picture time!

The picture of Jarrod pointing to his mouth, he was saying "why do u always kiss your dolls and the duck, but not me???"

The one of her by the water machine is where she goes to "hide" at my mom's house.

The one in the car seat is her "mean face" which she makes all the time.

3 kids and a lemonade stand

Yesterday I had my neices over for about ten hours. This was not a planned thing, as they were supposed to be visiting Casey, but he has no idea how to entertain them. SO I am their choice and I took on the challenge. It started out as a conversation between Katherine (9 yrs) and I on the way to WallyWorld. She wants her own room, separate from her 6 yr old sister, but can't move into her grandparents spare room until she gets the things she needs to decorate it. This includes paint ($20), a new bedspread ($30), and a TV stand ($?). So I mentioned that she should offer to do little chores for people for a dollar or two here and there and she could save up pretty easily. Then I spouted out "or u could have a lemonade stand......" Well let's just say my day was pretty much over then. I would spend the next couple hours getting lemonade, borrowing a cooler, helping make a poster, getting Mahna down for a nap and listening to. I wonder how much money we will make, we should do this, we should say that, when is Mahna waking up, why does she have to sleep so long why can't she just sleep at the lemonade stand, is it almost time to go, i hope I make lots and lots of money........ Let me just say non stop talking. It is cute, though, of course, just amazing what nonstop one sided conversation can do to turn your stress level up a notch or two. We had fun though. Our original intention was to go to Central Park where there is ALWAYS a hundred million people. Um, not yesterday, maybe it was because by the time we got there it was 5:30 pm or maybe it was because it was 98 degrees? Who knows but I went into panic mode. I thought I am NOT going thru all this crap again and starting over another day. WE MUST FIND A PLACE TO SELL AT LEAST ONE CUP OF LEMONADE!!! Katherine says "where would people be on such a hot day"? DING DING DING a pool! Okay so we go by the aquatic center, but there is no where to really set up discreetly. So we drove to my parents neighborhood (Kendra can say it right "Wehhhhhhhhlington") and set up on the median between the community pool and neighborhoods. I think it warmed a lot of people's hearts to see a lemonade stand. Some people stopped and gave them their change or a dollar and didn't even want lemonade. Some lady went on and on about how hot she was from being at the lake. Lots of people came by walking their dogs, but none of them had change for lemonade. The girls offered to give THEM free lemonade. So after about 90 minutes of this, during which I sort of stayed back with mahna, the girl's faces were bright red and they had sweat covering their scalps. Still they say "five more minutes? We might get another customer!". Too cute. So we finally came back and they had millions more ideas to do before their grandparents finally came to get them around 9:30. Make a video, do a news report, put on a concert, paint, draw, wash the cars, play in the hose....... Meanwhile I pretty much had Mahna in my arm the entire time and today it is super sore. Oh well, it was fun and I am sure will be some kind of memory for my neices. 3 kids for me? Hmm I dunno about that. I think I like giving Mahna my full attention 95% of the time instead. But then again she really enjoyed watching everything the girls did...... pros and cons, pros and cons.

no more AVON

I am no longer an "AVON" representative. I got fired for paying for stuff too late, like two months too late. BOy time does fly! Haha. Oops. That is very unlike me to do something like that. But it is very like me to go gung ho thinking I can be a sales person for some thing like pampered chef or avon and fail miserably. It's all good. That is just who I am and I accept it and don't hold it against myself.

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My friend visits me! :)

Jana came from San Antonio! Yea! The pic on the right was Friday morning, Mahna and her 6 month old daughter Brooklyn. Isn't she a beauty??? The pic on the left was Friday night when she came to my house and her parents watched her kiddos. It was fun!!! Hopefully she can come back over again tonight or tomorrow.

Daddy and Baby

Here is Jarrod playing with Mahna at the condo. She likes to do this "balancing" thing on his hands.

trying to figure out how to post pictures....

