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those damn Mavericks!

Okay I actually sat down and watched the last two quarters of the Mavericks vs Suns game last night on the couch with Jarrod. Mahna had already fell asleep watching the "newer" version of Annie. Cole and I were playing on the couch and I started getting really into the dumb game. It went into DOUBLE overtime. Then the Suns won at the last minute. All those players must get so tired after well at least a couple hours of hardcore running back and forth with very little break in between. But probably everyone just thinks they better not get tired cuz they are getting paid enough so hurry up and just win the game and make Dallas look good! And Jarrod is too funny, he loves them he loves them he loves them, then they lose and he says I am never watching them again. Crazy sports bring out the best of everyone's personalities! HA

enough of that!

Ok I am tired of looking at that same dumb blog about me getting shnockered. HAHA. I have been keeping my neices the last few days after school and its been lots o fun. Mahna's friend Lexi came over today and tomorrow we are suppose to meet another friend at the park. I like getting her to socialize a little bit cuz she is still in a phaze of not sharing or playing too well with others.

I don't like this humid weather. It just makes my hair all frizzy and wierdly wavy. We went to Mc'D to play on the playground and they didn't have a/c in the playground section and i had sweaty wavy frizzy hair with bangs. Nothing could be worse! Haha

Cole's sleepin and Mahna's watching Blues Clues so I totally have to get something done. SORRY!!!!!!!!!

hangover's a comin'

I went to my friend's wedding/reception tonight. It was so much fun and I met some fun new people. My dearest most lovely mom and grandma watched the kiddos. It was a LONG babysitting stint and I really know that all moments of it were not the most fun with Cole, so I greatly appreciate it. I promised Jarrod I wouldn't get too intoxicated, so limit it to two drinks. I had two glasses of white wine and a 1/2 glass of champagne for the toast.....this is over a period of 4 hours, and somehow at the end of the night everyone else seemed to think I was really messed up. I guess I must have been making a goof of myself. Now at 4 a.m. I am suddenly awake again drinking two bottles of water and feeling dizzy. Was that wine spiked with vodka or am I really just that weak of a drinker???
Oh well, what's done is done, Jarrod's not mad at me and he was with me all night, so I must not have been that crazy acting cuz he surely wouldn't let me forget it. i guess I will find out tomorrow. Better finish this water and get back to bed.

are u so happy?

When Mahna pees her pants KNOWING she is not suppose to she will say "Mommy, you so happy?" and I instantly know what she has done. So far, telling her that it makes me sad when she pottys in her pants doesn't really seem to affect her. But I think it is so cute how she says "you so happy?"

I got a haircut and I don't really like it but it was sort of drastic, I got bangs, so I am hoping I need to just play with it and get use to it. I guess probably the whole big picture is that I don't like how I look and thought getting a haircut would fix that somehow. Oh well, I don't really care.

Cole got his 2 mo. check up today and he is in the 90th percentile for weight. He weighs 13 lb 3 oz and I am sooooooo happy for that. He is getting to be such a cuteums, playing with his fists in his mouth and having little cooing conversations with me.

I've been gettin little things here and there decorating our house the last week or so and it is fun making the house more homey. Just a lampshade here and a picture there really makes all the difference. I found these groovy 2 foot tall red candle holders the other day on sale and brought them home to try out. I put them on top of our tv but um they were like wayyyy too tall and when Jarrod came home he said they made him want to shoot them off with a BB gun. So those are going back to da store.

I have a friend right now, one I talk to everyday and laugh with. It's fun having a girl friend. It makes me a better mom.

Happy Thursday!!

over the hump?

Okay, I think I might be over this depression hump that was driving me bonkers. I guess the truth is if you just get out of the house for a few hours you can feel 100 times better. I never thought it could be that "easy". Of course Jarrod had to be bribed, but he agreed to watch both kids (gma and GG weren't available) for a few hours on Saturday. Well I left at 10:30 and didn't get back until almost 5:30 (honestly did NOT mean to stay gone that long). I never told my friend J, that I was having a hard time, feeling sad or angry or anything. I guess she just knew cuz she bribed my husband and took me to a freaking amazing spa all day on Saturday. It was the four seasons in Las Colinas..... Oh my gosh. This place is so ritzy I just was in absolute awe. Everyone who worked there was so kind and accomodating (sp?) and we were pampered and waited on hand and foot. She got a facial and I got a massage. It went by way too fast... We had a fancy lunch, drank champagne in the biggest hot tub I have ever seen. (Is there some medical advice against doing that cuz I was prettty buzzed after one glass?) And yesterday my gma watched Mahna so I could go shopping for two hours. I got a couple of new pictures for our living room wall and spent the rest of our tax money on a months supply of diapers, wipes and cat food. How BORING is that. Oh well, it is a good feeling to have a stocked up supply.
I realized this morning that the picture on my Myspace profile is like one of the only pictures of me and Cole. I have to remember to ask people to take our picture once in a while so he doesn't grow up to think I was never with him! haha. Boy it sure is different with a second kiddo. I let him cry much more than I did Mahna. But I think it's good, too. I never thought it back then, but I did spoil Mahna really bad and therefor later on I could never leave her with anyone else. If someone was holding her and she started crying I immediately took her away. Last night Jarrod's parents held Cole the whole time we were at their house, and he only fussed a couple of times. He really is getting cuter and cuter. He is a chubbalubby weighing almost 13 lb at 2 mos old. He is playing with his hands these days and looking around at stuff for longer periods of time. It's really cute and I am falling more in love with him. Well today I have a million errands to run and laundry, dishes...... And maybe just maybe I will try to finish Cole's baby announcements! HAHAHAH Thank u for the comments Brent and Kendra, thanks for caring. :)

sorry to bore you

But I am unable to speak at the moment. As much as I wish this blog was a "journal" I can't really just spill it all out here. I am too afraid of the reaction to my real thoughts. So maybe I just blab about something here and there but I'm feeling depressed these days. I will just leave it at that. I don't want to have a pity party online so I just won't write anything until I am having a day with an interesting thought that someone else might care to read.

whattaweek

Wow, what a whirlwind week we had. Jarrod had a 3 day weekend so that was cool (last wknd) then my long lost cuzin Ryan and his g/f came Monday, left Tuesday to go see the ocean. Tuesday, Mahna, Cole, Me, Mom and Anna drove to Austin to see Kendra. Cole screamed most of the way there and well although it was fun to 'be' in Austin and to see Kendra's new apartment and her jobby job, I found out the hard way what my mom meant about "it might not be worth it" to make a two day trip w/ two little kiddos. I had high expectations and had to readjust my way of thinking. I don't know how to explain it except that it seems like if one kid is being calm, the other one is not. So there aren't long lulls of peacefullness! :) But we had fun staying in our own hotel room at the seminary housing in Austin. We pushed the two twin beds together and, Cole Mahna and I had a big huge bed all to ourselves. The rooms were like $25 a night, so no TV set in there. That made it better for lots of imaginary playing and reading Mahna books or singing songs. So then we came back Thurs. and Cole slept the whole way home and Mahna was an angel! That afternoon my mom and I took them to get their 1st portrait taken together. Wow was that crazy too. My stress level went thru the roof and I had trouble hiding it, if u get my drift. I think I need some anti freaking out medicine. Like I don't really want to be on anti-anxiety medicine all the time, but if there was some kind of thing you could take just once in a while when you knew you might blow your top..... I don't know. I never thought I'd be saying these things. N E WAY I feel like I am making this post TOO long.

But My cuz and his g/f Deana came back Thurs night and stayed thru Sunday. We had such a great time, went shopping and hanging out w/ the fam, playing games and cooking. I have lots o' great pics so hopefully I can post some in a while.
Thanks for reading!!!!!

guilt trips suck

I just think that guilt trips are the worst way of communication. Granted, you can get things accomplished a lot of times with guilt, but really truly it just makes the giver and taker feel like crap. I intend to make a very conscious effort to not use guilt and avoid people who do.

Just come out and say what your thinking, dammit. Shock me! Today I really need it.

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A house without love may be a castle, or a palace, but it is not a home; love is the life of a true home.
- John Lubbock

Better a dry crust with peace and quiet than a house full of feasting with strife.
Proverbs 17:1

take a trip

"All you need for the perfect holiday is a few clothes and a really good book." - Kipper

Yea well some quote philosophers and some quote kid's cartoons. I need book suggestions, ANY type of book........ for my huz, he just doesn't know it yet.

