baz

Anyone remember that Baz Luhrman "song" that came out like 10 or less yrs ago. "Wear Sunscreen". They seem to replay it around graduation time but I heard it today. It is cool to hear like once a year because different parts of it strike me in a different way. This time when I heard it, I noticed the part that says "don't depend on anyone to support you, you may have a trust fund, you may have a wealthy spouse, but you never know when either one will run out".

Another good part of it is "Get to know your parents, you never know when they will be gone for good"

If you are more interested or don't know what "song" i am talking about, google "Wear Sunscreen"

and if you assume you know why certain parts strike w/ me, you may be wrong, if you want to know, email me. i just don't feel comfortable enough using blogger as a diary anymore.

for Cathy, flower pix

The Red flower is Mom's, the white/pink is mine. Started as a bulb. Thanks Cathy!!!

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Me N J-rod on our way to Glass Cactus, mine and Jana's kids and the neices, Mahna eating in Cole's highchair

crazyassmamalife

I can't believe how buzy I stay. It is wierd, when I stop and think about it. The computer is my outlet, my vice, and I barely have had more than once a week to check it. Right now I am risking it cuz the kids are running free playing or fighting together in the living room while I take two seconds to blog in my bedroom. I miss my laptop, having the freedom of it ya know. But it got fried because well I have bad karma or bad luck, depending on who you ask. I took it to get fixed and they said new motherboard, $1500 not worth fixing, blah blah blah.

My parents moved to Denver on Saturday night. They are excited. I am depressed. They haven't sold their house yet, so there is hope they won't stay. They got an executive apartment paid for by dad's work. They will be back to visit in a month. Sigh........ My sadness comes from my perfect plan to let my kids live and grow up by their grandparents at least while they were young-young like under age 12. Anyway my bubble is burst and Mahna is quite sad about not getting to visit grandma as much. I don't bring it up and am being careful not to talk about it around her. But she brings it up. It also doesn't help that their dog, Elliott died last week and Mahna is still sad about that, too.

On to happier thoughts........ um........ Cole is finally over a 3 wk sickness and I am so glad to be out of that canyon. It was hard to clean up so much puke day after day after day and also deal with me not sleeping and him constantly crying. Thank God for Klonopin, every mom should have a bottle just for those nutty days. And speaking of drugs, I also bought a box of Vivarin. NOT viagra. LOL Vivarin, you know, like 'no dose'. I took a half of one instead of drinking 5 cups of teeth staining calorie dense (cuz I put ten tons of cream in it) coffee. It was funny to buy a box of it tho, cuz Nikki and me use to take those things as teenagers so we could stay up all night. LOL so funny to think back on. That was our age of innocense before the real drugs.

And last but not least, my list of things that need done: Cole needs a haircut. I need to go to the dentist. Penny has a cyst on her ear. The cats need shots. Jarrod needs more work. I need to find some babyshower games by tomorrow. I need to change Cole's diaper.......... guess I better go.

cole bday pics part one of two

please scroll down to next post as well for the last five pics

Cole's First Birthday (Dec 28)

Merrrrrrry Christmas. Here's the pics.

Sorry that some are facing the wrong direction. My pics copied as 'read only' to my external hard drive. If anyone knows how to fix, please share!!! :)

Enjoy the pics. They are from 5 different 'gift opening' occasions.

christmas pics part 2 of 3

christmas pix

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Mahna in gymnastics

My little gymnast.....

astrology

Ok it said I would get bad luck if I didn't forward so I am just posting. You know everyone likes to see their horoscope once in a while. :)

Mine is Libra.... very true that I can never make up my mind and flirtatious, It is also true that I give in too easily. The incorrect part is that I hate to be alone. I enjoy being alone....... it never happens!