Here is a picture of Mahna and I on the balcony of the condo we stayed at in Breckenridge. My mommy French braided my hair that first day and it looked very groovacious but you can't really tell. Mahna was in her PJ's that G.G. (great gma) made for her when she was just an itty bitty baby......... they still fit! Mahna wears like 3-6 month clothing still. Hope u like the picture. I will do some more.......

if u buy that I'll throw the golden gate in free.....

If u don't know that is a line from a country song. I don't know why I have it in my head!!! It says "I've got some ocean front property in Arizona, from the front porch you can see the sea, I've got some ocean front property in Arizona....If you buy that i'll throw the golden gate in freeeeee".

Well I am back from Colorado......... And from there being no missed calls, messages or comments while I was away, I see that no one missed me. Sniff sniff. Oh well. I had a grand ol' time with my fam damily. The weather was just awesome there. It is a whole different SUMMER. We would wake up around 8 to sixty degree temperatures and eventually it would work its way up to 80. Mahna got constant 24 hour attention the whole time from either my mom, sisters or grandma. I think I only had to bathe Mahna once out of 5 times while we were there. I am pretty sure she got even cuter while we were there, maybe it was the altitude. She makes a new face which Jarrod calls her "mean face". I will try to post a picture here in a minute.

Well a bunch of people just walked in my house so I lost concentration. Thanks for reading.....

jail birds and babies

Well Franky is still in jail. He hoped to get out Sunday for time served on the warrants he has but they wouldn't just take a phone call they want written signed letters from him and one of the places won't even give time served so he will have to pay like $120 before he gets out. Soo that sucks. I feel bad for him being lonely in jail. I knew it would happen eventually but it still sucks. He still has the most innocent eyes and I remember him as a lil kiddo.

I was waTching Mahna crawling around innocently nearby and playing adn looking at the fish and I got all into what I was writing and nex thing I know she is half way up the stairs. Thank you LORD that she didn't fall. She sure is bizy and fast and cute and fun. She giggles a lot and has a new kind of laugh which I can't describe, you will just have to hear it.

We are leaving for Colorado in a couple hours, so I better go get some mini bottles for the plane ride. Hee hee.

Love ya and I will update while in colorado if I can otherwise next weds ...............

thursday's news

Hmmm not much exciting to say...... isn't that a great way to start a post. I woke up next to my babykins numerous times over the night. I slept lightly so I dreamed a lot. One dream was a vivid one about driving in the rain (ironic that it rained today and I drove in it) and I felt myself losing control of the car (my mustang) and I suddenly knew that I was about to be in a car wreck, I couldn't see and the car was spinning and spinning across a four lane highway (where, I don't know) but I was just praying the whole time that no one would hit me. It was so real feeling, so then the car goes over a hill and into like gravel/sand/mud. I feel it start sinking and I push the door open as far as I can and help my grandma out of the back seat of the car. It is sinking slowly so I am concentrating on getting my "things" out of my car, the backpack I take to the gym, Mahna's diaper bag (she was not with me) and I am t hinking of where I am going next and how I will tell this story.... very strange.

Today I spent a lot of the day on the phone. Insurance for the new car, cancelling satellite, getting info on paying Franky's court fine and what he owes Sally's. I am not paying this but he gave me money to do so w hile he is in jail, which he still is and I am planning to visit him tonight. It is a 20 min drive to Denton and 20 back for just 30 min to talk to him but I am guessing he is probably pretty bored and lonely by now. You just never know with him tho. he might be just fine. Did you k now that gay men get a private cell? So at least I don't have to worry about the scary things u hear about in jail. So thats that for now ya'll. Talk to u later.