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!!!!!!

LOVE YOU LOTS
CAROLINE

its a Monday

Sometimes no matter where you are or what you are doing Monday just is ONE OF THOSE DAYS. Ugh.... today is one.


For instance, I wrote that sentence at 11 this morning hoping to blog today and now it is 7 pm and I still don't have time to write anything.

Tuesday will have to be better! Anna and I are painting Mahna's room tomorrow!

bak in da day

All of our wedding pics kinda sucked except for this one. We had a great photographer, but we were both just nervous wrecks I guess. Shoulda had a drink before the wedding. This is the only one I like and it sort of represents us now, too. If we are in sync the world couldn't be better and it's like we already knew that is how it would always be....... way back then.

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HAPPY FRIDAY!

I guess each person celebrates Friday for a different reason. To some it is knowing they are about to have a break from their jobs for a couple of days. As a mom I don't see it that way. I see it as we are about to have Jarrod here with us all weekend which means a totally different daily schedule. Sometimes lots of sleeping in and staying up late, sometimes big yummy Saturday pig out breakfasts, sometimes a crazy four person trip to the grocery store or a visit to family's houses. It also means I need to clean the house cuz it's gotten cluttery and dirty thru the week. Fun fun! So what is your favorite thing about Friday?

Thankful!

The first picture I call HOT STUFF! :) The second one represents Mahna's dear attitude toward her brother. He screams all the time, he hates breathing treatments and he is colicky. She never minds his crying and is always saying "i love u so much Cole". She is a precious child.

I am thankful today becuz...... My taxes are finished! We are getting money back! I finally got the 3-in-1 printer I ordered a week or so ago. I finally don't have to make special trips to make copies! It is a beautiful day and when Mahna wakes up from her nap we are taking a walk! Mahna took a nap today, just by me telling her she had to. We are getting our own condo in Colorado this summer since my parents condo is already full!!! I can't wait to go to Colorado! I got to go to MOPS today, eat some tasty food, learn some valuable parenting info (about how to start talking to ur kids at age 3 about sex) and see Linda P. who I haven't seen forever. Happy day!

SOr-E CathY HEE HEE

You know I don't really think that TV makes kids less intelligent. There are so many educational preschool shows on tv. I feel like Mahna has gotten a lot of different play ideas from the shows she has watched. I mean, I do think it needs to be limited, cuz Mahna would pretty much sit on the couch all day somedays if I let her. But she also has a cute Little Tykes slide (good idea mom) in the living room that she climbs all over while semi-watching or listening to her shows. Anyway I can see as how they get older it could be worse, but for now I think it's all good. Maybe it also depends on us parents paying attention to every element of our kiddo each day. I think the biggest thing that teaches my kiddo, is being around other kids! We went to MOPS last week and I was amazed at how many cute little new things she was doing when we got home. She was also pretty independent right when I picked her up from her "class" at MOPS. She said "me had fun!" and was skipping down the hallway. She wanted to wear her diaperbag/backpack on her OWN back and did NOT want me to carry her across the parking lot to the car. I wish I could take her to church today for sunday skewl but I can't take Cole yet, so maybe next week.

So it is SUPER BOWL SUNDAY! That means lots of yummy foooooood and some funny commercials hopefully. I think I saw somewhere the Prince was doing the halftime show. Did I dream that or was that a joke commercial? I would like to see him perform so if it is really him that is groovy. Have you seen the commercials for that dip you can make with cream cheese, chili and grated cheddar dipped in Ritz crackers? MMM that looks so good and I intend to make it TODAY! That is if Jarrod gets out of bed soon so I can go to the store. I still can't take Cole out in "public" but hopefully by the end of this week I can start doing that.

Sometimes on the weekends Jarrod, me and Mahna stay up until 1 in the morning playing and watching tv *usually her shows* and eating snacks. We did that last night and it was pretty fun. I like well actually love nights like that when we are all just on one level happy and family-like. No one is too busy doing this or that, we can all just sit and chill out. So we did that last night and I was hoping it meant sleepin' in today for Mahna and I but no such luck. She was up at 9 as was Cole. Well I am not tired yet but will be around 3 or so......

Boo HOO

I am bummed cuz I had to miss Tivany's going away dinner last night. I can't take Cole in public places yet and it really just doesn't work to leave him with a babysitter (family of course) even for a couple hours. He eats sometimes every hour and is still a little young for getting used to bottle and breast. Now I am afraid we are going to have to miss the super bowl party next weekend too. And I tell ya there is nothing I would love to do more than go have a drink or two and let loose a little bit. It literally has been almost a year since I did that. Although I have to say thanks to my friend for yesterday bringing me breakfast and mimosas. MM yummy Saturday morning.
It's been a fun familyish weekend. K & J are here from Austin so we had some crafty fun Fri night and thank you momma and gg for entertaining the chillin's so I could relax for a couple hours and have fun with my siblings. Last night we watched Little Miss Sunshine. I would recommend it fo' sure. It was a trip of a movie and had that independent film feel to it but not overly so. Its always cool to see Mahna play with her aunts and uncle and to see my dadeo hold baby Cole. Today Jarrod's workin on his car at his brother's house then hopefully working on cleaning the garage> I need to get started on our taxes but ugh what a job......
Hugs to all readers. Look forward to reading YOUR blog entries, too.

what am i doing blogging?

I have so much to do. All the time! Oh my gosh my life is so much busier now. I like it, though. But I do wish I could get online more without cutting into my sleep time haha.
Today lots of loads of laundry, breathing treatments for Cole, still trying to get Cole's insurance situated, Call the DR for more samples of steroid for breathing machine, Bake a cake for Jarrod, pick up mahnas toys, feed children again and again....., record a video for Gold, wrap Nikki's Christmas present, put away piles of paper accruing on counters, change sheets..... What am I doing blogging??? haha
Cole went to DR tues and he is doing better but can't be weaned to less breathing treatments yet. He is gaining weight well and weighs 9 lb 3 oz already! That is amazing. Mahna weighed 7 lb 14 oz at 3 1/2 wks old! Whe was 5 1/2 wks before she made it to 9lb 2 oz. I am glad to see he is gaining weight faster than her. She always had me worried with her slow weight gain. Of course now she is pretty much normal size for her age but still short and that is to be expected becuz of Jarrod and my height. Cole was up from 2-6 a.m. this morning. That is a frustrating thing about new born babies. It drives me bonkers seeing Mahna and Jarrod sleeping so soundly and Cole wants to be awake and being held or eating eating and more eating. I am semi attempting to keep him more awake today so he will sleep better at night, but that is hard also, between playing with Mahna and all the stuff around the house I get distracted so he falls fasssssssst asleep. Time for breathing treatment, TOODLES

THINGS I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO:
MOPS next weds (if I get to go)
Colorado vacation in July

just one picture

I am glad this is over.

thanks YO

Thanks for all the prayers. I sat in the hospital thinking that it would be all the prayers that would make the difference. It's so scary having a two week old baby hooked to machines, and breathing oxegyn. It's wierd, looking back, because the day of my c section I was having major major anxiety. So bad I turned white, almost puked, almost passed out... Anyway I am not a person prone to anxiety attacks and it was my third c section, so now looking back I wonder if it was like a premonition that everything for the next 3 weeks after that day would be majorly challenging, mentally.

H O M E

Home, sweet home. I couldn't have been happier when we drove up at 6 pm last night. There couldn't be a warmer feeling than having both of my babies and Jarrod all of us home together again. I am so thankful that Cole finally got better enough to leave the hospital after a 7 day stay. I had my moments during this week of crying out of frustration that he just was not improving. I had to really swallow down the heartache of seeing him hooked to machines and an oxegyn tube across his face. Really by the last couple days I knew he would be okay, and was thankful that he had RSV and not a heart condition or a disease. There were other kids on that floor that were on pain medicine. How sad is that? There were some babies who cried all night long, wailing crying. An older woman came to visit us and told us about watching her 7 week old granddaughter in the same metal crib fight and fight for her life and then pass away. This woman cried her eyes out and so did I over such a sad story that happened 14 years ago.... I have a lot to be thankful for.

when it rains.....

