework assignment I do not know how to do, and my teacher does not like to help. I have to make graphs..... Does anyone know what program u can make graphs in??? PLEASE EMAIL ME. Or if you prefer I will just pay you to make them for me!!!!!!! :) Hee hee....

I was running late to Evelyn's house, also, as I did yesterday. I hate being late. And all day I think about things I am going to accomplish when I get home, then I do not get them done because I just want to VEG out and chill w/ Jarrod.

A cool thing that happened today was that Jarrod came over to Evelyn's on his lunch break. SO they got to meet (she said OOH HE'S CUTE!) so that was cool. I took her to the DR and she was in there like 3 hrs which was boring waiting in the lounge, but I took the time to write a letter, read some of "Celebrating Life" and make a phone call. I just feel OFF today, if that makes sense. I think I ate too many lo carb candy bars for breakfast and subconciously was mad at myself for not getting anything done this morning. Oh well......... On to the next day... after laundry, dishes, and another attempt at homework.....

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I have a spending problem. I am making good money right now, paid daily, but I am spending it as fast as I make it. The only 1/2 way smart thing I am doing is paying off our car insurance for a year so we won't have to worry about it. But I am a moron cuz I am acting like this job (taking care of Evelyn) is going to last forever, and it could totally end tomorrow. Today I spent $75 on a camera phone for Jarrod. Then I spent $20 on dinner....... how necessary are those things? I mean, we could eat for $5.00. I am a retardo. ANyway it is nice having money. I was so broke for a while, scrapin by I felt like a welfare person or a mooch or something cuz I was always raiding my parents fridge. Not that they care, they are so generous, but still! I am a married independent woman, I need to take care of myself! Anyway that is all on that little rant. I screwed around all morning and did not do any homework. That means i will have to bust booty tomorrow morning. Today I took Evelyn to physical therapy then we watched the rest of the Lion King, which she had not seen before. She cried, it was cute. Tomorrow she has to go to a different kind of dr. and Friday she is getting her nails done. It is fun driving around and stuff though, I know for a LONG time she was holed up in her casa. Well talk to u soon! Love ya!
Caroline

humpday

Weds. does suck. I don't know why, it just does.

Well yesterday was a great day. Evelyn had to go to physical therapy, but thats all good cuz it gives me time to read in the waiting area. Then we went to Circuit CIty and went TV shopping. She got a really cool tv, but it won't be delivered til MOnday. Did you know that they make tv's w/ a feature now called steady sound or something like that, which makes it so the commercials aren't louder than the tv show. Pretty cool huh? Then she got me the special edition Lion King for a bday present and got her self a dvd/vcr combo. I actually figured out how to hook that up by myself (i was very proud) and we watched most of Lion King, cuz she had never seen it. Today we are going to watch the rest, after I take her to physical therapy again.
I went back to Target last night and they don't sell my white notecards anymore!!!!!!!!! SO I had to get these ones w/ colored edges and they are thick so they don't work for my cards. THATS BUGS ME! Oh well, anyway and Jarrod and I had Taco Bueno for dinner. MMMMMMMMM that is sooooo yummy. They have the best beans (which I can't eat anymore) and taco salads. ANyone not living in Dallas who comes to visit I will be sure to take u to Bueno! MMM

Exciting stuff today, eh?
CT

Hap E Tuesday

Howdy ! Happy Tuesday!!!!! (trash day in my neck of the woods) Well all I have done this morning is work out, but now I am off to my momma's bible study group and then gonna pick up my pictures from my party, then take care of Evelyn, then come home. That is my plan for the day/ Pretty exciting huh/ This morning I got mad cuz Target doesn't open til 8 am and I got there at 7:45 and didn't have time to wait! Target sells blank note cards you see and last night while i was making cards for people I ran out of cards! So my plan this morning was to go buy out all they had (just kidding) but NOOOOOOOOOOO they weren't OPEN YET! Punks! Oh well maybe later. Well have a glorious day, Love u all. CAROLINE

what is UP my homies

Hey thanks everyone who commented on my bloggeroonie and for wishing me a happy birthday!!!!!! It was an awesome birthday for sure! And thanks for all the wishes to help that happiness along. Thanks again Kendra for making my comment bar so I can see that people actually read this shtuff I write. Three cheers for Kendra the brainiac. Hee hee. Well the rest of my bday was a huge success. I was super happy that Jarrod took me to church, the lunch at my parents house was SOOOOOOOOO YUMMY, my grandma made me a supa tasty cake and it was very purdy. My parents bought me a digital camera WOO HOO! As soon as I get a connector thingy I will start sending out pictures to anyone who cares to see. Oh by the way I have a very funny haircut, its layered and permed and darrrrrrrrk brown. I can fix it to not look too bad but when it is wet its a mullet........YIKES! Franky dyed it for me Sunday which was coolio. We dyed Anna's the same color but it didn't come out for some reason, and her hair is healthier than mine...... hmmm.