drama mama

Well Franky is still in jail. He was only supposed to do the weekend, but he had a couple warrants so now he has until July 24. Poor kiddo. Maybe it will help him somehow. I plan to visit him on Thursday. We leave for Colorado Friday night. I am looking forward to some cool mountain air and a vacation w/ my huz. He is fun on trips. Today was a very bizy day. I drove to drop Mahna w/ Tivany, drove to my parents to let the dawg out, drove to Las Colinas to clean a house, drove back to breastfeed Mahna at Tivany's house, drove back to my parents to let the dog out again, drove to Copper Canyon to clean another house, drove back to get Mahna, got a call that Jarrod was in a car wreck, met him at the house and drove him to the DR. He is okay, his back is just real tight feeling and he is in pain. We went to the new "Pain and Injury" clinic in Lewisville. They want to file the claim w/ insurance against the driver, etc. Jarrod just wants to know if his back is okay. He can walk and isn't like moaning in pain so I am guessing he is allright, but then again he is a MAN who doesn't let on all the time about pain. The car wreck was two cars rearending and then ramming into him and he was at a complete stop and saw it coming there for he tensed up. My parents are in Colorado having a grand ol' time. I had an awesome weekend hanging out w/ Kendra at my parents house, lots of swimming. She got me thinking about a triathalon. It sounds like a very scary word, but once she started explaining it to me and trying to talk me into training w/ her for one we could do together, I think it might be possible. The RUNNING part is what scares me. I think I could learn to bike, and swim, but RUN? I wish! We shall see. It is in my mind now. Thanks Kendra for pushing me further.....

mahna is ten months old!

Holy cow can it really be that ten months have gone by!!! Goodness! She is so fun now. Not that she ever WASN'T. She has four little cute teeth, two top, two bottom. My mom told me it would change the way she looked and it really has! She is such a little cutie. Such a love bug too. She does this little shy thing when new people are around or people she hasn't seen in a while. While I am holding her she will lean her head on my chest and look up at the person. It is so cute. She also makes all kinds of cute little different sounds. She tries to immitate whatever we say like "Hi Anna". She says HI all the time and waves bie bie and loves to clap for any reason!

Thank God we are over that sickness. It was no fun at all. I thought I would have lost some weight eating just jello and boullion, but no such luck. I weighed in at weightwatchers this morning at the same weight I've been at for about two weeks. Oh well. At least I haven't gained anything. I need to get back on track like seriously. I am doing pretty good today. I think eating lots of salad is the key to it all. I really want to get down to a cute little size so I can wear all the clothes that I like. Kendra and me went to a couple stores in Grapevine mills yesterday and I realized how much bigger I am than a lot of girls and that I am just entirely too huge for my height. Please don't comment "u look fine" or "i don't think ur fat" because that is not my purpose of writing this. :) Thanks anyway tho. Thankfully Mahna is pretty good at the gym babysitting room these days so I can work out about 3 times a week at least for an hour. There is a new older woman working there which I really do not like at all and would love to tell her off for telling ME how to be a mom, but I will continue being nice as hell to her because I learned very quickly that if someone is watching your kid you definately don't want them mad at you!

My parents and gma and anna are in Colorado right now which is a big bummer. I really don't hang out w/ friends, just my mom and gma and sister so it is like my social circle going on vacation. Jarrod, Mahna and I do get to join them for a couple days next week though. That should be relaxing. I wonder how Mahna will do on the plane ride this time.

Wow I forgot to mention that Jarrod bought TWO CARS the other day! KIA was having some special on Kia Rios. There were like 5 on the lot that were totally bare as in no A/C or radio, much less power anything, including steering. $5800 for a brand new car which gets much better gas mileage than his truck does. Being a courier really SUCKS during these days of ridiculous gas prices, in case I never mentioned that before. So the money saved in gas will actually pay for the car plus some. Now u want to know why he bought TWO. Well Casey didn't have the credit so Jarrod got him one also in his name. Pretty nice brotherly thing to do if I may say so myself.

