heres my prob YO

My personal problem with more kids is my other earthly desire to make money and be successful. I love my business, and not just for the money. I like being out and about and all that jazz. I am AFRAID if I have another kiddo I will be housebound and when I go visit people with my two (or more) children I will be a huge annoyance unlike only having one child. Maybe I worry too much. I also fight the alter personality of loving being at home w/ Mahna and being w/ her constantly and just not WORRYING about making any money or making other ppl happy. Ugh.......... who knows.

howdy

I must apologize for my lack of posty post. My computer is on the fritz. At this moment I am using my mommy's new awesome cute little white averatec laptop while mine is running diagnostic tests etc.

Tonight is the last night my cuzin and his family will be here and we have been having such a great time, I really wish they lived close by. Their little boy is exactly one yr older than mahna and they have hit it off soooooooo awesome and so instantly. I have wanted them to be together all day everyday b/c i have never seen her play with another child like she has with him. It is so heartwarming. Maybe this is why people enjoy having multiple children......... until they become teenagers. :)

Thanks for reading and commenting etc etc xoxox

cheating on blogger

I admit it, honest person that I try to be... I am cheating on Blogger. I have been exploring and blogging on MYSPACE. Now I know who my readers are on MYSPACE, about 3 people, MAYBE. It is a small amount. I have really kept the blog entries to my selfish rants about beauty treatments and what I want to do with my hair....... very boring stuff, and as much as I try to convince myself that it is half way interesting I know it really isn't. That would explain why only my dear friend Nikki would comment on there. She doestn' read this Blog, though, as far as I know. It is hard to tell who does and doesn't unless one day you are talking to someone and they say, hey I read blahblahblah on your blog. Or occassionally I find out someone I barely know from church reads my blog, and I am like, woa did I write anything bad on there? But I really don't want to categorize church people because we are all just plain ol' people, with our paths crossing in different places. I did not go to church today. Last week I went to Irving Bible Church w/ my parents and Anna. This week my couzin is in town with his family and we were just having such a grand old day being indoors, playing games, pigging out and watching the kids play that we just kept on doing it instead of getting in the car and going to church. I can honestly and shamefully take 90% of the blame for us not going. I didn't feel like changing the pace and I came out and said it. then again, maybe I am giving myself too much credit....... haha. Tomorrow I am cleaning a house I have never cleaned before, my long lost friend Bryn's cousins house. Bryn now lives in Idaho and I truly miss her. She was a super fun friend and had a good listening ear. Anyway I better get to bed since its late and I have to get up early. adios!

two random questions

Can anyone tell me where to get FLY PAPER??????????? I have these stupid fruit flies in my kitchen i can't get rid of. AND YES I got rid of the fruit!

ANNNNNNNNNNND How do you have a picture next to your name when you post a comment to someone???? I like Lindsays and Joyes!

howdy

Today was a fun day of NOT WORKING! :) I enjoyed spending the morning being slow and lazy with Mahna... We both hung out in our PJs til 10, and played on the kitchen floor instead of rushing to get out the door. I got a lot of errand running accomplished today and also managed to see my sister in law, my mom, anna and my grandma! I picked up mahnas 18 mo. pics and the more I go to JCPenney for portraits the more I want to take Mahna to a creative individual photographer. She hates JCPENNEY photographers, which of course is a normal thing for a kid to not want to get their pic taken, but I just don't really like that place. I got the 5 year plan there when Mahna was first born and I regret it now, although I have definately got my money back out of it. The people I am cleaning for tomorrow have a photo studio in their home and have offered to do pics of Mahna, but I don't know them well yet, so maybe in the future that will work out.

Tonight Mahna and I played outside for over an hour. Then we came in and were just being silly silly silly. It was really fun, and exhausted both of us. We watched about 10 min of a Baby Einstein video after our bath and while I was getting her all ready for beddy-bie, and for the first time SHE wanted to turn the video off and go to bed. She was in bed by like 8:15. That really is a tired girl! haha.

We got some super groovy news tonight! Jarrod's longtime friend George is giving us FLOOR TICKETS to the Mavs game next Thursday!!!!!!!!! I can't believe it! I am so nervous but so excited. I have never been to the Mavs game and jarrod has been twice. He is a DIE HARD FAN for any of you who don't know him. Out of all sports, basketball is the only one I semi like to watch. Some days are more exciting than others. I liked the old team with Nash....... We have a good chance of being seen on TV (YIKES!) so I gotta get us some Mavs shirts to wear. Fun fun!!!!!!!