So today I went to work w/ Jarrod and it was mucho fun, although a long time to be in the car. We had a couple break times and we went to an antique store which is neat. It is neat to look at stuff and pick up something like a purse from the 70's and wonder, what was the woman thinking/feeling/going through when she used this purse 30 yrs ago....... We also went to a cool store called PAPERIE & CO. which is all neat papers and cards and stationary. It was supa expensive tho, and I decided I could make some of that stuff just as easily and cheaper. By the way anyone who cares, Target sells blank note cards and envelopes for $3 a package, I think 20 in a package... For those of you who like to create! Jarrod's sistah got me some cool embossing stuff for my bday I can't wait to try it out. I might make some cards tonight... I might have to babysit my nieces though, so we will see. If I babysit them I am taking them to the store to get a new shirt. I love taking them shopping (when I have $) cuz they are little girls and just look so cute in everything ! They are both going to be powderpuff girlz for halloween, the pink one and the blue one, Tivany got them the costumes, I can't wait to see how they look!

Oh!!!!! I have finally talked Jarrod into going to get a "portrait" done w/ me. I know that sounds LAME-O in a way, but when I was younger, I always liked to see portraits of my parents before they had us and got older... Plus I think it would mean something to our parents and grandparents to have an updated pic of us, since the last one was 3 1/2 yrs ago at our wedding. Do I sound like I am trying to justify this?????

Haha

LOVE YA'll
Caroline

It's a beautiful day in the neighborhood

Oh happy happy burfday to me, I have a comment bar now!!!!!!!!!!! Thank you Kendra, YOU ARE THE MAN!!!!! My sistah is a computer code shmoozah! Thank ya thank ya thank ya!!!!!!!!!

My party last night was OH SO AWESOME! Thank you to everyone who came. I have not had such a great time in forever. It was so cool to have everyone together and I just have all these wonderful people in my life and it is JUST FREAKIN COOL ok? :) hee hee

I had a great night w/ Jarrod after everyone left, too. I love him thiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiis much. He was just treating me like a princess all day and helped me clean the house like mad and went grocery shopping for me. It was just a wonderful wonderful day. It felt like my burfday yesterday even though it is really today.

It is only 8 am, I haven't talked to my mommy yet. I always wake up thinking about my mom on my birthday, cuz I know it was a special day for her the day I was born (not to sound arrogant haha) cuz I am her first kid and she was exactly the same age as I am right now when she had me....... HMMMMMM

Oh, also yesterday, for anyone I haven't told, the red cat got adopted!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It was so cool, I went to pick her up from Petsmart (adopt a pet) and there was a sign on her cage saying I'VE BEEN ADOPTED, and I got to meet the lady who adopted her, I went up and gave her a huge hug, then her little boy came over and hugged my leg. It was so cute!!!!!!!! And she was a hippy looking lady, I mean down to earth kinda thing cuz she had really long straight hair. But the best part is she had 3 kids (which that red cat loved kids) and all three of them had RED HAIR, and not just red, but the exact same color as the cat! Is that not crazy? And all this time Jarrod was calling that cat "redhead" and they will probably do the same. I am just so happy she finally got a real home.

Anyway that is probaby enough crapola to bore any hedge hog, so I will stop typing now. My hangover is starting to recede, thank heavens. Jarrod is taking me to church today and then we are going to my parents house for BRISKET! MMMMMMMMMMM!

Ok......now make comments ! Even if it just says hey whats up! Love ya'll!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

for the record

Okay, Thursday I attempted to BLOG and got knocked offline, and again this morning I was almost done writing and got knocked offline which means it was all erased and I did not have time to rewrite.

today was a good day. I feel satisfied w/ myself w/ the cleaning job I did this morning, and I thoroughly enjoyed Evelyn's company today. We went looking for TV stands at Dillards, and she ended up buying a sweatsuit instead. I got us Chic Fil A for lunch cuz she hadn't had it before, and EVERYONE needs to experience some Chic Fil A. I know Kendra will agree w/ me on that one. We also went grocery shopping and to the post office.

I have enjoyed my night w/ Jarrod...we hung w/ our neighbors a while then just spent time together and it was supa cool. It is kind of crazy sometimes to just stop and be still and look at him and think This is My Husband. Maybe that makes sense, maybe not.

Now I have to do those 4 quizzes and one test online, so I am praying that I will not get knocked offline. Hopefully no one will call since its 10:30 pm, but then again, its Friday. Yikes.