It pours. Cole was diagnosed with RSV on Tuesday afternoon, at the emergency room. This is a virus which can be mild to severe and require hospitalization. So far he is on the line. We are going again to the DR this morning to have his oxegyn saturation levels checked to see if he needs hospitalized. Please pray for him.
Our heater went out or locked up yesterday. I am calling our home warranty company and hopefully they can come out TODAY, as the house is freakin cold already. Not to mention there is a sick baby here and supposedly an ice storm coming this weekend.
I am in pain and I just have to get over it and keep moving, remembering there are people who have it much worse than I do and that there is light at the end of the tunnel.....6 weeks from now when I should be all healed.
Happy Thursday. Cole is 2 wks old today! Time's flyin'.

i just can't post

I don't know what to write. It's not like there is "nothing" going on in my life. I just don't know what to say or how to say it. If I start in about my incision issue I will sit here and whine about it, and that is pretty much on my mind all the time, so what else can I say? Cole is awesome. He is so adorable and I am truly treasuring every minute with him as I know he will grow very fast. Mahna is having a hard time behaving now that the attention is not all on her. It is also confusing to her that her mom can't pick her up anymore and everyone freaks out if she gets too close to my tummy. When Cole is asleep and Mahna is here, I try to give her lots of one on one attention. The last few nights we have been "baking" together. Last night we made brownies and tonight we made orange julius. She finally got over her fear of the blender! Haha. Now that SHE controls the button to turn it on. Jarrod has been rearranging our furniture lately because he hates our furniture. We can't just go out and buy what we want without getting into debt so I told him rearranging may make him feel better about this place where he lives. My mom has been so awesomely generous with her time taking me to the DR again and again and this week will be no exception, and on top of that Anna has to have a stomach scope done Thursday which they will have to put her to sleep for, so mom will be all over the place this week. My grandma has been keeping Mahna a lot even tho she also has this evil devil of a cold/virus that everyone in my family seems to have right now. UhOh baby cryin...... I better jump to his command! :) Thanks for reading

what's going on

Howdy readers. Thanks for the comments. My sweet little babykins is one week old now. And what a crazy week it has been..... He was born Thursday, we came home Saturday. Could have stayed til Monday but it was lonely and HOSPITALS SUCK. By the time we got home Mahna was pretty sick with fever and a bad cough. Lots of crying and not a lot of sleeping. Holiday weekend so we couldn't take her to the DR til Tuesday when we found out she has ear infection and medicine is working for her now and she is getting back to her old self. Cole had to go to the DR Tues and his biliruben levels were up. Mom had to take Mahna to the "sick waiting room" DR and I had to take Cole to the healthy side, it was a long day. THANKYOUMOM> So since his levels were up we had to go back again Weds, his levels are still at 11.8 but it isn't serious til 20 so they are assured that with lots of eating and sitting by the window in the sunlight he will be A-OK. My incision started bleeding Monday night so Tuesday I went to the DR as well, thinking they would say I worry too much and am a huge hypochondriac (sp?) Well I hadn't taken pain medicine that morning because after my appt we had to take the kids and I wanted a clear head. SO turns out they had to reopen the top layer of my incision and shove a bunch of guaze in my 1 inch deep wound. (it hurt just a tiiiiiiiiiiiiiiny little bit HA) So while I am trying to listen thru a cloud of tears and crazy pain, my DR is attempting half ass to explain to me how for the next four weeks my husband and mom will have to change this guaze and bandage twice a day and I will have to heal from the inside out. Oh and don' t do any housework or lift anything over 10 lbs. So I am officially only good for one thing: breastfeeding Cole. How fun is life? Once again I am so thankful for my mom and grandma who have taken care of Mahna all week while Jarrod has been at work and done all my laundry, dishes, cleaning, grocery shopping, cooking meals and driving to many many DR appointments. On the pessimistic side I feel caught in a bad dream because for me, it hurts my pride to have to ask for help and I constantly feel like I am getting on everyone's nerves. On the optimistic side, I could be forced to pay someone to help me or ask from those I don't know very well for help. Ok, well I finally posted an update and I surely wish it could have been more boring like "all is well yada yada" but this was more fun wasn't it?????? :) Everyone loves a little drama.

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TOMORROW!

I have never been able to spell that word right (tomorrow). Did I? I can't remember if I ever got it down correctly in my head or not.

Well I am madly crazily cleaning my house (in between many sitting breaks) and doing all the laundry that has acquired. I am a nervous wreck about my c section tomorrow (that word again). All normal worries that any woman has, will my baby be ok? will everyone in the family get along? will my huz be a nervous wreck watching the two yr old for a few days?

I should have nothing to worry about considering I have the greatest family ever and I am so glad to have a lot of siblings that are all so unique and awesome individually and together. My parents couldn't be more caring and generous and my grandma is just absolute frosting on my life cake. But unfortunately I have a human brain that just can't help but worry anyways!

LOve you all and I will post pictures next week! Come visit the hospital between Thurs night and Sat night if you want!!!!!!!!!

ROCKY BALBOA

Jarrod and I did a rare thing last night. We went to a MOVIE at a THEATER. Oh and we realized why we never do this...... 2 tickets, small popcorn and a coke $26. THAT IS NUTS!!!!!!! The tickets at Grapevine Mills mall are $9 now. Jeez! Well anyway it was truly nice to get out with him. I can't tell if he realizes it as much as I do, but we really hardly get time just to ourselves, but when we do it is a good time and that kind of brightens up my heart and mind for a few days following. We saw "Rocky Balboa", as Jarrod is all into those movies and pretty much has them memorized. It was a good movie, I thought. Considering it's been like 16 years since the last Rocky movie came out, the characters were very consistant and so was the story.

So now I am 38 weeks and one day pregnant, which is farther along than I have ever been. I was about 32 weeks with Gold and exactly 38 with Mahna. Today was my last "thursday" of being pregnant and next Thursday morning I will be at the hospital........ That is if all goes as planned. :)

AAAAAAAAAAAAh

Time is flying by! Oh my gosh only 9 days (well less than that) until Cole is born! Mahna and I have been making the most of our days together. Although I get grumpy with her here and there I think we are really making the most of our few moments left alone together. Yesterday we spent the day with my mom which was fun and today we spent the day with Jarrod's mom, which is a very rare treat. We ate Italian food for lunch and I sold some CD's to add to Jarrod's Christmas gift fund. I am trying to save up to get him an IPOD! If you talk to him, don't leak the secret. He never reads my blog so I'm not worried about him seeing this. He has been talking about wanting an IPOD forever and ever. I think it is something he will really enjoy, but we will see if I can sell enough stuff to get it by Christmas or not! If not I can always just buy him a few smaller gifts and that will be cool, too. A good thing about Movie Trading Company is they will give you $2-$3 per CD even for old stuff, where CD Warehouse only gives you like a dollar and is much more picky about scratches. I ran into two grumpy people today. One at Movie Trading Co. The alarm went off right as I was walking in the door. Here I am 9 mo. pregnant with a 2 yr old and my very innocent looking mother in law with me, and yet I get suspicious looks for the whole 30 min I was in there. The girl at the counter was so snotty when I gave her my CD's to sell and then she came around to the back of the store and asked me if I needed help while looking at my big purse not at me. The second grumpy person was at Kid 2 Kid or however you spell it. It is a resale kids clothing store and this old hag who owns or runs that store has no concept of customer service or friendliness. She always acts so annoyed to anyone coming in there to sell things. It is a resale shop!!! DUH. Anyway she nitpicked something about each item in the bag and was so rude and bitchy about it. She just made me feel like crap. Oh well. It isn't the first time I have gone in that store and said "never again will I walk thru this door". (said it to myself) ANyways, tonight my neices are coming over while Jarrod's parents go see a movie. Mahna is watching tv so I better go try to get something done before they all get here!
TOODLES

more focused then

I was just re-reading my posts from a few days before Mahna was born. It is funny how I was feeling a lot of the same things then that I am now. And this time I keep thinking that everything is sooo much more uncomfortable this time etc etc. I do think well know that I am bigger this time so I am hoping that means a bigger baby (Mahna weighed 7 lbs) and not just that I am more of a heffer this time. But most of the complaints I have this time are same as last time like heartburn, sleeplessness, backpains, worry over bringing the baby home. Funny though before Mahna was born I was saying "how do people have a kid at home and still make it thru pregnancy?" Now I know, you just do. You just make it through whatever is thrown your way no matter what in life, right?