Night night, thanks for reading!

T.G.M.I.O.

Thank God Monday Is Over

nah........ it wasn't a bad day. I just had no energy, motivation or excitement. I have been extremely domestic lately, so any time away from home kind of sucks. I did help my gma organize a closet today. That made me feel good. It made her happy, too. Tomorrow I am cleaning a house in Las Colinas, then.........hopefully Mahna and I are going to "playgroup"! I have been looking so forward to it. So even if it doesn't work out tomorrow, I am excited for when it does. The other day I spent like $30 on cleaning supplies. Cleaning supplies not for my bizness but for my own house!!!!! I am now a big fan of the Clorox disinfecting wipes. Jarrod and I also reorganized the kitchen so it is not so cluttered looking. We don't have a pantry. We have two small cabinets to fit all the food, flour/sugar/etc, bread crackers cereal......cups....... you get the idea. We have to be creative. Hopefully by the summer we will have our own house though, with a finished, normal kitchen. Our original plan was to move out by April. Now we are facing some financial issues that aren't exactly our fault. We bought two Kias in Jarrod's name a few months ago. Reason being is that Casey needed a vehicle, as he is a courier like Jarrod, but couldn't get a loan. So Jarrod bought two, but Casey pays the payment on his. What we didn't think about a few months ago is how this much debt (we also have a truck payment) would affect us getting a home loan. So...... we will see what happens. Casey can't pay off his car or still can't get a loan so we could "sell it to him". Part of our plan is to fix the transmission on the truck, try to sell it for at least CLOSE to what we owe on it, and that will help. Jarrod just needs to take it to get fixed, but I guess he is dreading the bill....or maybe just hauling it 1 1/2 hr away. Back to my story about being domestic, I am now baking a chocolate cake. Jarrod has been in a mood for choc cake and vanilla ice cream. I can't eat it, cuz I am still doing ATKINS. I think I have lost about 4 lbs. All in my boobs mind you, but it's weight! (are you blushing?) Jarrod is watching some crazy show about a bunch of body shop guys turning crapper cars into dream cars. Why must he watch it on volume 20?

Standing Blog Entry

I am standing up while I post, just hoping to get a couple of thoughts out before Mahna finishes her dinner. It is so cool she can feed herself now! It is quite messy, though. I don't mind messes, I am, afterall, A CLEANING LADY! Okay, I gave her an oreo to buy me another minute!

Today the first house I cleaned I got to talk to my bestest friend in the whole world for an hour of it. That was cool!!!!! I really do not talk to her enough and she is my lifetime friend. I have known her since I think I was 11 or 12 and once someone told me you really truly only get ONE best friend in life, and I am so glad to have her as mine. She talked me through a bunch of stuff this morning. I don't "vent" nearly as much as I really should and I really unloaded this morning. She is a paralegal, so thank the Lord she was not too busy to talk to me.

times up..darn

uh oh i am on a blogging roll

Today at the first house I cleaned, I used a mildew cleaner and bleached some pants that I really like. I guess I shouldn't wear pants I 'really like' to clean houses, but it's been so long since I got bleach on myself, I took it for granted.

Oops, I thought I would get to post, but I got a ph call from my long lost friend Cynde Cynthia.....

no heart for cleaning

My heart was not in my work today. I did a nice job, but I could have stayed all day on an hourly rate cleaning every niche. I left 2 hr early, with permission. I wanted to see Mahna. I didn't want to clean. I felt a blanket of "down-ness" on my neck and shoulders and I just didn't want to clean anything else. HOpefully I will get over this tonight because I have two houses tomorrow and two houses on Thursday and one on friday...... I wish I could clean everyone's house for them in a way. But then I just wish I could do it in the middle of the night when Mahna was sleeping. Then I would probably get depressed about missing watching her sleep. Haha. She had a great time at my Gmas house today and even pottied in the potty! This is not the first time but it is a far between since the last. My gma is so awesome with trying to get her to sit on the pot. I am so lazy or A.D.D. or something. I need to start focusing on it especially since I am so lucky to have someone trying FOR me 3 days a week!

