TOMORROW!

I have never been able to spell that word right (tomorrow). Did I? I can't remember if I ever got it down correctly in my head or not.

Well I am madly crazily cleaning my house (in between many sitting breaks) and doing all the laundry that has acquired. I am a nervous wreck about my c section tomorrow (that word again). All normal worries that any woman has, will my baby be ok? will everyone in the family get along? will my huz be a nervous wreck watching the two yr old for a few days?

I should have nothing to worry about considering I have the greatest family ever and I am so glad to have a lot of siblings that are all so unique and awesome individually and together. My parents couldn't be more caring and generous and my grandma is just absolute frosting on my life cake. But unfortunately I have a human brain that just can't help but worry anyways!

LOve you all and I will post pictures next week! Come visit the hospital between Thurs night and Sat night if you want!!!!!!!!!

ROCKY BALBOA

Jarrod and I did a rare thing last night. We went to a MOVIE at a THEATER. Oh and we realized why we never do this...... 2 tickets, small popcorn and a coke $26. THAT IS NUTS!!!!!!! The tickets at Grapevine Mills mall are $9 now. Jeez! Well anyway it was truly nice to get out with him. I can't tell if he realizes it as much as I do, but we really hardly get time just to ourselves, but when we do it is a good time and that kind of brightens up my heart and mind for a few days following. We saw "Rocky Balboa", as Jarrod is all into those movies and pretty much has them memorized. It was a good movie, I thought. Considering it's been like 16 years since the last Rocky movie came out, the characters were very consistant and so was the story.

So now I am 38 weeks and one day pregnant, which is farther along than I have ever been. I was about 32 weeks with Gold and exactly 38 with Mahna. Today was my last "thursday" of being pregnant and next Thursday morning I will be at the hospital........ That is if all goes as planned. :)

AAAAAAAAAAAAh

Time is flying by! Oh my gosh only 9 days (well less than that) until Cole is born! Mahna and I have been making the most of our days together. Although I get grumpy with her here and there I think we are really making the most of our few moments left alone together. Yesterday we spent the day with my mom which was fun and today we spent the day with Jarrod's mom, which is a very rare treat. We ate Italian food for lunch and I sold some CD's to add to Jarrod's Christmas gift fund. I am trying to save up to get him an IPOD! If you talk to him, don't leak the secret. He never reads my blog so I'm not worried about him seeing this. He has been talking about wanting an IPOD forever and ever. I think it is something he will really enjoy, but we will see if I can sell enough stuff to get it by Christmas or not! If not I can always just buy him a few smaller gifts and that will be cool, too. A good thing about Movie Trading Company is they will give you $2-$3 per CD even for old stuff, where CD Warehouse only gives you like a dollar and is much more picky about scratches. I ran into two grumpy people today. One at Movie Trading Co. The alarm went off right as I was walking in the door. Here I am 9 mo. pregnant with a 2 yr old and my very innocent looking mother in law with me, and yet I get suspicious looks for the whole 30 min I was in there. The girl at the counter was so snotty when I gave her my CD's to sell and then she came around to the back of the store and asked me if I needed help while looking at my big purse not at me. The second grumpy person was at Kid 2 Kid or however you spell it. It is a resale kids clothing store and this old hag who owns or runs that store has no concept of customer service or friendliness. She always acts so annoyed to anyone coming in there to sell things. It is a resale shop!!! DUH. Anyway she nitpicked something about each item in the bag and was so rude and bitchy about it. She just made me feel like crap. Oh well. It isn't the first time I have gone in that store and said "never again will I walk thru this door". (said it to myself) ANyways, tonight my neices are coming over while Jarrod's parents go see a movie. Mahna is watching tv so I better go try to get something done before they all get here!
TOODLES

more focused then

I was just re-reading my posts from a few days before Mahna was born. It is funny how I was feeling a lot of the same things then that I am now. And this time I keep thinking that everything is sooo much more uncomfortable this time etc etc. I do think well know that I am bigger this time so I am hoping that means a bigger baby (Mahna weighed 7 lbs) and not just that I am more of a heffer this time. But most of the complaints I have this time are same as last time like heartburn, sleeplessness, backpains, worry over bringing the baby home. Funny though before Mahna was born I was saying "how do people have a kid at home and still make it thru pregnancy?" Now I know, you just do. You just make it through whatever is thrown your way no matter what in life, right?