8 days to Christmas, 11 days to Cole

Well I still haven't called my long lost friend. It is just nice to know that I "can" now, I guess.

Mahna and I went to Southlake town square w/ my mom and gma last night. It is a really pretty peaceful place. All the lights and the fountain were really cool. We also went to a groovacious toy store called The Owl's Nest which I could have dropped a couple hundred bucks in last night easily. I noticed last night that I tend to gravitate toward looking for things my neices would like to have. It makes me wonder if I will "know" what Mahna likes when she is their age as much as I feel like I know what my neices like. I think I always want to buy something for them cuz I feel sorry for them not living with their parents. They don't have a grandma able to spoil them like my mom spoils Mahna, either. Mahna is blessed in a million ways. She has so much love from all angles and then my parents and grandma always showering her with gifts on top of that. She has four very cool aunties who love to play with her...... etc etc.

After that little outing we went to the snobby neighborhoods to check out their christmas light decor. Mahna really has enjoyed looking at Christmas lights this year. I have always liked looking at them too and it is cool to have an excuse now to do it a few times a week! :) We drive up and down the streets in our neighborhood looking at the same lights over and over when we are tight on time but no matter what it gives me some kind of peaceful feeling to look at lights on houses and trees when it is dark outside.

Something very strange....

Okay something strange is going on. I am 37 weeks pregnant, 2 wks and 2 days from Cole being born and I am feeling really great.... physically. This seems very strange. My back is not hurting, I don't feel nausous, etc... Now mentally I am a little SNAPPY here and there but even that is better than I seem to remember before. How wierd! But I am glad!

My neices and mother in law came over for dinner last night. Jarrod cooked burgers and I made pasta and beans. It was fun having a nice evening with my mother in law. I don't see her much, don't really "know" her well so that was cool. We watched the "DaVinci Code". That movie was so wierd. I think a really freaking crazy person must have written that. It is an interesting concept, to think of a group of people so devoted to protecting some huge secret for hundreds of years. Watching it with Jarrod and his mom, I had a feeling of wishing I knew all about the bible and had tons of things memorized so I could like argue against the movie. I let the feeling pass me quickly, remembering that if God wants something done or known, it is not all up to me. He is the one who is all powerful and can do what needs done. There is no reason for me to worry.

I found one of my friends on MYSPACE that I really liked a lot in highschool..... the early part before I got too into Jeremy and too into drugs. She moved away and we lost track like 9 years ago I guess... So I found her and she lives in Alaska! I have talked to her online a little but haven't called her yet. Funny thing about having a two year old, there are only certain times you can really talk on the phone and this chick has no kids so a screaming one in the background or even just a constantly interrupting one may be misunderstood. What can I say, some things I just OVER worry.

Thanks for reading!

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Target Sucks

I would just like to say that Target is not what I thought it was. I registered there thinking this store is a step above Walmart, ya know. But nothing I registered for is even in the freakin store (registered online) and the whole baby section is allllllways a disaster, completely unorganized and unbalanced. The only thing you really can find there is an expensive sippy cup or Amy Coe blanket (which are awesome but overprice blankies). Then there is the return policy!!!! You can't return more than two items per Y E A R without a receipt, even for store credit!! That is really bonkers. Anyway I would highly recommend not registering there for any reason. I am all about Walmart again (for that "type" of store) they have way friendlier employees and and easy returns system that doesn't make you feel like a thief or a toddler.

Trying to post pics on here, too, but Blogger is just saying "can't process your request". Hmmmm. Maybe tomorrow.

19 days til Christmas, 22 days to Cole!!!!!!

happy showering

I must say I was given the coolest baby shower ever on Saturday. Kendra had everyone decorate onesies and burp cloths (sp?) and they all turned out so awesome. It was fun to NOT have games and a lot of structure. People mostly sat or stood around talking, eating and drinking. I enjoyed it so much and everyone was so thoughtful with their gifts. It is always enjoyable having people over to my own house. It is always cool to see out of all the people you would want to come who actually WANTS to come! :) I know there were a couple ppl who wanted to but couldn't and of course out of towners that definately couldn't. So thanks to all who helped and all who came! It was a great memory of a day!

ALSO have to give a shout out to NIKKI! My dearest oldest bestest friend got engaged this weekend and is very happy about it! I am so excited for her to get planning on her wedding and a new phase in life. Love ya mucho!

the date has been set

We have set the date for Cole's birth. Thursday, Dec 28 at NOON. Please feel free to come visit us at Lewisville Hospital between 3 pm that day and Dec 31.

pics

Mahna and Franky and Penny

it always works out that way

Yesterday I was thrilled to wake up for the first time in 4 days to a bed that Mahna's diaper had NOT leaked pee on. I literally washed sheets and matress pad and remade the bed 4 days in a row. My dear friend CinCin knows how much I LOVE to change sheets. HAHA. Of course I wake up all happy and then 5 minutes later Penny (dog) pukes on the bed. STUPID DOG!!!!! (If I was kind and not a grumpy pregnant heffer I would be worrying about why poor Penny was sick at that moment).

Last night I finally slept HARD, for longer than four hours. BUT of course my dear sweet sleep like a rock thru the night daughter woke up crying at 4:30 am and was REallY upset. It took me about 10 minutes of trying to comfort her to figure out she just wanted to go potty in the potty chair instead of in her diaper. After that she was fine. But it just figures. LOL Then on top of that I was watching my nieces today so they got here at 8:15 and I WAS STILL SOUND ASLEEP! I had to get up and I have enjoyed them so I am not complaining, it just figures, when I physically CAN sleep, I responsibly CAN NOT.

Not that my dadeo reads my blog but I would like to say thanks to him and my ma for getting me a wireless keyboard to hook up to my laptop so I can type again!!!!!!!!! Yippeeee

a decent computer!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Finally I get to post from my mom's computer where I can type normally. Of course I whine all the time about how annoyed I am with my keyboard,but have i called Dell to ASK how much it would be to fix it? NO! I hate phone calls. I have had to call back and forth lately with our mortgage company because our loan got purchased and I had already made the payment to the old company. They have reassured me a few times now that the money will be transferred to the new company, but a friend of ours who is even a loan officer himself, got screwed when his loan got purchased. SO we are nervous........ Jarrod more than I, and being extra careful.

I am so tired today I can't even think correctly. Now I know how L felt the other day when I was at her house. She is less than 2 wks from due date andI am about 6 wks away........ I just can't get comfy at night, no matter how many pillows. I want to sleep so bad, I look so forward to quiet bedtime coming...... Then I may go to sleep for 3 hours or so and I wake up with my tummy being rock hard, my back and hips hurting and my shoulders hurting because I have to sleep on my side, my uncomfyness wakes me and then my brain turns on and once it gets going the night is O V E R. It sucks. I am considering getting my tubes tied after this baby is born. Any advice on the subject? I just can't imagine ever wanting to get pregnant again. Plus this will be my 3rd C Section.

Dad's got our fajitas cooked so TOODALOO!!!!!!!!!!

picture

with our dog before we got her groomed

halloween with cousins

few-moments-alone

I would say these moments alone right now are semi-unwanted.
Mahna woke me at 3:30 and couldn't get comfortable again until after 4 so I was pretty wide awake by
then. My insomnia is getting annoying. Luckily a lot of days I can take a nap with Mahna in the afternoon. I am slacking off on my own housework and Cole's room is not even close to decorated.

Today I get to see my buddy from middle school, as she has a 2 hour layover at the Dallas airport. The only hard part is getting to the airport by 7:50 a.m.!
:)
I am looking forward to it tho.

Mahna and I have a ritual.
Every morning we both put our makeup on. I have a little chair for her to stand on at our sink and she knows what drawer has the makeup.
She is very good at listening towhat she is allowed to play with and not
play with. Her favorite thing is for me to curl her eyelashes! Of all things I figured she would whine aboutit hurting! It is fun having a little girl.
I wonder what a boy will
b e like.