My nieces were here today when I got home and I was in a pissish mood and didn't really want to play with them but I made myself semi snap out of it so I wouldn't be a beast to a 7 and10 yr old who don't understand auntie's mood swings. Mahna had fun with them having a picnic of cheetoes and oreos on the front "lawn" (tis mostly dirrrrt). We went on a tiny walk with the wagon and as always Tina got annoyed with Mahna (that is the 7 yr old). Kat was wearing her "high heels" again which suprised me b/c she wore them all day at skewl yesterday and then for 3 hr of shopping with us yesterday! She was complaining all night so I figured she would put them to rest for a day or so til her blisters went away.

mahna wants me......adios

New Post on Sunday

I always try to respond when someone complains that I am lacking in the blog posting area. haha. I was having a writer's block, so my mom suggested I type some stuff about Mahna-kins and my house cleaning adventures.

Here goes.

Mahna is so fun. It is wierd to me how being a parent you can understand your child's language. I can tell almost always what she is telling me or what she wants. I have also realized that she is spoiled and whiney sometimes because I have allowed her to become that way. She is also 18 mo. old so that has something to do with it! Today I took her outside and we blew some bubbles. The bubbles we have must be cheapos cuz they don't work very well. I want to buy her one of those toys that blows bubbles. I was going to look at "once upon a child" for one yesterday, but we were having too much fun with Jarrod. He was working on my parent's Jeep and Mahna and I were just playing in the front yard of my parents' house for a few hours. We collected leaves, went for a walk and played with Duplo's. She also realized she can climb in the decorative antique wheelbarrel that my mom has in one of her gardens. Everything Mahna does I think is cute. I do have to realize that not everyone else always thinks everything she does is cute. In my eyes she is wonderous, but I am sure in some other's eyes she is just a kid.

Friday I cleaned a house I had never cleaned before. It was just a one time cleaning, which I really enjoy these days. The house hadn't really been cleaned b/c bothe owners work full time, so I really took great pleasure in cleaning every nook and cranny of the place. One of the owners was so complimentary to my cleaning skills the whole time, it just almost makes it worth it without getting paid to make someone so happy. But I did get paid, and got a $15 tip! That does NOT happen. But it was cool and I am glad I got to do it. Last week I also cleaned a 3900 square foot house in less than four hours! We are talking 4 bathrooms people!!! ENORMOUS!

I would like to shout out to my buddy Jana who is going thru a very hard time right now and I really wish you all the best getting thru these hard days and weeks ahead.

Also, those of you who know what is up with my sister, I am not ignoring it or unaffected by it, I just don't feel comfortable typing it all up here on my blog, for the sake of her privacy and my family's.

Love you all, readers!
Caro

oh happy day

I am so happy. I got to spend 9 hours with my fambly today. Jarrod and my dad accomplished the fuel pump in the Jeep, finally. Jarrod did the super hard stuff on Friday night, taking off a gas tank full of gas. I thought he was either going to blow up the garage or kick the crap out of the gas tank out of frustration. I am so glad it is over, and well of course so is he! We got to get Chinese food for dinner~! MMMMMMMMMM. Of course it doesn't go well with the Atkins diet, which I have been attempting for the last couple weeks. Jana and I were supposed to be doing this diet together but I don't know if she is or not? We haven't got to talk much lately. I was super bizy cleaning houses all week long. I am glad Jarrod has a 3 day weekend so I had a good excuse for not cleaning this coming Monday. We found a house online, through our "realtor" that we are very interested in, so hopefully can get moving on a loan and go check out the house tomorrow or monday. I can't believe in the next year we will probably be homeowners. At first I was frustrated because Jarrod is such a PICKY SNOB and just said NO no No no to every house we looked at online. Me, I would take anything because they all have "potential". He likes to look at location, etc etc etc. Oh and back to my wonderful day, we got to go to Sam's club, which is always fun. If I put everything in the cart I wanted there I would be stocked up on laundry soap and cleaning supplies for a year, but I contained my excitement. I do owe ma a small chunk of change for what I put in the cart, containing myself. For the first time in my life I own a bottle of Febreeze. The more houses I clean the more I wish that I could just spray it through the house afterward for a finishing touch. It is also probably good for those moments that the fam stops by with a moments notice and my house smells like the litter box. Mahna ate chinese chicken tonight for dinner and lo mein noodles. Ma has been encouraging me to feed her more "people food" instead of toddler meals. I am glad i have my mom and gma to help me move on to those next levels of parenting. I might try to make Mahna stay a baby forever... We also watched "March of the Penguins" at my parents house. If you haven't seen it, you must. What a one of a kind documentary. Really well photographed and told. Sad at times, and the mommy baby bond kind of brought out the baby fever in me. I would probably have to quit cleaning houses if I had another one, though, and that (sad to say) does hold me back. Lately I have been thinking a little more about going to school than making money. I guess cuz I have been doing SO MANY HOUSES it is not as fun. I go through spells though. Oh I did start a new house for a retired couple. The man has a photo studio in his house and has taken some SUPER cute pics of his granddaughter and other people....... So I might trade some cleaning for some pictures. Okay well that is enough for now, kind of a post all over the place but I cleared out my mind and that is the whole point right? :) Happy day to you!