Well I am happy that I know a couple people are coming over tomorrow night for my big party. (haha) I just need to clean my house, buy some alcohol and snacks..... Woo hoo! fun fun... For all who aren't or can't come, I will miss you.

Goooooooooodnight
Caroline

Bless you ACHOOOOOOOOOO

Ok, I am blessed and thankful once again. I had a test and 4 quizzes to do tonight and mysteriously enough, the teacher made an announcement online tonight that we have until Saturday night to finish them now. I just can not believe how well things are going lately... It is so wierd! I am thankful, though. Things are wonderful. I am staying very bizy taking care of Evelyn, although today got cut down to two hours. School is insane but manageable. Freddy and Kristina are going back to Virginia tomorrow morning. I am hoping the orange cat gets adopted at the adopt a pet on Saturday. I also hope a few people show up for my bday party sat. night. Jarrod and I had lunch today and looked around Farmer's Market downtown (plants) and it was fun. Tonight we went to dinner w/ his whole family and it was cool. I talked to TiVany most of the night. She is a supa kewl chicadee, and I always enjoy her company. Not much else.... I am tired. I need to start doing this blog thing in the morning when I can think better.

Love you all, Thanks for reading!!!!!!

Email me: BLNDNT@Aol.COM

and check out www.amazon.com if you haven't already.. there are tons of used books and CD's on there if you are looking for somewhere to shop online.

Lucky gurrrrrrrrl

I am a lucky chick. I have cool friends! Nikki your blog is great to read every day! Jana, it was fun at your Pampered Chef party tonight.....You did a great job! Lynne, I love you always.....sorry I haven't called lately. Cindy MacKinnon... Thanks so much for the job and thanks for being my good friend and second mom. Cynde THANKS FOR THE POSTCARD! Jackie, we gotta get togethah!!! Kendra, I saw your new haircut (in a pic dad printed out) and it looks AWESOME!

Today I took care of Evelyn again. She is such a fun lady. I really enjoy spending time with her. We went TV shopping today. She found a Sony she really likes, but didn't buy it quite yet. Then she took me to lunch at Red Lobster (some job, eh?). It was a fun day. I am way behind in school again though..... UGH. I am also not paying enough attention to my husband these days. Why is it I can only focus on one thing at a time? Tomorrow I have bible study, then Evelyn's house, then studying all night..... makes me look forward to sleeping tonight, but then again that means tomorrow will be here sooner.

My birthday "party" is on Saturday night, so anyone who wants to come PLEASE COME!!!!! If you need a bbsitter let me know and I will talk to my sister, Anna. There is a boxing match that night, so if you need an excuse to bring your man, there ya go!

PS....Does anyone know the name of song 9 on the EvanEssence CD? I have a burned copy...

Don't know what u got til it's gone...

A few days ago an old friend of mine's husband fell off a 40 story building while doing construction and died. He was 33 years old, and had two daughters under 9. My friend, who is 31, is now a widow. She also got laid off in January and does not have a job. You just never know when it is time to go.... OUr neighbor and Jarrod's best friend is very sick, because he drinks too much and has other health problems... And what makes it more sad is that he is 34 years old, and in the past 3 weeks has decided to get baptised and is updating his life insurance policy. He just seems too young to be preparing to leave this world. Jarrod and I think we don't need insurance because we are young. We think its not time to save money yet. Those are bad decisions, but we rarely get mad at eachother. We enjoy pretty much all day every day with eachother. We talk on the phone a lot and try to make a point to pay attention to each other. It has been thrown in our face lately how precious life really is. Although you hear it all the time, this moment could be the last, this could be your last night of pizza and movies in your pjamas w/ the one you love. You just never know...

Thankful

Today I am thankful that I have a variety of age groups in my life of wonderful, wise people. Mostly women, I admit, but it is great. I am truly amazed by what you can learn from someone in as little as 60 seconds sometimes, if you just stop thinking about yourself and LISTEN.

Oh Happy Day!

Well today I went to work w/ Jarrod, which means I was a passenger in his truck from 6:40 am to 5:40 pm. It makes my butt hurt and it makes me tired sometimes to stare at the road, but I can only imagine his pain. We always have a blast tho. We are both goofy and we have been together so long it is just comfortable and I dunno....... people who have been together a while know what I mean. It is fun. He is fun. So now I am home and I NEED to be studying Economics. UGH! It is not too horribly hard, but it is tedious. It is more fun to read people's blogs of course. :) Nikki's is awesome today. You rule woman. Hope you like the movie tonight. Tiffany it was great to talk to you for a while yesterday. GUESS WHAT!~ I got some extra work! I might actually be able to afford that PERM I want and also these VANS tennis shoes I really want. ANyway the work is staying at Evelyn's house w/ her. SHe is the older lady I clean for and she hurt herself last week and is using a walker now. PLEASE pray for me that I will be confident and loving, because I do not know what to do w/ an older woman all day. I do not want her to feel uncomfortable or anything, I don't know what I should talk about!!!!!!!!! Help! ANyONE have SugGEstions?