THANKS"

thank you Brent for telling me how to un-hack my
blog!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now I just need a moment of silent aloneness
to post.

terlet

howdy
sorry
no
posting.
my keyboard is stilljacked up, haven't had the funds to fix it cuz i amn spending all my
cashola revamping our hall bathroom.
it is gonna be purdy groovacious once it
is done tho. miss u all!

sad

Jarrod's grandmother died last night.
She had breastcancer, and the chemo caused her to catch pnuemonia.
We were at the hospitala long time and it is so sad to watch because Jarrod has a huge family and their grandmother was the center ofit all.
His grandad has a really strong faith and hoped\believed til the end that she would receive
a miracle and live.
I was thinking this morning how sometimes people die and you think "what a waste" and sometimes people die
and
you are so sad because you need\want more of their goodness to still be in the world. My gramdma said it is only sadfor the people left here, for her it is glorious to finally be in heaven.
None of us ever know what day we are going to go.
Let's live and love like it could be this day.

pics

oh-happy-day

Thanx to all of u who made my bday a happy one.

The weirdest part of turning 27 was
thinking back to 10 yrs ago that I was seventeen! that is just too wierd. 17 was a good year for me tho,
too much fun actually! we have been so bizy, with my bday,
tiffany's wedding (i still owe pics i know) and jarrods
bro being here for
a week. my house was full of 5 kids from age 2-10
and I am ready for some peace and relaxation.
:)

frustrating-computer-keypad

the
keypad
on
our computer is jacked up so
it types in a poetic style. that is why i have
not been posting,
because it takes forever
to go back and edit
it and then
1\2the time i am losing all my
words anyway
so i justget too
frustrated with this
thing.

it
is
only a year 1\2 old, too. grrrrrrrrrr

i should warnyou all, don't leave your purse in the car
because people really do break
windows out and really do it in suburbia CVS
parking lots in the middle of the day.
i never believed
Jarrod when
he warned me it could happen.

But yes.........
my sweet sweet brother went and bought me a new purse to replace my stolen
one
and
it
is
the
cutest
purse
with
matching wallet. he has great taste.
last
night was jarrod's
sister-Tivany's
wedding to Warren.
It was an awesome wedding, outdoors by the lake at
Sneaky Petes and the reception room was absolutely stumming.
Everyone was really dressed up and Tivany looked amaizing. I will post pics soon.
I am not commemting on the church
situation yet because
I am not yet able to put it into mature thoughts\words\feelimngs.
And everyone else seems to
be doing a great job anyway!
THANKS FOR READING

victimized

got
the
window
broken
out
of
my
car
so
someone
could
steal
my
new
purse
with
things
in
it
only
meaningful
to
me
and
about
$4
for
their
touble

pics

mahna\Gold
and
mahna\Blake

and the beat goes on

I'm sure there aren't many people checking my blog but if you are, thanks for caring! :) Well we have moved into our house and are semi unpacked. The house is twice what we were living in. We were in about 800 sq. feet and now are in 1570 sq. feet. SO it looks kind of empty! :) I love having carpet, though. It makes Mahna really happy to be able to run back and forth through the house. We have major plumbing repairs going on right now. When the owner had the foundation fixed, the ground was very dry and of course moving a house up the plastic pipes BREAK. So far we have had 6 leaks under the house fixed. The contractor said that is more than he has ever seen. It is already costing the seller of the house over $5000 to fix so far. We have a huge hole in the ground on the side of our house, one through Cole's bedroom wall (those of you who don't know, that is my son's name who is due in January), and one through the floor of our garage. So we are kind of half living in half the house. Our bathroom vanity is going to be completely torn out and the wall redone, we are putting in a new toilet, Cole's wall will have to be fixed and the garage floor. We haven't been able to hook up our washing machine yet because one of the leaks is right under the utility room, and our dryer is broken anyway so that will be the NEXT project. Also our back sliding door sticks really badly. We knew this before we moved in but not the extent of it. So we need to put in new doors asap. Luckily Casey can do it for us so the doors should hopefully only be about $300.
I tell you what tho! House equals money money money! Luckily I have gotten a watering flowers job for the next month or so which pays a little and won't take much time/energy. I may have a new cleaning job thanks to VALERIE! :) Jarrod's job seems to be going better. Unfortunately he got in a car wreck last week. Thank God he is physically okay. His car is undrivable though, so he has a rental. The wreck was not his fault, and Casey can fix the car as soon as the other person's insurance company pays up!
I believe I experienced a small miracle at church today. The last 3-4 weeks either me or mom has tried putting Mahna in Sunday School and she was freaking out so bad that she couldn't stay. I almost went and did laundry this morning instead of going to church, but instead we went. I prayed for Mahna to please go to SUnday School and have a good time and let me sit through church, even though we were 20 minutes late. Well turns out it started late today anyway, Mahna walked right in, got her nametag, gave it to the teacher and told me BIE. I was so shocked and I really enjoyed the service (great job, MiKe!) Then when I went to get Mahna one of the women working in there went on and on about how smart Mahna is and how well she did today, and was so content playing with puzzles. I was like WOA! So that was cool.
Now I am doing laundry at mom's house (thank you mom!) and Mahna is napping in her PJ's at 2:30 in the afternoon.
TOodLES

insanity

This has been one of the wierdest days of my life. Mahna slept in, then wanted breakfast. She never wants breakfast. In fact, she never eats so when she asks to eat I surely say OKAY. Then I get to G.G.'s house to drop her off, I have less than five minutes to stay and her shoes are nowhere to be found. Of course this is a day she really does need shoes because GG is dropping her off w/ my mom at the salon later until I finish cleaning a brand new house. This is why I was running super late because I HAD to be at this new house on time. Then later in the afternoon Jarrod calls and says that our electricity got off. Aparently the lovely RELIANT ELECTRICITY COMPANY got the dates confused on when they are supposed to change over our electricity to the new house. I had it scheduled for FRIDAY and they aren't even supposed to turn off our current house's electricity since Casey will still live there. So we are on hold with them forever and ever just for them to say that they can't turn it back on for 24-48 hours, even tho it is 104 degrees, I am 5 mo. pregnant, have a one year old and two cats. Now all the food is spoiling in my freezer and fridge (yes they will EVENTUALLY reimburse us for it) and we get to go stay in the La Quinta hotel tonight. JOY. Then Jarrod's job completely screwed up his route, added 100 miles a DAY to him and an extra hour to his evening with no added pay (he pays for his own gas so this is basically a CUT in pay). SO Jarrod did something very unlike himself and just came home. OH and our house we are supposed to be signing papers on tomorrow night..... has a plumbing problem from the foundation repair and it is getting fixed tomorrow. Luckily tonight Jarrod got things worked out with his job and Mahna is staying with GG, since I have to clean tomorrow anyway. I miss her already tho. We had fun swimming tonight. She is very brave in the water now and has learned so many words she can really talk to where you know what she wants most of the time. Well I am at my parents and we need to go to the hotel. Yip EeE
TOODLES

drowning in a sea of boxes

I am so behind on posting pictures! I never did Mahna's first haircut and so much has even happened since then. I would like to post the sonogram pic from yesterday, but whenever I have a free moment. My mommy dearest was kind enough to watch my little sweetie pie today so I could pack like a mad woman. I have packed 15 boxes in 2 1/2 hours! My back is killing me. I accomplished getting Jarrod and my closet cleaned out which makes me feel a little closer to the destination. I boxed up a bunch of groovacious clothes and shoes for my friend Cynde, three bags (so far) for donating, 2 bags of trash. I am so tempted to just throw out all of Mahna's toys and let her start over at the new house. Her bday will be a couple weeks from move in so she would have new stuff and a fairly clean room. Of course I probably won't really do that, heaven forbid I toss a memorable item. My house is a disaster. We are in about 800 square feet right now and there are about 25 boxes stacked in the main room (kitchen). I am sitting in the middle of it on my laptop on the kitchen table which is piled with misc. papers and cleaning supplies and things like a huge glass bowl that I am not sure how to pack. My back is really killin gme, did I already mention that? I am doing a new cleaning job tomorrow, and I am sure I will be popping tylenol the second I wake up tomorrow just to make it through and make my $75. This house has a floor that has to be washed by hand. That sounds hiorrd........ But truthfully I am thinking of advertising in the coffee news (www.txcoffeenews.com) just to get another job or two. I want to work as much as I can before "Cole" is born. Wow it seems too wierd not to just call it 'the baby' anymore. Just last week I was worried because I couldn't think of a girls name that I really liked. I guess there was a reason for that! This pregnancy is really going by fast. I am almost 20 weeks, so over 1/2 way there really. I already have gained 18 pounds (dear Lord!) so I pray that that will only double and not any more than that. I am a heffer for sure. Oh well! Well I better get back to work. Jarrod will be off work in less than an hour. TOODLES!