8 days to Christmas, 11 days to Cole

Well I still haven't called my long lost friend. It is just nice to know that I "can" now, I guess.

Mahna and I went to Southlake town square w/ my mom and gma last night. It is a really pretty peaceful place. All the lights and the fountain were really cool. We also went to a groovacious toy store called The Owl's Nest which I could have dropped a couple hundred bucks in last night easily. I noticed last night that I tend to gravitate toward looking for things my neices would like to have. It makes me wonder if I will "know" what Mahna likes when she is their age as much as I feel like I know what my neices like. I think I always want to buy something for them cuz I feel sorry for them not living with their parents. They don't have a grandma able to spoil them like my mom spoils Mahna, either. Mahna is blessed in a million ways. She has so much love from all angles and then my parents and grandma always showering her with gifts on top of that. She has four very cool aunties who love to play with her...... etc etc.

After that little outing we went to the snobby neighborhoods to check out their christmas light decor. Mahna really has enjoyed looking at Christmas lights this year. I have always liked looking at them too and it is cool to have an excuse now to do it a few times a week! :) We drive up and down the streets in our neighborhood looking at the same lights over and over when we are tight on time but no matter what it gives me some kind of peaceful feeling to look at lights on houses and trees when it is dark outside.

Something very strange....

Okay something strange is going on. I am 37 weeks pregnant, 2 wks and 2 days from Cole being born and I am feeling really great.... physically. This seems very strange. My back is not hurting, I don't feel nausous, etc... Now mentally I am a little SNAPPY here and there but even that is better than I seem to remember before. How wierd! But I am glad!

My neices and mother in law came over for dinner last night. Jarrod cooked burgers and I made pasta and beans. It was fun having a nice evening with my mother in law. I don't see her much, don't really "know" her well so that was cool. We watched the "DaVinci Code". That movie was so wierd. I think a really freaking crazy person must have written that. It is an interesting concept, to think of a group of people so devoted to protecting some huge secret for hundreds of years. Watching it with Jarrod and his mom, I had a feeling of wishing I knew all about the bible and had tons of things memorized so I could like argue against the movie. I let the feeling pass me quickly, remembering that if God wants something done or known, it is not all up to me. He is the one who is all powerful and can do what needs done. There is no reason for me to worry.

I found one of my friends on MYSPACE that I really liked a lot in highschool..... the early part before I got too into Jeremy and too into drugs. She moved away and we lost track like 9 years ago I guess... So I found her and she lives in Alaska! I have talked to her online a little but haven't called her yet. Funny thing about having a two year old, there are only certain times you can really talk on the phone and this chick has no kids so a screaming one in the background or even just a constantly interrupting one may be misunderstood. What can I say, some things I just OVER worry.

Thanks for reading!

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Target Sucks

I would just like to say that Target is not what I thought it was. I registered there thinking this store is a step above Walmart, ya know. But nothing I registered for is even in the freakin store (registered online) and the whole baby section is allllllways a disaster, completely unorganized and unbalanced. The only thing you really can find there is an expensive sippy cup or Amy Coe blanket (which are awesome but overprice blankies). Then there is the return policy!!!! You can't return more than two items per Y E A R without a receipt, even for store credit!! That is really bonkers. Anyway I would highly recommend not registering there for any reason. I am all about Walmart again (for that "type" of store) they have way friendlier employees and and easy returns system that doesn't make you feel like a thief or a toddler.

Trying to post pics on here, too, but Blogger is just saying "can't process your request". Hmmmm. Maybe tomorrow.

19 days til Christmas, 22 days to Cole!!!!!!

happy showering

I must say I was given the coolest baby shower ever on Saturday. Kendra had everyone decorate onesies and burp cloths (sp?) and they all turned out so awesome. It was fun to NOT have games and a lot of structure. People mostly sat or stood around talking, eating and drinking. I enjoyed it so much and everyone was so thoughtful with their gifts. It is always enjoyable having people over to my own house. It is always cool to see out of all the people you would want to come who actually WANTS to come! :) I know there were a couple ppl who wanted to but couldn't and of course out of towners that definately couldn't. So thanks to all who helped and all who came! It was a great memory of a day!

ALSO have to give a shout out to NIKKI! My dearest oldest bestest friend got engaged this weekend and is very happy about it! I am so excited for her to get planning on her wedding and a new phase in life. Love ya mucho!