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I am nervous about tomorrow. I can't believe it is here already. I am excited though, too and I can';t wait to see me and Jarrod's lil baby and to see him hold her. I will be at Lewisville Hospital until Friday afternoon, so if you want to come visit and meet Mahna, come on! :)

shout out

I would just like to give a shout out to Jana and Brent. Thanks for always reading my blog!! It makes me feel very good to know that you care what I have to say! :)

Today has been a pretty cool day over all. Here i am blogging at 1:45 in the morning and I am not tired yet. I enjoy staying up all hours of the night when I have the freedom to do so. I am sure I won't like it so much when it is a have to situation. Who knows though. I have no clue what it will be like bringing Mahna home. Jarrod put the bassinet together tonight and it is in our room now. It is so hard to imagine there will actually be a little tiny person in there in another week. I only have Sunday, Monday and part of Tuesday and this pregnancy is over, man. That is such a freaky thing. I knew eventually this day would come, but holy cow, is it really only a couple days now??? Jarrod and I rearranged our room today so the bassinet would fit next to my side of the bed. We had to rearrange every single piece of furniture drastically to get this to work, but it was fun. Jarrod is super good at decorating. He is very mathematical and precise about things being centered, etc. Then we super cleaned the whole house for almost two hours. I am so glad to have a clean house. It sure did hurt though. I actually sat down and cried, but then again I am a big baby so that is no suprise. Then we went to dinner w/ Jarrod's parents, grandparents, Tivany, Warren, Freddy, Kristina and kiddos. Freddy and Kristina came out for the baby's birth. I am so glad they are here, I totally enjoy Kristina's company and it had been almost a year since we had seen our nephews. So it's nothin' but fun times for the next few days. Except for the part of getting my gut cut open. That I am a little nervous about but well I will save that for another day.

Happy Sunday!!!!

Oh happy day!

Today turned out to be a really good day. My mom forced me out of the house to get a manicure and pedicure. That is soo relaxing. I really did not want to go, but I made myself anyway. The lady who does it is so sweet and cute and funny and it was just cool as always to spend time with my mom. I think being pregnant has made me so much more attached to her. She is so giving, but I do worry sometimes she is giving so much of herself and she needs to keep a little for her. Then we shared a zesty turkey panido from Jack in the Crack. That was soooo yummy. I highly suggest everyone trying one! MMMMMMMM and we went to the Saturn dealership cuz Jarrod wanted to know the price of the Saturn version of an SUV (he is determined for me to be an SUV driver.....) which is called "VUE" and are about $20,000 new. WOA lots o money even tho most SUV's are more than that. Then we went to Denton to visit my Grandma who is such a delightful person to be around although she is caring for my dying grandpa 24 hours a day. It is so sad watching him slowly suffer and forget everyone and not be in reality anymore. It is so depressing. I am really amazed how well my grandma is doing. She is so sweet, I am so lucky to have such a sweet granny poo. Anyway MOOSH MOOSH. Then Jarrod and I had dinner w/ our friends Cindy and Tom at Abuelo's *YUUUUUM*. It was such a nice dinner. Great conversation and they are just really cool people to be around. She made me feel good saying she was anxious for me to clean her house again. Their first reaction when we walked in.... "you are humungous!"..... and I am! haha. Tonight after we got home I got to talk to my semi long distance friend, Jana, and my very long distance friend Kimmy. It was cool to talk to both of them, so that was a good ending of a day that turned out so much better than it started out. Night night for now.........

someone call the waaaahmbulance

Seen the movie the KID? I love that chubby little boy he is so adorable! He reminds me sorda of my brother when he was little. It is so sad that other kids are so mean to chubby kids cuz they don't get it that chubby kids are the cutest ones!!! Anyway I am feeling very waaaaaaaaah today. I am hot. I am dizzy, I am nauseous. I am so nervous about being a mom. I am so guilty for being a jerk to Jarrod. I feel like I weigh 500 pounds. I am so tired and grumpy and just want to go back to sleep but I have plans today and it is supposed to be fun so I need to suck it up. I want to know how do people make it through pregnancy when they have a kid already??? Seems impossible. Well Have a good day....... I wish I had more interesting stuff to say. XOXO

effects of pregnancy

For those of you who want to have a baby or are about to, let me tell you about the ninth month of this beautiful experience. The baby is so large that even if you are a chubby girl like me u can see the baby moving around in your stomach. The movements are so large it is really neat and makes you so curious about seeing the baby for the first time soon. Now for the bad stuff. Have you ever had heartburn? It is horrid feeling. The belly gets to be bigger than a basketball, I would say and it is also hard like a basketball, so it is not just like being fat and squishy, you can't move around it. It is hard to shave your legs after a certain point. Painting your own toenails is pretty much out. Sleeping is not comfort anymore. I sleep with five pillows and I still barely get a few hours some nights, because no matter what my back has piercing pains. My hips hurt, my arms fall asleep easily. When I turn from side to side my stomach contracts, as in the whole thing gets rock hard and hurts to the point you can just lay there and wait for a few seconds til it goes away. As of today I have 9 days until my scheduled C Section. I am not too scared yet. I am anxious to get a normal type body back, and I am anxious to take care of a baby. I am scared of how things will change in me and Jarrod's relationship, but I am praying for the best. I am looking forward to exercising again in a few weeks. The more I have read about what can happen after vaginal birth, the more that I am glad I am having a surgical birth. I am not upset at all about not "experiencing childbirth". I think I will be a good mom anyway, no matter how my child comes into the world. So here I go on the countdown..........