In TV news, I probably won't have much TV news in the near future because we are cancelling our satellite to save money. So I won't get to watch RESCUE ME on FX on Tuesdays anymore or Law and Order SVU marathons.... Or PUNK'D. I guess I will just have to have tv night at the neighbors! :) At least "The Biggest Loser" is starting up again soon. That is on a public channel. I swear, I am really not a TV junkie, I just have a couple that I am sorda into. Hey, I am a housewife! What do you expect!!!!!!!!!! (Are there women cringing out there at me saying that?)

bout time yo

well mahna and i have been sick as hell for the last few days. i think it might finally be breaking. i never saw anything so pitiful as her barfing her guts up. it is so wierd with a baby, because they just puke, no warning or anything. I never wanted my mommy to come take care of me so much. Unfortunately she was busy taking care of my brother and out with my gma. I couldn't really bring myself to ask her anyway cuz then she would probably get sick and it would ruin her vacation coming up. I am supposed to be cleaning tomorrow but I don't know if I can yet. I had a fever tonight but now it is feeling like it is gone. I am watching my fave show right now RESCUE ME on FX. I gotta take care of my cranky baby now so talk to u later. sorry so boring.

ho hum

I am depressive lately I don't know what my prob is but it is getting on my own nerves. I think it could have to do w/ not eating right or exercising. Anyway I just feel like watching Donnie Darko and listening to Mad World over and over. Ho hum.

I have had a mini vacation at my parents house this weekend while Jarrod is in Virginia. I stayed here two nights and am going to my gma's tonight. Don't ask me why it is myhouse is too depressing to go home to. Everything is depressing to me lately. Pity pity.

My parents pool sure is fun and feels GOOD. Mahna has gotten to really like it after three days of swimmin'. Even the dogz like it. I think my parents are really glad they put it in. We had a very familyish resort style weekend with lots of parties and good food by the pool. Even CORONA!!!!!! mmmmmmmm that makes me not depressed haha.

Love you all and thanks for the comments oh bythe way Mahna's first word was MAMA but that was a month or so ago and she has said Dada since then but it was so cute when she actually said DADDY! She also just got her third tooth and looks pretty grown up next to Stephanie's 2 month old!