ALSO did anyone watch episode 38 of the SOPRANOS last night? LOVE THAT SHOW! I am obsessed w/ it a little bit. What can I say, I never had a "soap"! :)

LOVE YA'll
thanks for reading!
CAROLINE

here it comes.......

Ok, remember those depressing negative thoughts from the other day.....the ones I was warning my husband about? Well they are flooding my mind right now. I think I seriously need a creative outlet like RIGHT THIS MOMENT, before I just sink into a hole and waste my Saturday night wishing I had a different life, or could get excited about something simple and not worry so much. Ho hum... woe is me. (eeyore)

SOLD OUT

Yes, I have sold out. I decided to change the name of my blog in order to make it readable for certain individuals who may have been offended by my obscenities. Please forgive me for anyone who cares that I sold out to clean talk. :)

grumble grumble

Yes, I am piiiiiiiiisssssssssy!
I cleaned a house this morning without doing my normal ritual of working out at the gym first (to wake up) and I have paid for it all day. I am a sleeeeeeeeeepy dudette. When I got home around 1 pm I was going to go to the gym but Jarrod said nah... take a nap, you will feel better. This is after I told him I have hellacious PMS and we should not be talking for a few days, because I will say negative depressing things I do not mean. Well I laid down for about 1 1/2 hours before I finally fell asleep. All I could hear were sirens (we live in ghettoville) and my mind was going a million miles an hour about all the things I should be doing right now. Well I did end up getting some sleep and I feel better now, except its 4:30 and I need to take a shower and go buy cigarrettes with my invisible money. I think I might go raid my mommy's fridge tonight. I am constantly hungry when I am broke... but everyone wants what they can't have RIGHT NOW. Well thank heavens it is Friday. Maybe tomorrow I will get to clean Bryn's grandma's house, and maybe this red cat will get adopted at the adopt a pet. Happy Trails!

Thank you KENDRA

Thank you Kendra for helping me figure out how to blog again!!!!!!!!! It is a beautiful day in computer land.
it is 6:59 am and I am going to have a good day. I am not quite awake, yet. I have a hangover from one glass of red wine. I think I am becoming a light weight. I do not know why I decided to drink it last night anyway, it wasn't much fun and it just made me want to smoke a lot of cigarrettes. (did I spell that right?)
I did enjoy talking to my neighbor. She is 45, ecclectic and has long blonde hair. She entertained me with stories from the past and we made fun of the husbands and they made fun of us.
Tonight she is excited that Survivor is starting. I am not much into Survivor but Extreme Makeovers is starting again tonight at 8 p m and THAT is one show I really like to watch. I am not a TV person, but the serious shallow side of me just really gets into people getting made over.
Ok, so just like the fantasy of a prince rescuing you, I am dreaming of an internet smartee coming along to teach me how to make a comment bar on my blog.
You see, I take a telecourse and an internet course for college right now, and I clean houses while the people are not home, so you see, I have not much human communication so I live for my mailbox and my email, hee hee! WRITE ME PEOPLE! send me a postcard!

haha
More later
Happy Thursday!!!!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAh

I do not understand codes or whatever that is that makes things show up on the internet. I tried to make a comment bar so I can know if anyone is even looking at my blog but I followed the instructions and the "script" didn't work or some crap I DON"T KNOW!@ AAAAAAAAAAAAAAh
@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@h someone help me!

well NO WONDER no one is writing to me!!!! i can't figure out how to make a COMMENt thingy on here..... oh well try back later

Wow, I am so suprised that no one has written to me yet. I am a no name, unknown, unemployed wienershnitzel. Speaking of Wienershnitzel I saw one here in Utah......where I am now.....wow. It is so cool to be here. And I am so glad I got to have a lengthy discussion w/ a mormon chick on the plane ride here about how mormons DO NOT make people of other religions feel uncomfortable. I think some mormons do make other religionized people feel uncomfy, but i also think that baptists do that... and catholics... and whatever else religions there are. All humans are arrogant and jerkish. Not just the mormons.

This stupid freaking atkins diet man. You can't even eat TORTILLAS! How can I be a whole person with a trim waist and not be allowed to eat chips and salsa....I mean BOWLS of it as much as I want! Damn the man. Why can't I just be born w/ a perfect body AND a great personality! Why did I drink so much mountain dew as a kid and turn myself into a short ass squatty body??? It is all my parents fault. They didn't love me enough.......... just kidding.

Well here I am I gave in to the blog trend. I have officially been peer pressured today.