results of the sonogram

BOY BOY BOY!I am having a boy!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i can't believe it but it's true without any doubt that was a boy on that ultrasound today!!!!! Jarrod is so happy he can't quit smiling. I can't believe how excited I am now that I know it is a boy! This is so amazing. I just want to go decorate his room for him now and get all ready. I guess I can get rid of all Mahna's clothes now. I have been saving and saving and saving boxes of them just in case there was another girl. So anyone need girls clothing up to size 18 mo? I have a bunch of pairs of girl shoes size 4, 5, 6, too.
YIPEEEEEEEEEEEEE
I would have been excited either way so I could have written this post ahead of time but I am amazed at how excited I am to be having a baby boy. I can't explain it but it is a good feeling. Scary to think of trying to raise a MAN but then it is scary to raise a confident, caring woman too!

mooooooooooooving on

Mahna had her first dentist appointment. She did so good. The office was amazing. It is all for kids dentist so it was decorated and everything was short for kids and lots of groovacious educational toys everywhere. I realized Mahna really DOESN'T have everything! :) She got to sit in my lap for her flouride treatment and teeth check, so it wasn't scary at all. The woman was very nice and I am glad that her first dental experience didn't put fear in her heart!

Later that day she got her first haircut! First she watched me get a haircut then she sat on my lap and got her little bangs trimmed and the rest of her hair cut. She looks so much older now! I will post a picture soon.

We are finally getting our mortgage stuff finalized. What a pain in the arse! I can't wait til this junk is over!!!!!!!!! At least our first house payment won't be due until October. That is good cuz it's gonna be expensive. Oh and I went and picked up a few boxes at the used box store on 407. Nice guy who works there carried them to my car and they were pretty cheap too! Thanks Lindsay!

Okay well I am feeding my ma and Kendra's doggies now and watering mom's plants and now I am off to return movies, turn in donations, buy dog food and if I am lucky get a pedicure!!!!!!

Happy Friday!

update

No sonogram today! I got to hear the heartbeat (it is just as amazing as the first time I heard Gold's). I was correct that I am due Jan 4. I have gained too much weight. I get a sonogram on Aug 14 so that is cool cuz mom and Jarrod can come!

Toodles.

p.s. anyone looking for a vehicle? I have a couple for sale!

pps. Anyone know someone who is selling a $500 car that my brother could buy?

garage sale

I have the following for sale if anyone is in need or desire:

Upright piano $? Make offer

1996 Jeep Grand Cherokee (silver) $2800 or best offer

1996 Ford Mustang (red) wrecked on side, has salvaged title but drives awesome! $900

2003 Ford F150 long bed, regular cab (white), ranchhand bumper, camper topper $8000



Anyone have boxes I could borrow or buy to pack up my house? I should be moving around Aug 18!!!!!

Mahna's first hair appt. is tomorrow. AWWWWWWW

My first DR appt is Weds. so I will find out my actual due date and maybe the baby's sex! I am guessing I am due about Jan 4th tho.

Thanks for the positive words for those who commented. HUGS

Sometimes I can't breathe.

Just when I thought we were getting things settled and closer to finalizing on the house, we get a lower estimate from a different mortgage company and now are 'fighting' with our current mortgage guy over a couple thousand dollars. Now on my mind is who should we trust...

Also on my mind is I need more cleaning jobs. Things are slow and I am feeling great these days (physically) and actually COULD be working a lot more often.

My own house doesn't seem clean or organized enough to start packing anything....... where do I start???????

I am so excited about the house I start crying out of thankfulness. Then I start having an anxiety attack with the reality that we are going to own a home and a large home payment...

Then there is the mom thing, there is so much I need to do to prepare her for life as it is but on top of that I must focus on my almost 8 yr old son who was adopted. I need to find ways to always let him know how much I love him even tho someday he may be very angry at me for getting married and having other children. I also have to be explaining to Mahna how special her brother is and why things turned out the way they did. And how not to set her path in life like I set mine back then...

Least importantly but still bothering me is how much weight i am gaining already and still have so long to go until the baby comes.

no news is bad news?.

Well I can't really update about the house right now because I don't know. We have been looking at OTHER houses, but that is still 'the one'. The woman wants us to raise our paying price 2000 dollars and then she will fix the foundation. I don't know what to think. Should I be scared to get into a house with foundation problems that have just been fixed? Should I just accept it and know that no matter where we are around here we will have that problem? UGH so much to think about. Well I have to go do some preliminary paperwork junk for the doctor in Carrollton.......... I really should get this done since I am almost 17 wks and haven't gone to the DR yet. I hate going to the DR! Especially a new one. toodles.

FRIDAY POSTING

I would have never guessed how much stress and waiting would go into this housebuying experience. And we always thought that once we got a house we wouldn't be "throwing away money on rent" anymore. But the more we learn the less your house is really an "investment". I mean if we decide to sell our house in 5 years, even if it went up in value $10,000 that money would all go to realtor fees and mortgage closing fees etc anyway. So I guess we just have to get that out of our minds and enoy that it will be 'ours' (if we ever get it) and we can change the wall color, plant flowers....... etc. That will be cool. I also kind of thought once our loan was approved and once our bid was accepted, it is pretty much OURS. Not true........ we had bad news at the inspection and then had to get someone to see how bad the foundation of the house is. Turns out it is pretty bad. So now we have to get the woman to agree to fix it or no house for us. Then we can kiss $360 goodbye ($260 inspection, $100 option fee) and start all over looking somewhere else. That is worst case scenario I guess. The woman who owns the house and her lawyer are sneaky and crooked acting so I figure they will get their "own" inspector out there tomorrow to say there is "nothing wrong with the foundation" or else she will just say she won't fix it and we will have to say adios to the casa. Either way. It will all happen as it should and in the way intended for all of us. It's all good.
Today I am enjoying an entire day with my babykins. It has been almost a week since we have had that. Even last weekend we had to send her off to gma's while we did realtor junk. We have had a fun day together and I am truly amazed (but then again not) at how much better behaved she is when she has lots of momma time. She even has moments when she goes off and plays by herself! That is unheard of when I have been gone from her all day.
Happy Friday to all!!!!!!!!!!!

day 2 of 10

BUYING A HOUSE SUCKS

realtors and mortgage guy seem so much less friendly now that we have signed a few papers. now it is rush rush and all up to us and such an annoyance to them to answer any questions. i truly don't trust anyone anymore, church related or not. i do appreciate all the advice i have been getting in my comments. i can't believe how much money everything is costing. it is truly maddening. i know i have gotten on a few of my clients nerves lately too because i am still cleaning and getting a million phone calls a day. of course yesterday when i didn't have to clean and i was just sitting there for 3 hours waiting for the inspection to be done the mortgage guy was nowhere to be found or heard from. now today when the woman i am cleaning for is right there with me paying me a buttload of money per hour, he needs to gripe at me for not making a decision on the loan we want yet........ HELLO I WANTED TO TALK TO U ABOUT THIS YESTERDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!! ugh. someone please tell me that owning a home is worth it. i honestly want this to be the only home we ever purchase....
unless we win the lottery and can hire someone else to do our stressing for us.
and on another note, if anyone ever hears me pining for another baby after this please remind me that i despise being pregnant.
Thanks.

day 1 of 10

House was inspected today, the heat shield on the fireplace is cracked. Anyone know what that means? There are possible foundation problems so we have to get ANOTHER inspection. The one today took almost three hours! Plus I had to go to three banks today to get statements and transfer monies around. Mahna stayed w/ mom half the day and got to do lots of swimming. Tomorrow I have to work probably all day, so money is good but I hope I won't have to be on the phone too much while I work, since the woman I am cleaning for will be home. We signed preliminary papers at the real estate office today. Waiting on the seller's disclosure to find out age of roof so we can get solid insurance quote........ money is flying out of our hands! EEK

ok....