VIRGO - The Perfectionist ( Aug 23 - Sept 22)
Dominant in relationships. Conservative.
Always wants the last word. Argumentative. Worries. Very smart.
Dislikes noise and chaos. Eager.
Hardworking. Loyal. Beautiful. Easy to talk to.
Hard to please. Harsh. Practical and very fussy.
Often shy. Pessimistic. 7 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

LIBRA - The Harmonizer ( Sept 23 - Oct 22)
Nice to everyone they meet. Can't make up their mind. Have own unique
Appeal. Creative, energetic, and very social. Hates to be alone.
Peaceful, generous. Very loving and beautiful. Flirtatious.
Give in too easily. Procrastinators. Very gullible. 9 years of bad
Luck if you do not forward.

SCORPIO - The Intense One ( Oct 23 - Nov 21)
Very energetic. Intelligent. Can be jealous
And/or possessive. Hardworking. Great kisser. Can become obsessive or
Secretive. Holds grudges. Attractive. Determined. Loves being in long
Relationships. Talkative. Romantic. Can be self-centered at times.
Passionate and Emotional. 4 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

SAGITTARIUS - The Happy-Go-Lucky One ( Nov 22 - Dec 21)
Good-natured optimist. Doesn't want to grow up (Peter Pan Syndrome).
Indulges self. Boastful. Likes luxuries and gambling. Social and
outgoing. Doesn't like responsibilities. Often fantasizes.
Impatient. Fun to be around. Having lots of friends. Flirtatious.
Dislikes being confined - tight spaces or even tight clothes.
Beautiful inside and out 14 years of bad luck if you do not forward

CAPRICORN - The Go-Getter ( Dec 22 - Jan 19)
Patient and wise. Practical and rigid. Ambitious. Tends to be
Good-looking. Humorous and funny. Can be a bit shy and reserved.
Often pessimistic. Capricorns tend to act before they think and can be
Unfriendly at times. Hold grudges. Like competition. Get what they
Want. 20 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

AQUARIUS - The Sweetheart ( Jan 20 - Feb 18)
Optimistic and honest. Sweet personality. Very independent.
Inventive and intelligent. Friendly and loyal. Can seem unemotional.
Can be a bit rebellious. Very stubborn, but original and unique.
Attractive on the inside and out. Eccentric personality. 11 years of
Bad luck if you do not forward..

PISCES - The Dreamer ( Feb 19 - Mar 20 )
Generous, kind, and thoughtful. Very creative and imaginative.
May become secretive and vague. Sensitive. Don't like details.
Dreamy and unrealistic. Sympathetic and loving. Kind. Unselfish.
Good kisser. Beautiful. 8 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

ARIES - The Daredevil ( Mar 21 - April 19)
Energetic. Adventurous and spontaneous. Confident and enthusiastic.
Fun. Loves a challenge. EXTREMELY impatient. Sometimes selfish.
Short fuse. (easily angered.) Lively, passionate, and sharp wit.
Outgoing. Lose interest quickly - easily bored. Egotistical.
Courageous and assertive. Tends to be physical and athletic.
16 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

TAURUS - The Enduring One ( April 20 - May 20th)
Charming but aggressive. Can come off as boring, but they are not.
Hard workers. Warm-hearted. Strong, has endurance. Solid beings who
Are stable and secure in their ways. Not looking for shortcuts. Take
Pride in their beauty. Patient and reliable. Make great friends and
give good advice. Loving and kind. Loves hard - passionate. Express
themselves emotionally. Prone to ferocious temper-tantrums.
Determined. Indulge themselves often. Very generous. 12 years of bad
Luck if you do not forward

GEMINI - The Chatterbox ( May 21 - June 20)
Smart and witty. Outgoing, very chatty. Lively, energetic. Adaptable
But need to express themselves. Argumentative and outspoken. Like
Change. Versatile. Busy, sometimes nervous and tense. Gossips. May
Seem superficial or inconsistent. Beautiful physically and mentally.
5 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

