more pics cuz no time for writing!

let me explain

Thanks Joye for the compliment. I feel silly now that I realize I posted a bunch of pictures of myself! I just thought I should post something so I grabbed a few pics. I guess subconsciously I am quite self centered haha. (Maybe not so subconsciously)

The pic of the girl hugging me is my friend Jana after her wedding. I wish I had a pic of Jarrod and I at the wedding cuz he looked veryyyy handsome in his suit. The one of me with the kids is the only time i have had a good hair day since I got this dumb haircut with bangs! The little girl with the dog is my 11 yr old neice Katherine with my doggy Penny. She needed a new MYSPACE profile picture.

Today we had Jarrod's whole family over, including his grandad who is still very much mourning the loss of his wife back in October. We all had a good time, ate some down home food around Jarrod and my table. I wish I could have taken a picture of that many people sitting here eating at our house. It really gives me the warmest feeling when family comes to visit us at OUR house! It's like we are almost real grownups or something. I can't even explain how wonderful having a house of our own is. I enjoy it every single day. I am so thankful for the help we got getting it and thankful for all the details of financing finally working out..... That all that time looking paid off, that Jarrod didn't give in to every house that I said was "good enough" just because I wanted to get a place of our own so bad.

pictures for your viewing pleasure

those damn Mavericks!

Okay I actually sat down and watched the last two quarters of the Mavericks vs Suns game last night on the couch with Jarrod. Mahna had already fell asleep watching the "newer" version of Annie. Cole and I were playing on the couch and I started getting really into the dumb game. It went into DOUBLE overtime. Then the Suns won at the last minute. All those players must get so tired after well at least a couple hours of hardcore running back and forth with very little break in between. But probably everyone just thinks they better not get tired cuz they are getting paid enough so hurry up and just win the game and make Dallas look good! And Jarrod is too funny, he loves them he loves them he loves them, then they lose and he says I am never watching them again. Crazy sports bring out the best of everyone's personalities! HA

enough of that!

Ok I am tired of looking at that same dumb blog about me getting shnockered. HAHA. I have been keeping my neices the last few days after school and its been lots o fun. Mahna's friend Lexi came over today and tomorrow we are suppose to meet another friend at the park. I like getting her to socialize a little bit cuz she is still in a phaze of not sharing or playing too well with others.

I don't like this humid weather. It just makes my hair all frizzy and wierdly wavy. We went to Mc'D to play on the playground and they didn't have a/c in the playground section and i had sweaty wavy frizzy hair with bangs. Nothing could be worse! Haha

Cole's sleepin and Mahna's watching Blues Clues so I totally have to get something done. SORRY!!!!!!!!!

hangover's a comin'

I went to my friend's wedding/reception tonight. It was so much fun and I met some fun new people. My dearest most lovely mom and grandma watched the kiddos. It was a LONG babysitting stint and I really know that all moments of it were not the most fun with Cole, so I greatly appreciate it. I promised Jarrod I wouldn't get too intoxicated, so limit it to two drinks. I had two glasses of white wine and a 1/2 glass of champagne for the toast.....this is over a period of 4 hours, and somehow at the end of the night everyone else seemed to think I was really messed up. I guess I must have been making a goof of myself. Now at 4 a.m. I am suddenly awake again drinking two bottles of water and feeling dizzy. Was that wine spiked with vodka or am I really just that weak of a drinker???
Oh well, what's done is done, Jarrod's not mad at me and he was with me all night, so I must not have been that crazy acting cuz he surely wouldn't let me forget it. i guess I will find out tomorrow. Better finish this water and get back to bed.

are u so happy?

When Mahna pees her pants KNOWING she is not suppose to she will say "Mommy, you so happy?" and I instantly know what she has done. So far, telling her that it makes me sad when she pottys in her pants doesn't really seem to affect her. But I think it is so cute how she says "you so happy?"

I got a haircut and I don't really like it but it was sort of drastic, I got bangs, so I am hoping I need to just play with it and get use to it. I guess probably the whole big picture is that I don't like how I look and thought getting a haircut would fix that somehow. Oh well, I don't really care.

Cole got his 2 mo. check up today and he is in the 90th percentile for weight. He weighs 13 lb 3 oz and I am sooooooo happy for that. He is getting to be such a cuteums, playing with his fists in his mouth and having little cooing conversations with me.

I've been gettin little things here and there decorating our house the last week or so and it is fun making the house more homey. Just a lampshade here and a picture there really makes all the difference. I found these groovy 2 foot tall red candle holders the other day on sale and brought them home to try out. I put them on top of our tv but um they were like wayyyy too tall and when Jarrod came home he said they made him want to shoot them off with a BB gun. So those are going back to da store.

I have a friend right now, one I talk to everyday and laugh with. It's fun having a girl friend. It makes me a better mom.

Happy Thursday!!

over the hump?

Okay, I think I might be over this depression hump that was driving me bonkers. I guess the truth is if you just get out of the house for a few hours you can feel 100 times better. I never thought it could be that "easy". Of course Jarrod had to be bribed, but he agreed to watch both kids (gma and GG weren't available) for a few hours on Saturday. Well I left at 10:30 and didn't get back until almost 5:30 (honestly did NOT mean to stay gone that long). I never told my friend J, that I was having a hard time, feeling sad or angry or anything. I guess she just knew cuz she bribed my husband and took me to a freaking amazing spa all day on Saturday. It was the four seasons in Las Colinas..... Oh my gosh. This place is so ritzy I just was in absolute awe. Everyone who worked there was so kind and accomodating (sp?) and we were pampered and waited on hand and foot. She got a facial and I got a massage. It went by way too fast... We had a fancy lunch, drank champagne in the biggest hot tub I have ever seen. (Is there some medical advice against doing that cuz I was prettty buzzed after one glass?) And yesterday my gma watched Mahna so I could go shopping for two hours. I got a couple of new pictures for our living room wall and spent the rest of our tax money on a months supply of diapers, wipes and cat food. How BORING is that. Oh well, it is a good feeling to have a stocked up supply.
I realized this morning that the picture on my Myspace profile is like one of the only pictures of me and Cole. I have to remember to ask people to take our picture once in a while so he doesn't grow up to think I was never with him! haha. Boy it sure is different with a second kiddo. I let him cry much more than I did Mahna. But I think it's good, too. I never thought it back then, but I did spoil Mahna really bad and therefor later on I could never leave her with anyone else. If someone was holding her and she started crying I immediately took her away. Last night Jarrod's parents held Cole the whole time we were at their house, and he only fussed a couple of times. He really is getting cuter and cuter. He is a chubbalubby weighing almost 13 lb at 2 mos old. He is playing with his hands these days and looking around at stuff for longer periods of time. It's really cute and I am falling more in love with him. Well today I have a million errands to run and laundry, dishes...... And maybe just maybe I will try to finish Cole's baby announcements! HAHAHAH Thank u for the comments Brent and Kendra, thanks for caring. :)

sorry to bore you

But I am unable to speak at the moment. As much as I wish this blog was a "journal" I can't really just spill it all out here. I am too afraid of the reaction to my real thoughts. So maybe I just blab about something here and there but I'm feeling depressed these days. I will just leave it at that. I don't want to have a pity party online so I just won't write anything until I am having a day with an interesting thought that someone else might care to read.