Scratch that other post. After going thru immense sadness and disappointment, the owners of our dream home call back and say "okay I guess we CAN go lower". PUNKS!!!!!!!!!!! So we have been going back and forth once again and as of today they accepted our offer! :) Yippee! SO now we just have to have the inspection done tomorrow and hope that it is not TOO bad. The great thing about this house is that it doesn't really need anything done right away (as far as we can tell) so we can just move in and be happy. LOL. Sounds like a fairytale! I guess I will know by tomorrow night if all is cool with it! HOly COW I CAN"T BELIEVE IT IS FINALLY HAPPENING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was wrong.

It is my dream house. But it is not the house for us. One reason: Money. The woman who owns it just wants too much. I am beginning to wonder if we will ever find something in Lewisville/Flower Mound. I just like it here cuz I have lived here a long time and my family and Jarrod's family are here. Why does everyone think it is worth SO MUCH MONEY to live here? I don't get it.
So back to the search.... I hope I have cried myself out tonight so I do want to get out of bed tomorrow.

CASA!

We put in a bid tonight on a house in Lewisville. It is within walking distance of Parkway Elementary if you know where that is. Vally Pkwy and 3040. I am soooooooooooo excited. I really believe this is the house. I am probably letting myself get hopes up too much but I hear that you KNOW when you walk in and I think I KNEW.

colorado pics

update

HI! Just wanted to say howdy and tell u all we are having a grand time in Colorado. We are staying at the Purgatory ski resort and it is very pretty and peaceful. Mahna loves all the nature. She is taking Elliott on all the walks and he does very well staying with her on the leash. People are always stopping and saying something about how amazing it is that she can handle a dog at her size. Haha. I heard a song on one of Mahna's Disney videos:

"ain't nothin like the great outdoors to ease your soul, ain't nothin like the great outdoors to keep you from growin old......"

I am at an internet cafe right now but my time is about up and Mahna's patience should be almost over. Yesterday we saw Durango, today we saw Silverton and now are in Ouray. Purdy stuff. Easygoing mountain people.

Where did you take your default pic?in my living room
What exactly are you wearing right now?nobody caresWhat is your current problem?chubbiness/pregnancyIf you could go back in time and change something would you?I wouldn't have let Jeremy tattoo my ankle. i really want to cover it up now.
What's the name of the song that you're listening to?nuttinAny celeb you would marry?They are all rich....

Name someone with the same birthday as you?I dunno
Do you have a crush on someone?Mahna
Ever sang in front of a large audience?nope
What do you usually order from Starbucks?EXPRESSO
Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?--jeanean garafallo, (Nikki that is so wierd! we look nothing alike and two people said we looked like the same star! NUTS)
Do you still watch kiddie movies or kiddie TV shows?i have a two yr old, yes i watch sesame street, spongebob, mr. rogers........ need i go on
Do you speak any other languages?baby talk count?
What magazines do you read?shape, parenting, people
Have you ever ridden in a Hummer limo?--nope
Has anyone you've been really close with passed away?that is hard to answer
Do you ever watch MTV?who has time to watch TV?????
What's something that really annoys you?rude people: on the road, in the store, everywhere
Chapter 1:Middle name: Elizabeth
Nicknames: awww....... don't have one. anyone got one for me? be nice!
EYE color: blue
Chapter 2:Do you
live with your parents: nope
Do you get along with your parents: yup
Are your parents married/separated/divorced: still kickin it
Do you have any siblings: yes u all know the answer
Chapter 3: Favorites
Ice cream flavor: cherry vanilla
Season: hmm. like them all for different reasons
Shampoo/conditioner: pantene
Chapter 4: Do You
Sing in the shower: only when i have an audience in the shower HA
write on your hand: on my inner wrist all the time, bad memory
Call people back: thinking of the phone gives me anxiety but once i am on it its all good
Believe in love: yes
Sleep on a certain side of the bed: lefty
Have any bad habits: do i have to list theM?
Chapter 5: Have You Ever
Broken a bone: yes, left arm twice, once got skated over by a large person and the second time skiiing ran into a tree LOL
Gotten stitches: in my lip when i was like 1 yr old
Taken painkillers: has anyone not taken them? yes i have had too many
Gone SCUBA diving: no but hope to someday
Been stung by a bee: yes a year ago on my hand and i cried like a baby
Thrown up in a restaurant: ewwwwwwwww! no way (sorry if you have)
Sworn in front of your parents: yes, sorry momHad detention: um is this a highschool survey? haha. yes i have had detention, glad to be done w/ that kind of skewl
Chapter 6: Who/What was the last
Person you talked to on the phone?: The Huzband
Thing you touched: my keyboard
Thing you drank: water

can't a girl get a shroom burger?

Ok I went to Wendy's, Whattaburger and Sonic. NO mushroom swiss burger to be found. No mushrooms even offered!!!!!!! What is this world coming to when a pregnant girl's craving can't be quenched? I know, I know, I can go to CHILI's and get a super tasty one but who wants to go IN somewhere? I want drive thru anonymity. God knows anyone who sees me would say she does NOT need to be eating a burger. :)

Countdown to vacation time and I am bizy as heck this week. Lots of work to be done. Money to be made for spending next week in Colorado on very overpriced items. I am determined to get a massage on vacation this year!

We went to the waterpark today, and this time a couple of my friends came with their kids. It was mucho funno and I could have stayed for hours longer. Maybe someday we will stay til they close at 8 and really get our two dollars worth! Mahna has been sleeping over two hours now (she didn't get a nap earlier) so I wonder if she is just out for the night. It's only 7 pm so maybe I should go to bed too? Hmmmmmmmmmmm

Can't think of any more things to say. Maybe I should answer that survey after all.

mahna pics!!!!!!!

happy FRYday a lil late

Well no one probably even reads blogs on the weekend, but oh well. I am looking forward to the weekend because I want to do some sitting and laying and take a hot bath. Tomorrow is Jarrod and my 6th anniversary. I would really like to go get massages, but it's a little too expensive at the moment. If we can get babysitting assistance, we might go see a movie at the studio movie grill. That way we can eat and watch. FUN! We like NEVER go to the movies, so it really is a date kind of thing for us to do. Pre-prego days I would rather go have happy hour for a few hours just the two of us, cuz we have so much fun doing that, but maybe next year! :) The ironic thing is we are going to probably see "The Break Up". Nice anniversary movie, eh?? I am also looking forward to seeing Kenner Sue and her huz and having a "brunch" at some new restaurant with Jarrod's family on Sunday.
Mahna needs me to read her a book now! She is shaking my leg saying MOM. TOODLES

FRY DAY

Tis hot these days and I am oh so thankful my parents put a pool in last year. Mahna is a little waterbug now and will stay in for HOURS> With lots of sunscreen of course. Anna and my momma are good at showing her a good time and LETTING her swim and splash for hours and hours. I am less patient and less fun. It's funny how I could always entertain other people's kids. And for some things I can show Mahna a really great time. But when it comes to being silly and spontaneous, well.....

So no house yet. :( We are putting a small pause on looking at houses. Putting some more cash in the bank to make us look good for our loan. We are on vacation for a week in July, so we are thinking we might find something end of July or in August. Who knows!

Steph, thanks for saying I am "too cool for Flower Mound". Haha. Flower Mound and Lewisville are some super borING places, I tell ya. No doubt about that. Not many uniquely pierced/dyed interesting clothed people walking around, heck not a lot of people WALKING anywhere. I would much prefer Austin over here with all the stupid dry cleaners on every block. I even thought about Dallas, but our jobs are here, families, good schools. I have lived in the ghetto of Lewisville and am pretty over the cuteness of it now. Flower Mound with it's pretty green trees and yards that people don't deck out with what won't fit in their house anymore sounds like a better place to take a walk. Plus the schools seem a lot better, too. Who knows, we still might end up in Lewisville because of these RIDIDCULOUS prices, but it won't be the same neighborhood we've been in.