CANCER - The Protector ( June 21 - July 22)
Moody, emotional. May be shy. Very loving and caring.
Pretty/handsome. Excellent partners for life. Protective. Inventive
And imaginative. Cautious. Touchy-feely kind of person. Needs love
>From others. Easily hurt, but sympathetic. 16 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

LEO - The Boss ( July 23 - Aug 22)
Very organized. Need order in their lives - like being in control.
Like boundaries. Tend to take over everything. Bossy. Like to help
Others. Social and outgoing. Extroverted. Generous, warm-hearted.
Sensitive. Creative energy. Full of themselves. Loving. Doing the
Right thing is important to Leos. Attractive. 13 years of bad luck if
You do not forward.

it's a miracle!

I love Cops
Ok not all cops, but today I was leaving my gma's apartment, I called Jarrod to excitedly tell him some good news (remind me to mention that later) and I pull to a 4 way stop and see a cop which triggers my memory of not yet putting on my seatbelt. I jerk it on, and of course he saw me and pulled me over. He says I am pulling you over for no seatbelt, I said yes I know I just left my grandma's apartment and I was just then getting it on. He went back to the car forever with my license and insurance. I was about to start balling but I thought how embarrassing to cry in front of a stranger, plus why cry...... it is just money. Why cry over money. "Money comes easily and frequently" ($5 if you can quote where that is from). So he comes back with the pad of paper for me to sign and says "It is just a warning". I said ARE YOU SERIOUS! He was caught off guard but totally stoic young cop faced. I know underneath that look he felt good about my reaction. I am sure cops are asses just way too much and it just HAS to feel good once in a while to make someone's day BETTER instead of worse. I told him that I hope he had a really great day today. I have had an amazing day. The whole time I was cleaning "C"s house after I got pulled over I was just happy as could be that "I DIDN'T GET A TICKET TODAY". And back to the good news I got this morning......my parents are letting us use their vehicle to go to Kansas City soon and even paying for gas. YIPPEEEEEEEE so now we can be on our own schedule and work it around Jarrod's work and have a car to drive while we are there. I can't wait to see Gold. It has been over a year.......... plus the chunk of other people whom I love out there... u know who u are!!!!!!! XOXO see u sooooooon

hearts

My grandma is turning 80 on Sunday and my mom is throwing a party for her. We sent out 150 invites and so far 85 are coming. In the invites we asked people to send in a memory of my grandma to me or my mom for a scrapbook. We had no idea what it would become. It is the largest scrapbook I have ever seen. It is about 100 pages of notes, cards, poems, pictures and letters saying thank you or I love you or you impacted my life in this way or that. It is just so inspirational to see. I keep thinking how I would love to have a book of letters from everyone I have known. I mean all of these people love my grandma enough to stop and write something. I can't wait for her to get it tomorrow.

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yo ho ho

I am up at two in the morning, after two nights of not getting enough rest. I woke up sick as hell in the middle of the night and still don't know exactly why. And no I am not pregnant again. So here I am sitting writing a post when my eyes aren't all the way open. I need to change the picture on here, its over a month old. I feel accomplished even in my sleepyness. Sometimes the best time to get things done around the house is when everyone is asleep. So I actually got all the laundry put away. My days of following FLYLADY.COM have been dwindling down. They teach you to wash, fold, put away. I wash and put in a basket in the laundry room. For some reason I have it in my head to wait until I have a 'full load' of colors or whatever to wash them. I really should start doing a few at a time and keep up with it without giving up sleep. We had a great day today swimming and I watered Di's plants, my current two week house sitting job. It's like a challenge to water against this horrid TX heat and keep this woman's botanical garden alive. Today I was blessed enough to not have to take the kids and it made it a somewhat peaceful experience. Jarrod had enough time to come by and say hi for 30 min in the middle of the day. I am looking forward to MOPS staring in a few weeks. I am hoping one or two of my friends will sign up with me for the 2nd and 4th Mondays. I also got a babysitting job at church for Tuesdays starting in Sept that will pay an extra $70 a week and of course I get to take my kids and they love it, so bonus bonus. This weekend we are taking Mahna to Galveston as an early birthday gift. She's been asking to go to "the beach" for several months. Not to mention her parents love the ocean. Cole will get to spend his first night away from mom as my mom volunteered to keep him. yea mom! :) We also get free lodging in a really awesome mansion of a house visiting some fun true hearted people in Houston. That is a major bonus since the hotel we stay at on the ocean (Flagship) is $175 a night! So are you still with me? still reading? Well thanks for that and caring about what I have to say however ho hum it may be. Hugs 2 U.