ugh

I am depresed. Jarrod did not get "the job". They are supposedly using someone within the company to fill the position now. That is after two weeks of stringing us along and interviewing him four times! I am sort of mad at a lot of people. Why not list them out? Jarrod's uncle and boss would not give him a half day off to try the job out like they wanted him to. So it is his fault partly in my opinion. Or it is probably just not meant to be but I am bummed out about it nonetheless. Then I am at my mom's house all day and I am helping Franky make phone calls about court etc. He skipped his possession of marijuana court date so we were trying to find out what he should do now. Well he HAS to go to jail. There is no way around it. So I am sad for him and worried about him and irritated he didn't listen to my parents earlier and do something about it. Then Jarrod's dad wants us to co-sign on an electric bill. We said no which got Jarrod a huge guilt trip. I just don't understand how someone can ask their CHILD for money. We would be reliable for a full year if we cosigned. And Jarrod's dad was so NOT understanding when Jarrod said no. And it wasn't just NO, it was after a few days of agonizing over it. We just have to watch out for ourself sometimes. Ugh.... Also I went to the DR yesterday and my blood pressure was up some and I am swollen, but not too bad. So they hooked me up w/ machines to monitor the baby and took my blood which the nurse sucked at taking blood and I almost passed out. Anyway I didn't get to find out the results yet but I am just moody and depressed. I am probably fine. I only have two weeks (from today) til the C Section anyway. I am just disappointed about the job mostly. I was so hoping that we could have insurance and Jarrod could have an opportunity to move forward. I know I have to trust God and remember that he has his reasons for everything. Today just sucks!!!

nut N honey

Not much going on it seems like. Nothing I have thought to journal about. I am about ready to pop this alien baby out of my belly. My back hurts and I am uncomfy constantly. I told my mom thank God only 18 days til I am out of this bad mood. She said JUST WAIT! Haha. So I am nervous about breastfeeding and waking up and taking care of another human being. My friend told me her baby almost drown the other day when she turned around for five seconds. Her baby is almost 3 yrs old. She is also a very attentive mom so it shows that anything can happen. SCARY. Tonight is Jarrod's keg party. Hopefully we get enough diapers for the first month. If not oh well I am just glad Jarrod will be getting some attention for once since I know he is so excited about Mahna and has been put on the back burner for a few months now and everything is about his pregnant wife and soon to be born baby. We still don't know for sure if he will get the new job. He has had an interview w/ three different people so far. They have all but scared him to death over how "stressful and difficult" the job is. I don't know if they want him to run away or what! The main discussion that still hasn't happened is PAY, which hopefully will happen Tuesday or Weds. They are going to have him come in for a couple hours and just watch what they do and sort of try it himself, so he can see if he can handle it. I really just want him to be happy and maybe a little more challenged. I do know there is a line between being challenged and being absolutely stressed out. I feel like my old job got to me too much and changed how I was toward family and husband and myself. So I don't want him to have to cross that line......... even for us to have health insurance. I am enjoying us getting along awesomely and everything being so smooth. I am scared to death of baby coming and our relationship changing. I am also scared of a job taking over his brain and changing us. I guess I should have titled this blog "scared of change" haha. Well happy weekend! Thanks to those of you who read and also those who comment! XOXO Caroline

'bout time for an update uh huh uh huh

I always leave ya hangin don't I? Sorry. I honestly tried to blog yesterday but the blogger website wouldn't work for me. OOh hold on the mail just came. Oh well nothing exciting. Yes, I am bored! I slept until 10:30 today. There were many awake times in between when I went to bed, too, though.

Jarrod's job interview went great. They basically offered him the job. Pay still hasn't been discussed, and they want him to come work a half a day to see how he likes it first. So it looks like his "diaper/keg party" next Friday night will also be a possible celebration of the new job. I am so excited. I am also paranoid for something bad to happen.

I went to the DR on Tuesday and scheduled my c section for AUGUST 31st. That way she won't be sharing her bday w/ any family members, and she will be able to start kindegarten when she is five instead of six, if she is ready. The doctor says that after 37 weeks the baby is full term, so at that point I will be 38 1/2 weeks. As of right now I am so sick of the heat and it is only Aug. 5. I also feel most of the time as if I can not breathe for her lil' booty pushing on my diaphragm. It is wierd when I came home from the DR I expected to be really excited, but I felt really depressed all day instead. I guess maybe knowing the end is coming and I won't get to feel her moving inside my belly anymore. Cutting the umbilical cord is like releasing her into the world without being able to protect her anymore...

On happier notes: Kendra and John arrived in Austin yesterday successfully! My mom was with them, and my dad and Anna went to meet them with a few pieces of furniture and the oh-so-important SHOWER CURTAIN. (anyone ever moved in a place and forgot they would need a SHOWER CURTAIN? haha... bet you have!) SO I am anxious to hear how things are going w/ them. If all goes as planned there will be a "welcome to Texas party" for Kendra and John next Sunday at my parents house. So there are two invites in this BLOG entry. To Jarrod's Diaper Keg Party next Fri night at our house(bring a pkg of diapers, drink some tasty beer!) and the welcome to Teyhaus par-T on Sunday afternoon at my parent's house.

Have a great day!!!!!!!
Caroline