Happy Friday and thanks for reading! Toodles.

date w/ my kiddo

Mahna and I had a date day. It was so fun. We went for a walk, then went swimming, then went shopping for a book and video and toy for her. Then the best part was we went to eat at Quizno's, just the two of us. I had the pot roast sub with lots o' horseradish MMMM and she had cheetos and pickles dipped in honey mustard. She loves to "dip" stuff. Unfortunately didn't have a bib with me, but oh well. Honey mustard washes out. I don't know why it was so special eating out with her, just the two of us, but it gave me such a good feeling. Kind of a freedom of sorts. Anyway..... we found a house we are interested in that just went for sale in Flower Mound, so hopefully tomorrow will get to see it and hope it will be "the one".

no ocean :(

Well I didn't get to go to Galveston. I could have pushed harder for it, but Anna ended up having to work this weekend, so she couldn't go and I didn't want to be the only girl. I probably could have dealt with that but I also thought Jarrod would have fun with an all guy weekend. So him and his best friend and his two brothers packed up the van, hooked up the jet ski and left at 6 a.m. Saturday. Mahna and I have a cold so we were up and down thru the night and after she ate 3 mini bowls of cheerios this morning we made it over to my parent's house around 11:30. Kendra, Anna and I made lots of yummy food like Italian cream cake, guacamole, an amazing salad (that was alll kendra, but you should all try blsamic vinegar, feta cheese and red pepper in your salad) and manicotti. Dad made steaks and brauts and we had a grand feast. We also spent a lot of time in the pool. Mahna was scared of the pool a few weeks ago, but thanks to my mom's persistance she loves the water once again. I am not sure what made her afraid of it in the first place but it seems to be all but over for now. If it had only been up to me, I would have given in to my child's every tear and discomfort and she would be looking at the pool thru the living room window all summer. So thank God for my mom and for my grandma and well pretty much everyone in my family and Jarrod's who touches Mahna's growth in a positive way. It isn't the ocean, but then again there is a shower just seconds away and NO SAND so hey! It's a good weekend.

I have a cute daughter

Mahna has really been making me smile lately. The first incident was when I was still feeling depressed (thankfully has passed now) and I was crying. She came over and patted my face and tilted her head in such an angelic way, I thought how could I ever be sad with her in my life?
During the Mavericks playoff game the other night with the Spurs Jarrod was very into the game and pacing the living room during the last minute of overtime. Mahna was sitting on the couch and suddenly yelled "GET BALL!" She doesn't talk much and we surely didn't expect her to be paying attention to the basketball game! It was so cute and funny.
A couple days later the three of us were watching a movie on tv sitting together on the couch. She showed me her sippy cup and said "meer" which means MORE and I said no honey you still have some left. A few minutes later she got up and I thought she was going to play in her room for a minute or something, like she usually does. She came back a few minutes later holding the chocolate syrup, she had gotten it out of the fridge because she needed MORE chocolate milk!!!!!! Cracks me up!

excuses excuses

I have a good excuse for not posting. My keypad on my laptop has been jacked up. Like if you hit the m it would type mn and if you type v or b it would type vb. Most annoying was if you hit the space bar it would hit enter. So everything I typed
looked
like
this.
I guess the bug worked itself out. Our neighbor, who fixed my computer, said maybe it got wet. Well Jarrod and I are on eggshells with this stupid computer. We don't bring a drink within a foot of it. My nieces are over everyday after school this week and next so I am guessing when I wasn't here something got splashed on it. Who knows. Either way if we would have had to buy a new keypad it would only be about $25 (just a pain to install I am guessing) and now it worked itself out, so YIPPEE!
So I cleaned 4 houses this week all to pay a ticket that I really am innocent of. I had plenty of time to call a lawyer and fight the ticket. BUT I was too scared to call a lawyer and have them laugh at me and then tell me I would have to pay them $200 or something. I am mad at myself for not fighting it, but once it is paid I hope to forget about it in a month. I think I told the story on here a long time ago, so I will just say that a cop followed me and waited for me by my friend's house while I had my car looked at, then pulled me over like5 minutes after I left the house and said I ran a stop sign. I literally wanted to ask the cop if he was NUTS, I argued with him a little but he scared me because we were in a culdesac on a Sun morning with no one around and he basically got in my face and said "give me your license while I am still being civil to you". I believe I might have gone to highschool with the guy his last name was Graves. ANyway I may never forgive myself for paying the damn money to Highland Village and not trying harder to fight a freaky cop.
So I am not really enjoying pregnancy much. I have been feeling nauseous but not enough to 'get sick', so I just feel raunchy, usually at night. I could deal with that, though. What I can't deal with is a horrible feeling of depression that will not subside. Well that is not entirely true. It comes and goes. One week I am happy and normal feeling, working out every day and eating what I should. The next week I cry at everything, bite everyone's heads off and eat all the wrong things. I am about 7 weeks along.......... that means 33 weeks to go. Yikes. Well at least this week is almost over and there is a good chance the sun will come out on Monday. Maybe even today since we are driving to Austin (sans Jarrod) to watch Kendra and John get their Master's degrees!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOO HOO. I am very happy for you Kendra and the path you have chosen for your life. You have done a lot of good for other people while also getting your education the last few years. Now I just hope you stay in Austin...... we gotta have that thrift store field trip!
Well I really gotta run Mahna is not even awake yet and I should be over to pick up ANna and Gma and my parents van in 30 minutes! eek. time is not on my side.
toodles thanks for reading.

my babycakes

Some pics of my babycakes at Lewisville lake. I love the one of her sitting on the couch even though part of her head is cut off. I just like the look on her face and the light going across her. SOrry about the one pic being sideways, but I still haven't installed a photo program on my computer. I was just happy to find my camera cord!

tis all good homey

So far so good. No barfy, no soreness of any kind. I feel fine!!!!!!!! yea. I haven't had probs with morning sickness before though. I just kind of expect the worst this time because it seems like everyone's subsequent pregnancies were harsh. Considering my first two were 6 years apart the second felt like a first all over again. I have been exercising and doing my best to eat fruits and veggies. I know that if I gain a ton of weight it will shorten the amount of time I can make money. I know that sounds very materialistic, but money is money. Plus if I am sitting at home I will just eat more and therefor have more to lose later. Life hasn't really changed in the past week since I found out I was prego. By the online calculator I should be due Jan 4th. That could mean a late December or new years baby. OOPS! Well I wanted to post some new pics but I can't find my camera cord! Darn! Mahna is doing good. She is a cutie pie, lots of fun. I only had one cleaning job this week so we have had lots of time together. I think she's a little sick to her tummy tonight cuz she is sort of cuddly and whiney. Well this weekend I look forward to mother's day and Kendra being in town, next weekend in austin and galveston the weekend after that! Not looking forward to CAMPING on the beach in Galveston, but hey...... u gotta take the beach when you can get a chance!

P O S I T I V E

That would be the result of my pregnancy test!!!!!!!!! Yes I am about 3 wks or so along. I haven't gone to the DR but by my calculations it will be sometime in January when I have a new little angelface in my arms!!!!!!!!!!! Holy cow Jan is so far away! I am gonna get so fat and I hate that part so much. I plan to keep exercising and eat well but somehow I wanted that last time too and something took over me and I no longer was doing what I should. I am very excited and so is Jarrod. We are pretty set on just the two kiddos so this will be my final pregnancy experience, which is relieving with just a hint of sadness. No reason to miss it yet, I have barely even started it! EEK. Did I already mention that January is SO far away?

small postings

Hello thanks for checking my bloggerooo! I am hoping to get my computer fixed pretty soon. It seems like forever, and it probably has been, since it worked. My bro-in-law has been working on it but has set it down for some time now. I didn't want to be rude before and take it back but I think he is tired of trying and we have a little money at the moment, so I am gonna see about putting it in a shop or sumthin.
Mahna is sleeping all night! can you believe it? I thought the day would never come. I guess that she really was just in a "habit" of waking up to nurse and therefor the habit haas been broken. It was a sad transition to stop nursing but it is okay now. I am glad to have my body semi-to myself for a few months. I do not know if I am pregnant yet, but don't worry I will post when I know! Oh also, I CAN'T sleep anymore. I toss and turn and my mind seems to race a hundred miles an hour now when I lay down. I can' tbelieve I finally have a chance to sleep and I can NOT! I tried tea last night and it didn't work. Maybe I will try writing first tonight.
Anyway I am off to clean a house. Jarrod's birthday was great fun and he was very excited about his metal detector. We went to the lake yesterday to try it out. No great treasures but I do see how it is addicting! HAHA