gratitude

how do you stop negative thoughts and feelings? replace them with positive ones. start by being thankful for everything.

tonight I am grateful for my mom, my husband, my daughter, my son and my house. i am thankful to live in America and have a brain that works and a body that is healthy. i am thankful for my friends and my church. i am thankful for my sisters and for my brother. i am thankful for all the family that i have close and far and that we all love eachother so much and stay connected so consistantly. i am thankful for my grandma and that she is going to have a really neat 80th birthday party next month. i am thankful for the love I get from my husband and children, more love than i ever deserve. i am thankful for the car my dad is lending me and that it has air conditioning. i am thankful for Golden having a steady life since his birth and i am thankful he is such an interesting and intelligent person. i am thankful that my parents love eachother. i am thankful that jarrod's parents love eachother. i am thankful for my sisters in law. i am thankful for my old friends and my new friends. i am thankful for people who patiently continue to show God's love and grace to the world, however frustrating and unfair it gets.

doublestuf

I read Frankys last two blogs this morning and it inspired me to write something. Some days I open up blogger.com and just look at this blank slate thinking "what do I say?". At one time it came so naturally. I woke up this morning at 4:55 a.m. and could not go back to sleep. I thought about working out, cleaning the house, catching up on blog reading. I did accomplish washing a load of towels before Cole woke up. He had fever all evening last night. Jarrod took him on the end of his route yesterday and watched him til about 10 pm while I attempted to take Mahna to the circus at American Airlines center. Unfortunately after lots of driving, walking, waiting in line, it sold out. This was suprising as it has been in town for a week. But a lesson was learned, buy your tickets ahead of time! So Jana and the kids and I will go next week in Ft Worth after SHE gets back from Cancun. (lucky beep) We had a fun night anyway tho, all the kids got along and laughed a lot and Jana and I laughed together and talked for the first time in a while. Friends are good "soul food". jarrod did good watching the babykins. He was looking forward to playing w/ him and having him as his little buddy, but unfortunately Cole just got his second tooth so pretty pitiful the last day or so. Mom got a dose of it yesterday morning while she watched him so I could take Mahna to the water park. Today I am looking forward to staying home.

didya

Didya look at my pics on my last post?
Okay, I finally changed Anna's link, so it is correct and you can get to hers from mine. I also added Franky's, as promised.

Today is "church day". I look forward to it, and getting something out of it to make me do better what I should this week. I let Mahna sit with me in 'big church' once, a few weeks ago. Since then I have to convince her to go to Sunday School. She was pretty good the time I took her in with me, but I really need to focus on what I am hearing and not focus on keeping her quiet/off other people's nerves. Last week the pastor said something that I appreciated and stuck out. He said that if we had an idea of something the church needs, a group or association or something (children's choir, prison outreach, etc. whatevah) that we should see that as God calling us to add that ourselves. As opposed to us going to him saying "this church would be better if it had 'this'. The message I get is 'this is your church', not my church that you come to.

Ok so I really should be getting myself and the kiddos ready instead of playing online!

happs yo!

my cuz Adam and his fam are here visiting and it's been a week full o' fun. Mahna and his son Blake (1 yr older than her) have had s much fun! It is cute seeing her play with a kiddo her age. Enjoy the pics! I have more!