so much to say and so little time

I have been insanely busy lately. More work than I can almost handle. I kind of wish I could take on a partner, but I am my business and I don't want to turn it "un personalized". I have been working about 4 days a week, and sometimes doing two houses in one day. I like the money, and Mahna loves the time with her gramma Dar and her G.G.

Today I am working on my taxes. UGH! It is complicated because Jarrod is an independent contractor and we have to deduct miles, etc. We were hoping to get back a good chunk this year to hurry up and pay off the rest of our debt. Unfortunately it is not working out.

We have been actively looking for a house to buy. We found one on "Cypress" in Lewisville. This is close to 3040 in between the mall and Flower Mound. If anyone knows where USA Fitness gym is it is close to that. This house is cool cuz it is 2000 square feet and that is much bigger than any of the other houses in our price range. Unfortunately it also needs a lot of work, like a roof and new carpet and new windows. We will see what happens. I know God has a plan for us.

Mahna is a little busy body. She starts going and going the second she wakes up in the morning. Right now she is running back and forth across the house getting into anything she can along the way. She is a neat freak, already, though. She likes to clean up her messes and loves to help me throw things in the trash can. Everything has to be "just so" or she gets upset. It is amusing at times!

Well I have tons of laundry to catch up on and a big mess of a house! Thanks for reading!

Good Point

Yea, Kendra, Good point. It is wise advice, "one day at a time". They use that in AA/NA and I think it can apply to pretty much anything you wish to accomplish. Today I will not take drugs. Today I will exercise. Today I will be an excellent mommy to my daughter. Today I will talk to my friends. Today I will call my grandma. Today I will take the time to email someone who it will mean something to. Today I will make an honest attempt at accomplishing my 'to do' list. Today I will clean my kitchen before I go to bed. Today I will clean someone else's house to the best of my ability. Today I will keep a positive attitude and be thankful for all the great things and great people in my life. Today I will pray and I will be hopeful for the future.

forcing it

Ok I am forcing myself to post because I have a couple minutes, Mahna free. Unfortunately it is 11 pm and I am TIRED and want to go sleepy Poo. I made coffee cake for my friend Cindy and I to enjoy over coffee at 9 a.m. tomorrow. I hope it tastes closely to as good as my mommy's used to. I finally jumpstarted my "get on the right track" in January thing. I have actually exercised hardcore 3 times in the last week. I have been praying more and I found my bible. Hey it is a start. It is better than what I was doing last week. I have been spending lots of good quality time with Mahna lately, too. Or maybe just appreciating it more lately. She is so much fun. So playful. I see why people can't wait for their kiddo to grow out of baby stage. I just didn't realize what I was missing several months ago. I do try to make the most out of these days we have together where I am not cleaning for anyone. I try not to ever clean on Mondays, so we always have Sat. Sun and Monday straight. I am not cleaning tomorrow either, but Weds thurs and Friday this week I am booked solid! I have had 4 new people approach me in the last 2 weeks! It feels good to be in demand. It is not a bad thing to be making extra money shortly before we invest in our first home. I want to pay off as much junk as possible and live off cash or maybe even save a little to the side besides our "house fund". Jarrod and I are so excited about getting a house. It is our shared excitement that makes it even better. I just have to say that in so many ways he and I are polar opposites. Music, personalities, beliefs (some) and socially. BUT when we do have something in common it just makes it so much better! Back to my Smirnoff Ice and nighty night Ya'll!

writers blok

I don't know what my reason or excuse is so I am going to say I have writer's block. I sit here and stare at the computer with nothing to say. During the day while I am cleaning other people's houses, I think of all sorts of clever things to blog about. By the time I get home, POOF they are gone. Maybe I should carry a tape recorder. Oh yea, Cory is borrowing it. He saw "White Noise" and is now attempting to record ghosts in his kitchen. Yes, he is yet again jobless and enjoying way too much free time being a nut.