XOXO

BaCK in Teyhaus

yo readerz i am back from the midwest. Twas a glorious fun filled adventure I must say. A vacation should truly be an escape from "real life" and this was. I didn't know it at the time but it sunk in on the drive home. If it weren't for the Huz being here I may not have returned. The moment I entered Kansas City I had this feeling of "I want to live here again". I can not explain this feeling to Jarrod because he does not see why I would love it there so much. It is gorgeous, peaceful and most importantly my best friends and family live there. It was cool seeing my cousin Adam as soon as we arrived and his adorable 21 month old son who looks just like him. His wife and stepdaughter are awesome people who make you feel just at home. Shortly after we ate a homemade spaghetti dinner I went over to Kelly and Lynne's to see my little angel Golden Kindred who has grown a foot just since Thanksgiving. He was in the upstairs window when we drove up and squealing in delight through the screen. I couldn't have felt more welcome and anticipated if there were a zillion flowers on the lawn. Mahna, my little shy flower, took immediately to Gold in a magical way. She met him at Thanksgiving when they came to Texas, but she was 3 months old at the time. They do "talk" on the phone, but seriously it was so cool how immediately comfortable and happy she was with him. The rest of the trip grownups were trying ever so persistantly to get her to let them hold her with not much luck. She is a mama's girl, what can I say??? So the first night I stayed with them and spent the next morning playing w/ mahna and gold for a couple hours then my aunt becky came over to meet her favoritest great neice. Then Nikki came over and we went out for THAI food *YUM* and had great conversation. My mom took gold and mahna to play w/ my cuzins baby Blake so Nikki and I could catch a movie, too. We saw "Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants" which is awesome and I highly recommend. It is a chick flick just to warn you. Anna, Mahna and I stayed the night w/ Nikki and she cooked us up an amazing dinner and we watched Little Black Book which was pretty cute. It was very fun and memorable. Saturday I hung out at Lynne and Kelly's playing w/ Mahna and Gold and Sat. night Kimmy came to get me and we hung out at her house. She just got a new house........ she is a homeowner, her and her husband. They made me feel very comfortable. Their house is awesome and struck a jealous tingle in me. Mahna started busting thru a top tooth that night and there were HUGE storms so she didn't sleep well, but Kimmy and I still had fun and snuck in some good conversations and watched half of RAISING HELEN on her super comfy bed. The next day we went to Wally world and I went back to Kelly and Lynne's to hook up w/ Becky, Spencer and Lori. It was so awesome to meet up with everyone and I really enjoyed the house full of family and food. Every conversation was great and this blog entry may be sounding repetitive but every ounce of the trip was just wonderful. That night I stayed w/ kelly and lynne. Gold had to go to summer school early Mon. morning so I looked at a cool website ASTRO.COM w/ Lynne and then Kimmy picked me up to have lunch w/ her at work. Some people got stuck on the elevator at her work which was so crazy. She works at a hospital. Then Lynne and Gold and Mahna and I went to some groovacious shops in Brookside that afternoon. Lynne got Mahna two cool books and bought us all ice cream....mmmmmm. On the way to the car Mahna reached over and grabbed Gold's head and started kissing it then reached out her arms for Lynne..... it was asif she realized we were leaving soon and needed to show them some luv. I am really tired now so all these words are blurring together but I want to get out as much of my memories as I can. My mom came and got me from their house around 8 :15 and I got my cell phone from her which I had left in her car on accident GRRRRRRRR so I noticed I missed a call from Lori. So I called to see what was up and she said she would see me next trip since we were almost to Adam's house. Then I checked my voicemail and she had invited us for coffee at 7:15. I felt REALLY horrible because I would have loved to see their place if I had KNOWN. It is my stupid fault for leaving my phone in the car and that was the only bad point of the trip because I feel like I might have made them feel like I was ignoring or blowing them off and that is not what I meant to happen. We had fun at Adam's house that night> Cynthia and Ryan came over which was awesome. I miss Ryan so much as he was like a brother to me for so long and it had been prob. 2-3 yrs since I last saw him. This morning we got up at 7 and were on the road by 9 but lots of stops along the way so we got home late. My mom did all the driving and was very patient w/ mahna's screaming at times and my grumpiness for wanting to be HOME already and tired of being in the car. Ahhhh. To be home. Jarrod was on cloud nine seeing Mahna and I think they played for like 90 minutes straight without a break. She even said DADDY! She has said da da but she actually looke dat him and said DADDY! TOO CUTE. So on with life we go.......... Tomorrow (WEDS) is my dadeo's fiftieth bday. YES THAT IS 50! Maybe a little shindig going on this weekend. Jarrod will be out of town, but Kendra will be IN TOWN! Woo hoo. Sounds like a good excuse for a sleepover at my parents house. Thanks for reading. Caroline

countdown

I am counting down hours now to my trip to Kansas City. I am a nervous wreck. I will be taking my beautiful child to show the people i love out there oh so much. It will be a rush rush tho seeing each person for only a day or less. I sure do love in in KC and would almost live there in a heartbeat if Jarrod wanted to. He probably won't ever want to leave Texas tho, and I can understand. Anna is helping me get my to do list and to pack list in order. Tomorrow will be filled w/ lots of laundry for not only do I need to wash Mahna's and my wardrobe but I must make sure my husband will have a semi clean house and laundry to survive w/out me for six days. Housecleaning is a big stresser for me because I can't seem to put Mahna down long enough to DO IT! Plus this home of ours which we share with Casey is all wood/linoleum and we have a big gravel driveway which means constant dust and dirt which is only controllable by daily vacuuming/sweeping/mopping. I was once the queen of the most challenging home to keep clean. ANyway thanks to Anna staying w/ me the last few days I have been able to do more than usual as she entertains Mahna. Mahna just keeps getting cuter and cuter. Tonight we gave her some nibbles of snowcone and she got very hyper. Casey was chasing her as she crawled w/ all her might screaming like only girls do in delight. Quite adorable. I am glad I get to take her every where with me. Even at Don Pablos tonight when she was hollering to get other patron's attention I could just see the most adorable baby ever sitting in the highchair. OH and she got her 9 month pics taken today. She was quite clingy w/ me as it was a new photographer, so I ended up sitting UNDER the sheet/background while she was photographed. U actually can't even tell in the pictures but it was amusing.