Well I am just a screwup lately. I haven't made my resolutions yet. I am purposely procrastinating. I am being lazy and flowing with whatever feels fun right now and I don't want that big "life changing moment" to happen yet. I haven't worked out in almost two months. I quit Weight Watchers a while ago. I make it to church maybe every 6 weeks, and when I do go, I am convinced that this week will be different and I will make myself go every week. I just have the BLAHS and am not really making much of any effort to get out of them. I guess I will just ride the wave and see where it takes me.

I visited a Pawn Shop for only the 3rd time in my life yesterday. I bought a video game. Therefor I did two things I never do in one day. I am really excited tho. I got Wheel Of Fortune and it is really fun. Too bad Jarrod is better at EVERYTHING than I am so he keeps beating my pants off. I am just happy to have a video game that I like so I can be a little part of Playstation social circle. HA.

My little poopkins is just cuter than ever. She is quite the communicator. She points to where she wants you to sit and wants to constantly be read to. She also does a lot of mimicking of me, my mom and gma. It is so cute to see her growing up and being more of a person. Now if she would just GROW. I try not to worry about it, since the doctors tell me she is just a small person. But sometimes when I am buying her clothes I worry about her wearing 9 month clothing at the age of 16 months..... I guess I am also a little insecure because a few of my friends have younger babies who are much bigger.

For the weekend we had a short visit to San Antonio, but it was a fun two hours. Then we spent a day and 1/2 with Kendra and family. That was fun, too. It made me want to stay and stay and stay and live there all of us together again only now we are older and married and thankfully our huzbands get along and we all have a good time together, even with our sometimes extreme differences in lifestyle and personalities. I am thankful for all my siblings, and I hope Mahna will have some siblings someday. Another thing I am waiting for to "kick in" is the baby bug. 16 months old and I am still not really itchin for another.

AS ALWAYS thanks for reading and I will try to keep up better, but hey....... you know me.

howdy loyal readers!!!!!!!!

pictures again!!!!!!!!!!!!

pictures ! bout time eh?

tis cold YO

Short post: My injury was to my elbow (retarted eh) and it is okay now, although an old shoulder injury sort of came back with the wreck so I wish I had some anti inflammatory or pain medicine. Oh well........ someday. Mahna was not in the car when I wrecked. THANK YOU LORD! She would have got her little head jerked back and forth when we spun around. She did however get strep on Tuesday and has been up a lot with fever etc and has two ear infections. Poor baby. She did a lot better today and hopefully tonight I will get lots more sleep. It is soooooooooooo cold man! And gas heaters really freak me out! Friday is Tina's 7th bday party at Crystal's Pizza. It is also the day I was supposed to be organizing a potluck for MOPS but Tina is more important to me. MEMOIRS of A GEISHA comes out so hopefully saturday or sunday or monday me and grandma can go see it. We both read the book in the same month, so have been looking forward to the movie. It has been a bizy week even tho I only cleaned one house this week. Next week I have FOUR so I will be buzy but temporarily rich. Haha. I hope to finish Christmas shopping next week. The only person I have no clue what to get for is my brother. Maybe a gift card? OFF SUBJECT: Did anyone watch the finale of BIGGEST LOSER last Tuesday? I really wish I knew someone who had recorded it so I could watch it.

stupid black cloud

YEA i have a black cloud when it comes to my car. i wish sooooooooooooooooo hard for public transportation. Tonight I got SMASHED into by another car while driving my grandma to her car, about a 5 minute total trip! My whole driver side is ruined! I can't even open my door. I got a minor injury but HELLO no health insurance so no doctor. Sure this would be all fine and dandy if I had had my HEADLIGHTS ON. Then maybe I could have got my car fixed with HIS insurance money and gone to the DR on his dime. BUT NO I am an idiot and didn't have my headlights on so we had to call it good even though he slammed thru a stop sign and smashed my car and did NOTHING TO HIS (oh maybe a scratch on his big ass bumper). SUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!