Last night we, as in me and Anna, watched DONNIE DARKO. If you have not seen this movie you must see this movie!!!!!!! It was so great. So unlike any other movie I have seen. TOtally unpredictable, as most mainstream movies are. It is a Sundance film, which made me like it before I even saw it. I actually got to watch two movies this Memorial day weekend. The other one was MEET THE FOCKERS, which I thought was totally hilarious.

Anna is doing my toenails now, what a lucky sister am I!

Adios and Goodnight. Thanks for reading...........

2 much fun

I have found the music downloads and it is fun! :) I am using music net at aol and I do admit that they don't have a few of the songs i am trying to find, but maybe all muzic sites are that way. Who knows. Can you believe this costs $9 a month plus one buck per song??? Oh well it is still fun. So far I have downloaded, Eminem mockingbird, No Doubt "It's my life", Britney Spears "Slave 4 u", Lita Ford/Ozzy "Close my eyes forever", Remy Zero "Save me", 50 Cent "in da club". I am so addicted! :) It is cool in a way cuz u can download whatever u want for free and then if you want to burn them to CD that is when they cost a dollar. I have only paid for two so far. I heard there is a free way to get songs but I am so behind on this music thing because of having a crapped out no memory having computer for such a long time. I feel like such a supastar having my own CD BURNER NOW!!!!!!!!!! yippee

Today was fun. I got up at the buttcrack of dawn to take my parents to the airport so they could celebrate 30 yrs of marriage in San Fran. I hope they have a glorious time. Anyone who still likes each other after that many years of cohabitation deserves a good trip. :) I am proud to have parents who are still married and purdy darn happy about it. Anyway Jarrod kept Mahna which meant he had to get out of bed w/ her from 6-7 a.m. on a Sunday. Not his favorite thing but they were having a blast by the time I got home at 7:30. I got her to go back to sleep w/ me for about 30 min and that didn't work so we got up and got ready and made it to the 9 am church service. My grandma was happy to sit w/ us in the "parent's box". Then she got to show Mahna off to her friends and I got to chat w/ my friend Brent. A while later me and Mahna and Anna Banana went to Lara's graduation swim party and Mahna enjoyed a sorda cold swim but she was very excited about being in such a huge bathtub.

Well Mahna poo is sleeping now so I guess I will find something fun to do or maybe just go to sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.. xoxo caroline

ok

maybe we are moving maybe we are not. who knows. apartments that are cheap are uber ghettoish and that sucks. the good thing would be carpet for Mahna..... maybe we can "tough" it out here a little longer and look for a cheap hud home or sumthing.......... this is all depressing me and making me think constant negatory thoughts yo!

on a happy note i get to go to Kansas City next weekend to see Gold, Nikki, Kimmy and the rest of my family I miss and love oh so much. Jarrod gets to go see Freddy in Virginia the weekend after that. Purdy COOL!

adios

okay it is final

We are moving....... Now the question is just whether we are moving by the end of this month or if we are waiting another month. More to come tomorrow........

moving pros and cons

wE might be moving to an apartment. we have not made our decision. Pros of an apartment are our own space and privacy. back to using our nice dishes etc in a kitchen thats not ghetto. no more wood floors, nice fluffy carpet for mahna. cons of moving sad to leave our neighbors, puts stress on Casey to make money faster, costs us more so we won't be able to save as much. it would be safer for mahna than this house is so that is a pro. also it is across the street from the gym i like to go to so that is cool. who knows!